~*~*~ Destiny's Daughter 12 ~*~*~

By: Rogue Angel Barton

Er... I don't own anything. Except maybe Miaka, but then again she's her own person. But she is in MY story. So do I own her?!?! If I do... then it'll be GUN!!!! I mean... FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Miaka let out a mental groan as she saw the back of Heero Yuy. She turned around, ready to step back into the club, even though she felt she was going to melt in there or die of suffocation.

"Come on I don't have you running scared do I Goddess of the Battlefield?"

Miaka turned around. Heero's back was still to her, but she could see that it was tenser than before.

"What makes you say that?"

"You were about to walk back in, although I know you wanted to get away from it."

"What makes you say that?"

"I know you too well... but things have changed."

Nikki nodded as she walked next to him. Leaning on the railing she closed her eyes, she allowed the wind to caress her face, cooling her down. She opened her eyes when she felt a slight movement next to her. She opened her eyes and looked at Heero's face as he sat on the railing.

"Things have changed haven't they?"

Nikki looked at Heero before looking away. They both knew the truth.

"What made things change? It... it... it couldn't possibility of been that... that kiss...right?"

Nikki turned to face him and watched as Heero shook his head to avoid the obvious answer.

"I... how can it just... I..."

Heero couldn't get it out. He'd been thinking about this chance all night and he was blubbering like a fool. The best train soldier was scared of telling his best friend how he felt. 'Why does this have to be so hard. I know what I feel, I think, now why can't I say it?!'

"So how are you liking the night club Miaka?"

Nikki was clearly disappointed as she smiled weakly.

"It's great. You guys really do have fun."

"How do you like Duo?"

Heero mentally hit himself. The question just... came out. Oh lord what the heck was he going to do with himself?! That was so... but he had to know. No matter if she liked it or not, he would be fine with it. Besides, he was sure that he could control himself if Miaka liked Duo... Duo better pray every night for the rest of his life if Miaka does like him.

"Duo's... not my type of guy. He's nice and I love him, but as a brother. He's too carefree, he can't understand what I've been through."

"He's been through more than you think."

"I know that. Each pilot has their own history. I'm sure he's been through s lot. But he's too carefree and happy for me to stain him. He's- he's... he's too... too..."

"...innocent."

Miaka looked at Heero as he finished her sentence. This happened sometimes, when they would know what was on the other's mind. But lately it's been so... undefined. The clear line between them has been...

"Blurred."

She looked at him as he looked at her.

"The line's been blurred. We don't know what's what any more. But... it's not necessarily a bad thing right? Blurred lines always leads to new levels and deeper meanings."

Miaka looked away. She couldn't face his optimism.

"Sometimes when lines are blurred, things spin out of control and the while general air of things is wacked up. Sometimes things never return to the way they once were."

HE moved closer to her. If she moved an inch closer, they would have been touching.

"Sometimes it's better when things aren't the same. They lead to new place, new ground, new discoveries."

"But what have we found on this new plateau?! Empty promises and meaningless masks. Heero we're keeping masks from each other! Each other!!!!!!!! We're the ones who never let anything stand in the way! Now we can't EVEN TELL EACH OTHER WHAT WE'RE THINKING!"

Miaka spun around and charged into the club. Heero stood there motionless. So that's what she's been thinking. He wouldn't blame her. Everything was wrong, and it was all his fault. If only he could tell her how he felt. If she only knew...

Heero looked up and walked inside. He had an idea... and it just might get Miaka to talk to him again.

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Miaka watched as Heero continued to round up the Gundam boys. She knew he had something up his sleeve, Heero Yuy was never without a plan. Walking up to the stage, he grabbed the microphone and the crowd silenced. Miaka was impressed how his presence silenced the group.

"Hey guys! It's us, The Indestructibles!"

The crowd began to cheer. There was obviously something that Miaka was missing.

"We haven't played for a while. So please excuse us if we sound really bad."

A gentle and soothing music flowed through the huge room. Miaka leaned on the back wall; not knowing what Heero Yuy was pulling here. She was surprised when he began to sing.

"If she only knew
What I knew but couldn't say
If she could just see
The part of me that I hid away (oh yeah)
If I could just hold her in my arms again
And just say I love you
But she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
If she only knew."

Heero stared directly into Miaka's eyes. For some reason, he could always seem to find that. Miaka couldn't help but allow the confusion to shine in her eyes. What was he trying to say?



"If she could just feel

What I feel here in my heart
She'd know it was real
Pure and true right from the start
But I'm just a man who didn't understand
What she was going through
But she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
If she only knew."

Miaka shook her head. No, he was not talking about her. He mind clearly rang out that it was for Relena, but her heart refused to believe it. Her heart knew it was for her.



"And how, how did I let her get away
Cause love, love is so easy to feel
But the hardest thing to say."

Miaka's eyes widened. This was the moment she had been waiting for. And now it was coming true. But her logic and mind was saying no. Her traitorous heart was screaming that Heero was another person playing her. The rest of the boys joined in.


"If she could just see
What I see when I close my eyes
All that I dream
Surely she would realize
But like a fool I waited much too long
To let her know the truth
She's gone away, maybe she'd stay
If she only knew."

