If only I could be strong,

Not just physically, but emotionally

If only I could keep my feelings in check,

Yet, I am not how you think I am.

Friendliness and stupidity mask of what you usually see,

But when you don't draw near,

I break down,

In fear of losing you…forever…

I want this to be all a dream,

That tomorrow you'll come back and hold me in your arms,

Telling me that everything's all right,

No, it wouldn't happen


Sometimes I feel your presence,

Even when you're not near,

It's this weird sensation,

Seeming as if you are looking over me…

Yet, no matter how much I explain,

How much I express myself,

Tears can flood my heart,

You still won't come and help...

Even if you just come back for a moment,

Come back, I need your assuring arm,

That'll guide me in the darkness,

And be there wherever I go…

Ran went over to the big window and opened it. The cold evening breeze blew in on her, but she did not waver. She didn't even seem to feel it at all. Ran stood there, looking downwards upon the snow. She had nothing in her mind at the moment, but quickly an image of Shinichi had appeared in front of her. She saw him right there near the front door, looking up at her. Ran half yelled half whispered, "Shinichi…" But then, he disappeared. Tears started to well in her eyes. Suddenly, a few lines of a poem she never heard had entered her mind.

If only I could be strong,

Not just physically, but emotionally

If only I could keep my feelings in check,

Yet, I am not how you think I am.

"Mustn't cry…mustn't cry…" Ran said to herself. She can't cry. She has to be strong when Shinichi's away. "If only you could be by my side right now…everything turn back to normal…can't lose you…"

Friendliness and stupidity mask of what you usually see,

But when you don't draw near,

I break down,

In fear of losing you…forever…

"This must be a hoax that Shinichi's playing on me. He's here in this city, wandering aimlessly. He'll be back tomorrow…yes, he will…" Ran told herself. But deep down where all secrets are locked carefully by this girl, she knows she's the one who is playing the hoax.

I want this to be all a dream,

That tomorrow you'll come back and hold me in your arms,

Telling me that everything's all right,

No, it wouldn't happen

Ran saw Conan coming out of the corner of her eye. He was holding a coat that belonged to her. Suddenly this weird feeling came over her and she felt him. She felt Shinichi. For some reason, this mere boy carried the feeling that Shinichi usually evokes on her…

Sometimes I feel your presence,

Even when you're not near,

It's this weird sensation,

Seeming as if you are looking over me…

Ran suddenly lets loose. She had eased off from her tears for the slightest moment. Then, they just took over her. Crystal like, the dropped from her chin onto the floor. "Why can't you be back here, Shinichi? Then I wouldn't have to be crying for something as stupid as this!" She thought

Yet, no matter how much I explain,

How much I express myself,

Tears can flood my heart,

You still won't come and help...

Conan was right beside her when she had lost it. Pushing her softly, he lifts up the heavy jacket. "Ran, you look cold. You shouldn't be standing at an open window at this time of the night. Here." He held the jacket to her. She didn't understand what was happening. Why was this boy so nice to her, acting as Shinichi when he wasn't here? Then, when she could no longer keep the shimmering fluids back, she just let them come. She fell on her knees and closed her arms around Conan unable to control the tears anymore. "Thank….you….so much….Conan…" When she had calmed herself down and had gathered her thoughts, what she was thinking accidentally came out. "Conan, you are such a reassuring presence. Sometimes, I think that Shinichi is really beside me. You feel like Shinichi to me." She could see Conan wondering about what she was saying. Conan replies, "If you need me anytime, just call me. I'll be here and help you through all your troubles." Ran looked at Conan as he said those words. She saw that he really meant it. "Thank you, Conan Edogawa…"

Even if you just come back for a moment,

Come back, I need your assuring arm,

That'll guide me in the darkness,

And be there wherever I go…