~Chapter six. Told by Seifer.
Fujin... I didn't mean to... Slouching down under my trenchcoat, I nodded toward Raijin, and walked downstairs to the bar, grabbing a peice of bread off the table on the way. I seen her sitting at the counter, a glass in front of her, and a lit cigarette in between her two fingers. And head rested in her hand.
"Fujin." I said, sitting next to her.
"GO AWAY."
"Fuu..." I haven't called her that... in years... She looked up at me, sighing out smoke. I pulled the cigarette away from her fingers and put it out in the ashtray.
"Seifer... stop it. G-go away..."
"You want another one, mam?" The bartender asked.
"Mm..." She said, drinking the rest of her last one.
"Fujin, I'm sorry."
"You were sorry last time too. Nothing changed. You're still the arrogant bastard you always were." The bartender set another drink in front of her, and she grabbed it, drinking all of it.
"Fuu... stop it..."
"How come you never told me about Gina, Seifer?"
"What?"
"Gina, you know, the girl you're 'in love' with?"
"What the fuck are you talking about?!" How drunk *is* she?!
"Raijin told me... Gina..." Then it hit me. I had told Raijin the other night... that... Shit!
"No, Raijin's screwed up...! He misinterpeted what I said. ...Fuu, tell me, what are your problems? I wanna hear them..." I did... I mean, it was the truth...
"I dunno, Seifer, I'm just too drunk to... Oh shit... I'm talking the wrong way, aren't I? I'm sorry..." ...How many of those has she had...? I look at the six empty glasses in front of her. She just got down here! Damn... I upset you that much?
"Mm, Fujin, I think we should get you upstairs..."
"No... I don't want to go up there, with big... and... what was the other thing?"
"Stupid."
"Yeah..."
"Then, uh, lets go outside we can take a walk."
"Mmkay..." I grabbed her arm and put some gil on the counter, then left with her, clinging to my arm.
"I'm sorry, Seifer... This is so embarassing... But hell, we all get drunk, right, Seifer?!" ...Does she know?! No, she's just drunk...
"It's alright, Fuu... Lets go sit down."
"Wait! Look." She pointed toward the ground below our balcony, where there was a pile of about fifteen cigarettes.
"Damn, Fujin, you smoke alot..." Now, I was concerned for her health.
"I know... I need to stop... But I can't... I've got you around."
"What? This is my fault now?" What'd I do now...!?
"You're always yelling at me... you heard me up there... I was only screaming."
"I know, I know..." ...
"APOLOGY." Ah, fuck, she's talking like that again.
"It's okay."
"NO! NOT FROM ME! FROM YOU! APOLOGIZE!" Oh! Yeah...
"...I'm sorry, Fuu..."
"That's better... But do you mean it?" ...Well, yeah.
"Yes."
"WHY? WHY YELL? WHY CRITIZISE? AM THAT AWFUL?" She looked up at me, and it started to rain. I didn't want to get into that, so...
"We should get home. It's raining."
"No..." She nearly whined. Hm, Fujin seems to be more human when she has had six drinks.
"Well, what? You *want* to get soaked...?!" ...
"HOTEL. WE GO." If she wasn't drunk, that would have been a little bit more than "thought-provoking."
"Fujin, you know we don't have the money to be spending it on a hotel room when we gotta home..."
"Please...?" ...Don't look at me like that. Stop it! ...Ack, fine! Friggin' Fujin always gets her way.
"Alright, alright."
~~~
ANSWER. QUESTION." She was talking like she always did again. She must have been falling out of her drunken state. I didn't want to talk anymore. That large, queen-sized bed, with four pillows and tons of blankets was looking really good... Especially in comparison to our bed... errr, cot back at home.
"What question?" I asked, laying back on the bed. She sat at the foot of the bed, and scowled at me when I layed down.
"NO. DON'T SLEEP. ANSWER QUESTION. ASKED ON STREET."
"...I dunno whatcha talkin' about." I lied. I just didn't want to answer it.
"SEIFER! HAVE TO. PAY ATTENTION!"
