1 You've Changed

2

3 Summary: Steph/Kurt. Stephanie knows why she bought the ECW.but maybe she's wrong about that special someone.



I did all for Kurt.

Five months ago, when I bought the ECW, I did it for Kurt.

Back then, those feelings were probably buried. I couldn't tell you why I had done it back then; it seemed at that time to be, I don't know, revenge? Revenge on whom? My father, of course. My father, for everything he had ever done to me. I can easily leap to that defense - he has done a lot to me over the years. Whether it's that time that he forgot to attend my eighth grade graduation, when he forgot about my dance recital, or when he plotted to kidnap me three years ago, I have a lot on him. Everyone knows that.

All that while, all that while I had acted like a selfish bitch (and still do act like one), I pinned the stamp of guilt onto my father. Of course, Paul Heyman reinforced that wall of defense. "Terrible upbringing she had, J.R.!" That's what he had shouted for months. Maybe that's true.

But that's not why I did it.

I did it for Kurt.

Last year, I got to know Kurt Angle.

I don't admit this to myself a lot, but I got to know him a lot.

It all started that night that Hunter was showing Trish the wrestling moves. I snapped. All the fans of the WWF saw me - I threw lamps around the room and yelled like a mad banshee.

But they didn't see what happened afterwards. I ordered Hunter out of the dressing room, and he left. I called Kurt. I was literally in tears, and it concerned Kurt. He's a good guy. I'm the manipulative bitch that lured him towards me. He got very upset with my husband from that point on. I encouraged him. I, of course, didn't know it at the time, but I can be very blind.

On that night, on that night after Summerslam, Kurt carried me out of the arena. I was barely conscious. He took me to his hotel room. Why not the hospital, I had wondered. Why not my home, I had thought. Why do I care; at least he cares about me, I had also thought.

Then I made the biggest mistake of my life.

I was fully conscious; I had not gone insane.

I told him that I loved him.

"Really?" he asked me, with love in his eyes.

"Really," I replied, smiling tearfully.

Then he kissed me. That certainly wasn't the first time, but it felt different this time. I had asked for it this time, and this time I was really enjoying it.

He led me to the single bed and we made love. It wasn't as aggressive as it was when I had sex with Hunter; it seemed more gentle.

We never mentioned it again. It happened once, and it changed our 'friendship' forever. After the feud with Hunter was finished, Kurt really never found anything to say to me again. I think he was hurt by the fact that I never came back for more. I guess I was confused.

I know now that I am not confused by one thing. I love Kurt.

I bought the ECW for Kurt.

I love Kurt.

I have to sort this out. Why did I buy the ECW for Kurt? Allow me to explain. I knew that he would eventually defect.

I knew that he would defect because he loves me. He has admitted this before. It seems hard to believe that he still loves me after what I did to him, but it's true.

And that's exactly what he did. I can admit to myself that when he was defected, I wasn't happy for the Alliance. I was happy for myself. I was happy that Kurt was drawn back into my life. I'm selfish.

We have talked twice. He seems very casual about our relationship, and I told him something.

"Kurt, I still love you, you know."

He looked me straight in the eye, and said, "You've changed."

And that's that. Or is it? I have my ways.

3.1 THE END