'Damn you Yuy! What are you trying to say? Can't you just come up to me and tell me? I need to hear it from you, not some song. I need to make sure. I need to know that you truly feel this way. I need to know that it's real. I need to know you're not playing me like everyone else!'


"Tell me, tell me how
How did I let her get away (Tell me)
Cause I guess that love
Love is so easy to feel
But the hardest thing to say."

Miaka felt it in her heart. She knew this was real. God please let this be real. This would be the last time her battered heart can stand another attack. God please say he's singing for her. God please say that he loved her. God, please grant her this one wish.



"If she only knew
What I knew but could not say
If she could just see
The part of me that I hide away
If I could just hold her in my arms again
And just say I love you
She's gone away, maybe she'd stay
If she only knew, if she only knew."

The crowd burst into applause as Miaka's cheek was graced by the rare presence of a tear. As she began to walk towards the stage, Relena suddenly jumped onto Heero.

"Heero thank you! I love you too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Miaka froze as Relena kissed Heero. The world around her shattered. Her heart broke into a thousand pieces. There was nothing left, just nothing in her. Her soul couldn't take it anymore. Why did he have to play her too? Why did he have to be like the others? Why did he have to lie? Why did she have to love him?!?!

Running out of the club, she felt her tears fall one by one. She'd thought there were no more tears to cry sine she'd cried so many times. Her tears blinded her as she jumped into Duo's car and sped away. The fool left his keys in the ignition. Driving as fast as she could, she tried to think. Her tears were blinding her but she just went faster and faster. Why did he have to be like that?

"I thought you were different! I let you in! Why do you do this to me?!"

Not caring that the speed limit ion the highway was 70, Nikki went above 130 mph. Her tears blinded her as her head swam with the confusion and the feeling of betray. 'I might as well crash.' She thought as she smiled bitterly. 'Maybe then Heero will notice that I'm alive... er... well, dead?'

Shaking her head she tried to clear her mind. No, she was a soldier, the PERFECT Soldier. That would be taking the coward's way out. And she, was NO coward. She'll just deal with Yuy later. Arriving at the Peacecraft mansion in a mere 20 minutes, she calmly stepped out of the car. Grabbing her jacket, she slowly walked to the door.

She rang the doorbell and waited for a servant to open the door. After a while of waiting, a maid opened the door. She was shocked to see Nikki at 12 at night.

"Home so early Ms. Nikki?"

Nikki nodded with nothing in her eyes. The maid knew something was wrong as she stepped back. Nikki pushed opened the door and stepped inside. The house was dark since Noin and Milliardo were at Brussels for a conference. The others were still at the club.

As Nikki walked upstairs, she wondered if anyone noticed that she wasn't there.

Duo looked around for Nikki. He saw her before Relena had jumped into Heero's arms. The idiot just stood there stunned. He knew it hurt Nikki, badly to see Relena jumping into Heero's arms. Duo can feel that Heero liked Nikki. But the guy was too thick!

Duo turned around and saw that Heero was looking for Nikki too. They were through the crowd in search of her. Then a thought struck Duo. She must have gone back! And... where were his keys? Searching his pockets frantically, he gulped as he remembered they were in the car. Cursing out loud he ran to Quatre.

"Quatre I need your keys!!!!!"

"Why?!"

"Nikki just drove my car away!"

Quatre nodded since he could feel Nikki's feelings as well as Heero's. He knew what was going on and wished he could help them. HE handed over his keys to Duo, although slightly unwillingly.

Duo grabbed the keys and ran out the door. Jamming the keys into the ignition and sped off.

"Please be alright Nikki."

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Heero watched as Duo sped out the door. He shook his head since he knew Duo would get to Nikki first. He had ultimately lost his chance. His foolishness and the unexpected ruined his chance with her. He had enough chances, now it was time to realize that it was over. It was over before it got a chance to start.

~IS that the way of a soldier?~

^It is because of the soldier, that everything has gone wrong.^

~Yuy, ever thought of explaining things to her?~

^Maybe there is a chance?^

~As long as you still love her and you are alive, there will always be a chance.~

^When did you agree with me?^

~Since you really love her. And I realized that... the war is over. That's it.~

Heero shook his head. His mind was right. The war was over. So he has to let go. Walking out the door, he realized that everyone was ready to leave. They were all waiting outside for him, scowling at him. Shaking his head he got on his bike. Relena was going home with the other girls. HE saw that Quatre was riding with Trowa. Knowing that Duo took Quatre's car, Heero shook his head.

He started his engine and sped off. The others followed. IT was around 1 in the morning and Heero's head was swimming. His head was filled with thoughts and he didn't realize that they were there.

(AN: Quick ride ain't it folks?)

The house was still dark. Quatre's car was on the lawn with er... a broken window. Quatre scrambled to his car as everyone else got inside. Heero walked in and headed for the second floor. Walking to Miaka's room, he found someone outside the door, leaning against the wall with cold and accusing eyes. But they were not the eyes of Nikki Michaelson. It was the cold violet eyes of Duo Maxwell.

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Mr. Soldier Boy vs. Shinigami. Who would have seen this one coming? And guess what? Miaka didn't get into a car crash!

Jade: I'm so proud of you!

Rage: Thanx. Now Jade, do you're thing.

*Jade pulls out scythe*

Jade: Review or else!

PS Song is 98 Degree's If She Only Knew