"...Sorry, sorry." I muttered, sitting up.
"ASKED. WHY YELL? AT ME. WHY CRITISIZE ME? AM THAT AWFUL?" Ah... damn...
"...No, Fujin..."
"THEN WHY?"
"Cause... Becuz, I feel... I feel, um, guilty."
"FOR WHAT?" Do I gotta tell you?
"...It's not important."
"IS!"
"Why?"
"ANSWER, MY QUESTION. FIRST." ...Nah...
"Why? Mine would be easier to answer..."
"NEGATIVE. ANSWER." ...Aye.
"...I just feel like I've ruined you... I mean, Raijin... Raijin would be happy if he lived in the TImber Zoo... But, Fujin, I didn't make you happy. Hell, I didn't make me happy... And so, sometimes, I just get upset... At myself, and blame it on you... I'm sorry..." I put my hand on her shoulder.
"Seifer... DID NOT. RUIN. AM FINE. JUST NOT. WHEN YOU YELL."
"...Aw, Fuu..."
"HM."
"Heh... Can we sleep now? I'm liking the way this bed looks." I say, trying not to show how uncomfortable I am after I had said what I did.
"AFFIRMATIVE." I shut off the lamp. She laid back, laying face down on the pillow, and I pulled of my shirt, and climbed in next to her. The bed was quite comfortable, since their were no springs digging into my back from the mattress. I roll over so that I face her, though I can't see her. Have I ruined you, Fujin? I wish I knew what you thought about... I mean, what can a girl, who works at a bar, in Deling... and lives with two idiots think about? She doesn't seem like a dreamer, but maybe she is... She just doesn't want to show it. I've known you for so long, Fujin, yet you are *still* a mystery to me...
I guess life must be hard for you... I never realized it before, but I do now... Fujin, forgive me. But, still, we are a posse. Our posse will stay together... until the end. And when that end comes, it'll be the end for each and every one of us... Even though there are only three. Its my posse. I fell asleep, I guess, though it was only a very light sleep, for me, even.
Fujin... I didn't mean to... Slouching down under my trenchcoat, I nodded toward Raijin, and walked downstairs to the bar, grabbing a peice of bread off the table on the way. I seen her sitting at the counter, a glass in front of her, and a lit cigarette in between her two fingers. And head rested in her hand.
"Fujin." I said, sitting next to her.
"GO AWAY."
"Fuu..." I haven't called her that... in years... She looked up at me, sighing out smoke. I pulled the cigarette away from her fingers and put it out in the ashtray.
"Seifer... stop it. G-go away..."
"You want another one, mam?" The bartender asked.
"Mm..." She said, drinking the rest of her last one.
"Fujin, I'm sorry."
"You were sorry last time too. Nothing changed. You're still the arrogant bastard you always were." The bartender set another drink in front of her, and she grabbed it, drinking all of it.
"Fuu... stop it..."
"How come you never told me about Gina, Seifer?"
"What?"
"Gina, you know, the girl you're 'in love' with?"
"What the fuck are you talking about?!" How drunk *is* she?!
"Raijin told me... Gina..." Then it hit me. I had told Raijin the other night... that... Shit!
"No, Raijin's screwed up...! He misinterpeted what I said. ...Fuu, tell me, what are your problems? I wanna hear them..." I did... I mean, it was the truth...
"I dunno, Seifer, I'm just too drunk to... Oh shit... I'm talking the wrong way, aren't I? I'm sorry..." ...How many of those has she had...? I look at the six empty glasses in front of her. She just got down here! Damn... I upset you that much?
"Mm, Fujin, I think we should get you upstairs..."
"No... I don't want to go up there, with big... and... what was the other thing?"
"Stupid."
"Yeah..."
"Then, uh, lets go outside we can take a walk."
"Mmkay..." I grabbed her arm and put some gil on the counter, then left with her, clinging to my arm.
"I'm sorry, Seifer... This is so embarassing... But hell, we all get drunk, right, Seifer?!" ...Does she know?! No, she's just drunk...
