This takes place in an alternate universe where endgame didn't happen. B'lanna has had the baby and Seven and Chakotay are together. It's totally different to my usual stuff and for those of you wondering about 'Leola Root jam' my last story the conclusion will be up in the next week or so.
The sick bay was in full light as the senior crew gathered around to congratulate the new parents. 'What are you two going to call her anyway?' asked Harry as he passed the baby girl onto Chakotay. 'My daughters name is' announced Tom 'Drum roll please' Harry started a drum roll ' My beautiful daughter's name is Miral Phoenix Paris!'. A cheer erupted in the sickbay.
'So where did the names come from?' inquired the captain, a few minutes later when the noise had died down. She was holding the baby sitting beside B'lanna's bed. B'lanna answered 'Miral for my mother and Phoenix for …. For someone very special who died a long time ago'. As the celebrations continued the first officer slipped outside.
'Chakotay where are you going' asked Kathryn as she hurried after him 'The party is just getting started'. He kept going. 'Chakotay what is wrong with you? Answer me!' the captained shouted, her voice getting more and more impatient as she followed him. 'I don't want to talk to you. Just leave me alone' He shouted turning around to face her. 'It's none of your damn business'. 'None of my business? I am the captain of this ship and everything that goes on in it is my business.' Her tempered was getting worse. ' You can' just walk out of a celebration of your best friend's child and not expect anyone to notice'. Chakotay was in no mood for this 'You want to know what's wrong? You really want to know?'. She stood face to face with him. 'Yes I want to know'. 'The Phoenix that B'lanna named her daughter after was my daughter. She's dead. And I am sorry but it did upset me because unlike you I don't keep all my emotions bottled up inside'. He stormed off leaving a shell-shocked captain, who never even knew that her best friend of 7 years had a daughter and had never told her.
The next day on the bridge Kathryn watched Chakotay as the day went by. He had been acting the same as usual as if last night hadn't even happened. Later, as she sat alone in her ready room, she tried to come to terms with this. What should she do? Could she approach the subject again? But how he was acting like he didn't even tell her last night.
The door beeped. 'Come' she said. B'lanna walked in with Miral in her arms. 'Hi captain I just called up so we could talk we barely saw each other last night' she said smiling , she settled into her chair and got comfortable. This was the perfect opportunity thought the captain. B'lanna knew about Chakotay's daughter and could tell her what happened. 'B'lanna can I ask you something?' she approached the subject cautiously. 'Sure what is it?' B'lanna answered. The captain decided to just blurt it out 'What happened to Chakotay's daughter?'. B'lanna looked shocked 'He told you?' Kathryn answered cautiously 'Last night I followed him after he left the party and asked what was wrong. He said that phoenix was his daughter and she was dead'. 'He doesn't talk about it a lot even with me it upsets him too much.' B'lanna looked sad as she remembered the past. 'Please tell me, B'lanna I need to know'. 'ok but just let me talk, no questions or anything'.
She began 'I joined the maquis 10 years ago when I was 23. I had dropped out of the academy as you know and after drifting for a while I joined the maquis. But I wasn't allowed to go fight straight away first I was sent to this planet where all new recruits went if they were young or if the person who recruited them thought they needed extra training. Starfleet never discovered it. This place was run by this women Isis Fernandez. She was amazing all the children who's parents were fighting lived on this planet and it was a paradise and she cared for it. It's where I first met Chakotay. He and Isis had been dating each other for about a year and shortly after I arrived they split up. It was amicable though and they stayed friends which was good when Isis found out that she was pregnant. They were surprised but they were so excited, they even got married but it was only so that the baby would have two legal parents. They planned to divorce after the baby was born. Everything was going fine as I was on Chakotay's ship we went back there as often as possible and Isis and I became good friends. When the baby was born everyone was celebrating Chakotay and Isis were popular in the maquis and nearly everyone came for the party. They never got around to getting that divorce though. As time went by things got into a routine. We went back to the planet every two weeks and then Isis and I would go and get supplies for the children. The war with the Cardassians had worsened by then and we had made contingency plans that if the planet was attacked that everyone would go through the wormhole and then the maquis would come for them but when the planet was attacked they didn't have a chance we were lucky though because the federation were involved and when they realised that all the inhabitants were children they rescued them and took them to orphanages. Most people got their families to go and get their children and care for them after that. But Isis wasn't on the planet one of the kids said that all the adults had to leave on a shuttle so that they wouldn't be arrested . The Cardassians blow it up and killed Isis, Phoenix, and two of the other adults Mark and Serena. It nearly killed Chakotay to lose his daughter like that. He's never really gotten over it.
The captain looked shocked as B'lanna sat there tears running down her face. ' Isis was his best friend and mother of his only child, and Phoenix was his angel. About 6 months later voyager met us and from then on you know the story. But Chakotay still won't talk about it even with me and I was Phoenix's godmother and Isis's friend. He just tries not to think about it that much' 'I didn't know. I'm sorry I asked you B'lanna' Kathryn looked so sad as she apologised to B'lanna. 'It's ok Kathryn it does me good to remember them they were like my family. But time has moved on and so does Chakotay.' Kathryn got up and walked over to her window and stared out at the stars. She turned again to B'lanna ' should I tell him that I know? That you told me?'. B'lanna thought for a moment 'Tell him I told you. He can yell at me later. I'd better go and put this little girl to bed her dad will be wondering where we are'. B'lanna stood up and walked over to Kathryn and hugged her. 'I'll see you tomorrow'
It was a month later and Kathryn still hadn't talked to Chakotay about Phoenix. She had tried but every time she get near to him Seven came. He and Seven had been getting closer and closer lately and the rumours that they were dating seemed to be true. She had missed her chance with him, she knew that now. Seven was her protégé and Kathryn knew that she could never try and take Chakotay from her. It was her own fault that she had been to scared to make a move, that protocol had been ingrained too deeply into her for her to change and tell him how she felt.
C'est la vie, she thought to herself as she watched Chakotay and Seven play chess together in the mess hall. I can wish and wish but my wishes are in vain and she walked out of the mess hall and to her ready room her ship needed her, it would always need her.
