Disclaimer: I don't own 'Silver Lining' from Amanda Ghost. Hey…I own 'In the Darkness' from Mackenzie Philips ::gets tapped on shoulder by a freaky government guy that suspiciously looks like he works for Nick::…what I don't own the song…now that's just a piece of crap…everyone knows I own that song ::Government/Nick dude holds up an official looking paper::…oh, I don't…well…that sucks…do you work for Nick??? ::man nods::…oh, ok…::kicks man in groin::…that's for lord Jhonen Vasques who owns the wonderful show Invader Zim.
Chapter 9: Bus Ride From Hell IV"Die, Vampire Piggies," Gaz yelled at her Game Slave 3000.
She was playing Death of the Vampire Piggies XXII. She was having fun killing all the annoying piggies. They were really annoying (A/N: Like me. Sorry about that, but when my friends see this they'll demand that I add that in. It will be taken out for the revised edition).
Gaz looked up and noticed that almost everyone, including that annoying kid in front of her, was staring at her. All she did in response was stare at them as if they were the biggest idiots on the planet…actually they were, and pull out her CD player.
*Drawn to the violence of change
Charmed by the sentimental brave
I hear the door slam
I look the other way
I hate the small talk and the empty*
"Ow," Zim a fifteen-year-old yelled as a red dodge ball rammed into his squeedly spooch.
"You ok?" Gaz asked helping Zim up and over to the bench.
*Silver lining
I bathe in your light
I'll always believe in your place in my life
Silver lining
I know that I'm right
I'll always believe in your right to shine*
"Yeah, I'm fine," Zim said without realizing that she had helped him right away. Then, finally realizing, he said, "Why did you help me up?"
"You seemed to need it," Gaz said before going back to her Game Slave.
*Scared of the things that people say
Knowing my confidence might fail
I feel the world's weight upon my breaking back
I see uncertainty and the visible cracks*
"Oh," Zim said going quiet.
*Silver lining
I bathe in your light
I'll always believe in your place in my life
Silver lining
I know that I'm right
I'll always believe in your right to shine*
The two sat there in silence, not counting the beeping coming from Gaz's Game Slave, for the rest of their break. It felt to both of them that something was keeping them from breaking the perfect calmness at that bench.
*Silver lining
I bathe in your light
I'll always believe in your place in my life
Silver lining
I know that I'm right
I'll always believe in your right to shine*
Gaz looked at her little watch necklace thingy. It was twelve o'clock. Damn she still had a long time coming on this doomed bus.
A few minutes later, Gaz decided that the only way to make this bus ride go by quicker was to go to sleep, if that was even possible.
~*~ Yeah!! This is my first dream sequence ~*~
"Hello," Gaz yelled as she walked around a city much like the ones back home, but this one was different.
*Demons come from every side
In the darkness is the light
Pulling me on a downward slide
In the darkness is the light
Getting hot the deeper I go
In the darkness is the light
Into the darkness down below
In the darkness is the light*
The difference wasn't the buildings were taller, or the red dirt that usually is only found in desert cities with really dirty streets (unlike this one where the streets were as clean as possible, so clean they were practically shinning). The buildings were made of something that looked like glass, but didn't have that reflective property like the ones in normal cities.
*I live my life in one straight line
The future ahead and the past behind
Don't wanna go back to yesterday
But I don't know how long I can run this way, yeah*
A few minutes of just standing in one spot and looking around for some living person (human or not, none came), Gaz finally realized that this was exactly like the picture of Irk that Zim had shown her a few years ago. Finally a group walked by, they were Irken, but they totally ignored her as if she were invisible or something. Quickly she walked into a near by building, the capital building, as if she knew her way around perfectly, though in life she had know idea which building was the capital building. Quietly she walked over to an elevator like the ones in Zim's lab and went all the way to the top floor.
*A jungle hung with tangled vines
In the darkness is the light
I'm tangled up in my own lines
In the darkness is the light
A creature there in darkness lies
In the darkness is the light
Why is it that he has my eyes
In the darkness is the light*
Seeing a door at the end of the long hallway, she ran inside. Inside were the tallest, Gaz knew who they were, though she didn't know how. They were laughing, laughing about how they had sent Zim on the fake mission to Earth and he still had no idea that it was all just a plan to get rid of him. They were laughing about how there was another Irken already there, one that they had sent years before, the murderer. How he had killed many humans, but mostly just out of one family. How there was only one of them left, named Gaz.
*I've lived my life in one straight line
The future ahead and the past behind
Now I've hit a wall like I never knew
And they tell me the only way out is through, yeah*
"Ugh," Gaz growled. "You will pay."
*They say the truth will set me free, yeah
In the darkness is the light
Free to be down here on my knees, yeah
In the darkness is the light
But just when I thought I'd lost my sight
In the darkness is the light
I catch a glimpse of that beautiful light
In the darkness is the light*
The tallest turned around and faced Gaz. She creeped them out, but they didn't even faze her. She clenched her fists tightly and started shaking with anger.