"It's alright, Fuu... Lets go sit down."
"Wait! Look." She pointed toward the ground below our balcony, where there was a pile of about fifteen cigarettes.
"Damn, Fujin, you smoke alot..." Now, I was concerned for her health.
"I know... I need to stop... But I can't... I've got you around."
"What? This is my fault now?" What'd I do now...!?
"You're always yelling at me... you heard me up there... I was only screaming."
"I know, I know..." ...
"APOLOGY." Ah, fuck, she's talking like that again.
"It's okay."
"NO! NOT FROM ME! FROM YOU! APOLOGIZE!" Oh! Yeah...
"...I'm sorry, Fuu..."
"That's better... But do you mean it?" ...Well, yeah.
"Yes."
"WHY? WHY YELL? WHY CRITIZISE? AM THAT AWFUL?" She looked up at me, and it started to rain. I didn't want to get into that, so...
"We should get home. It's raining."
"No..." She nearly whined. Hm, Fujin seems to be more human when she has had six drinks.
"Well, what? You *want* to get soaked...?!" ...
"HOTEL. WE GO." If she wasn't drunk, that would have been a little bit more than "thought-provoking."
"Fujin, you know we don't have the money to be spending it on a hotel room when we gotta home..."
"Please...?" ...Don't look at me like that. Stop it! ...Ack, fine! Friggin' Fujin always gets her way.
"Alright, alright."
~~~
ANSWER. QUESTION." She was talking like she always did again. She must have been falling out of her drunken state. I didn't want to talk anymore. That large, queen-sized bed, with four pillows and tons of blankets was looking really good... Especially in comparison to our bed... errr, cot back at home.
"What question?" I asked, laying back on the bed. She sat at the foot of the bed, and scowled at me when I layed down.
"NO. DON'T SLEEP. ANSWER QUESTION. ASKED ON STREET."
"...I dunno whatcha talkin' about." I lied. I just didn't want to answer it.
"SEIFER! HAVE TO. PAY ATTENTION!"
"...Sorry, sorry." I muttered, sitting up.
"ASKED. WHY YELL? AT ME. WHY CRITISIZE ME? AM THAT AWFUL?" Ah... damn...
"...No, Fujin..."
"THEN WHY?"
"Cause... Becuz, I feel... I feel, um, guilty."
"FOR WHAT?" Do I gotta tell you?
"...It's not important."
"IS!"
"Why?"
"ANSWER, MY QUESTION. FIRST." ...Nah...
"Why? Mine would be easier to answer..."
"NEGATIVE. ANSWER." ...Aye.
"...I just feel like I've ruined you... I mean, Raijin... Raijin would be happy if he lived in the TImber Zoo... But, Fujin, I didn't make you happy. Hell, I didn't make me happy... And so, sometimes, I just get upset... At myself, and blame it on you... I'm sorry..." I put my hand on her shoulder.
"Seifer... DID NOT. RUIN. AM FINE. JUST NOT. WHEN YOU YELL."
"...Aw, Fuu..."
"HM."
"Heh... Can we sleep now? I'm liking the way this bed looks." I say, trying not to show how uncomfortable I am after I had said what I did.
"AFFIRMATIVE." I shut off the lamp. She laid back, laying face down on the pillow, and I pulled of my shirt, and climbed in next to her. The bed was quite comfortable, since their were no springs digging into my back from the mattress. I roll over so that I face her, though I can't see her. Have I ruined you, Fujin? I wish I knew what you thought about... I mean, what can a girl, who works at a bar, in Deling... and lives with two idiots think about? She doesn't seem like a dreamer, but maybe she is... She just doesn't want to show it. I've known you for so long, Fujin, yet you are *still* a mystery to me...
I guess life must be hard for you... I never realized it before, but I do now... Fujin, forgive me. But, still, we are a posse. Our posse will stay together... until the end. And when that end comes, it'll be the end for each and every one of us... Even though there are only three. Its my posse. I fell asleep, I guess, though it was only a very light sleep, for me, even.