*In the darkness is the light
Surrender will win the fight
This girl's walked through fire and ice
But I'll come out on the other side of paradise*
"You. Will. Pay." Gaz said once again her body shaking as hard as humanly possible from the anger. "You have done too much to deserve to live."
*Oh yeah paradise, yeah, yeah
My paradise is here with you
Is here with you baby, paradise
Paradise
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah paradise*
With that everything faded into darkness.
~*~Dream Sequence…Over~*~
Gaz sat up quickly, almost hitting her head on the seat in front of her. Quickly she realized that it must be getting late, when she saw that the sky was already starting to turn the dark blue of night fall. Looking at her watch pendant she saw that it was already six-thirty.
"There's a light in the sky
Telling me my future
It's so black
I can't take it any more," Gaz sang softly as she picked up a dagger off the bench of the gazebo.
"The sky ain't clearing up
Tonight
The sun is burning bright enough
Just to tell me, my time has come," Gaz's voice was soft, but steady as she picked up a bottle of sleeping pills.
"There's a way for me to know
Exactly where I am going to go
But there won't be anyway
For you to save me the next day," Gaz sang before she dropped the bottle of pills at the sight of Zim.
"Gaz," a thirteen-year-old Zim suddenly yelled coming up to Gaz (fourteen years old) as she stood in the dark gazebo of the park, the night sky was reflecting in her eyes. "What are you doing out here?"
"This is my time to say
Good bye for ever
It's been nice
But now I must go," Gaz sang on ignoring Zim, except to give him a glare that practically yelled 'none of your business, now go away so I can go on.'
"Gaz, what are you doing?" Zim asked again seeing the dagger in her hand.
"The time has come
For me to see
The stars
To see my place in the sky," Gaz continued to sing, her song slow and sad.
Zim quickly grabbed the dagger as he started to understand what Gaz was doing.
"I have to leave now
Or my chance will be gone
Forever
I hope the world don't mind," Gaz sang on as she tried to get the dagger back from Zim.
Zim kicked the bottle of sleeping pills where she couldn't get to them and threw the dagger over the fence like wall of the gazebo.
"There's too much pain
No one understands
What I have to go through
All day and night," Gaz sang sitting down.
"I got my mind set
On what I'm gonna do
I'm gonna finish off what I started
I'm going to finish it through and though," Gaz quickly ran after the dagger before Zim had a chance to stop her.
By now the moon had given way to the sun, both were still up, the sun on the east and the moon on the west. Zim jumped in front of her just before she got to the dagger, his 'spider' legs out and ready to stop her.
"The sun light
Is taking the pain out of my heart
The moonlight
Is protecting me that is it's part," Gaz sang looking at the sun and the moon in one quick glance.
"I don't think you understand
No one does
No one even tried to give me a had
With it all," Gaz sang suddenly glaring at Zim with eyes that seemed to bore right through him.
"The pain
Is getting stronger
It's telling me
This is my chance," Gaz sang louder with each line.
"I'm gonna do it my way
Gonna end it today
Before anyone has a chance
To stop me from ending this misery," Gaz quickly dove for the dagger, just barely being stopped by Gir as he walked over from one of the bushes.
"Hi, Gazzy," Gir said happily hugging her head as she landed on the ground from her dive, Gir's only response from Gaz was a growl that would have scared him had he not been so stupid.
"Sweet misery
It's time for you to go
Sweet misery
You're all that I've ever had to know," Gaz pulled out of Gir's grasp only to run into Zim.
"The time has come
The train is in
To take me home
Away from this place," a strange smile flashed over Gaz's face as she sat back on the grass looking up at the sky.
"There is a chance for me
To finally be happy
But it's not in this world
It's over the stars and further," Gaz was looking at the few stars that were left in the sky dimming ever so slowly.
"I don't think you know me
No one knows the pain deep within
No one knows why this must be
Why there's no use in living any more," Zim came down to the ground off his 'spider' legs as Gaz looked at him with eyes filled with pain.
"My time has come
I'm gonna go
Before there some one
Can come a stop me," quickly Gaz dove again for the dagger, this time Gir wasn't there behind her to stop her from getting it, he had suddenly disappeared.
"This is a gift
From above
An end to this
Sweet, sweet misery," Gaz sang the last words quietly, almost silently as Zim again was able to get the dagger, this time because she was too tired to fight anymore, not because he had caught her off guard.
"Gaz," Zim said softly.
"What?" Gaz yelled back as she wiped a tear from her eyes. "Why'd you have to stop me?"
"Because there's no reason for you to die," Zim replied as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.
"Why not?" Gaz snapped back.
"Because…I…I…like you," Zim stuttered.
"I like you, too," Gaz said softly as the tears poured down her face.
Gaz silently held herself as she shook in her seat. That song, her song, the only one that anyone had ever heard, Zim heard it, and only Zim would ever hear it, but someday it would be sung again.
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Hey…wasn't that flashback…strange…but it's going to help with later chapters…so I was forced to do it.
^_^
Gaz
