~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Flash Back~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Relena smiled happily and smoothed out her velvet dress. The dance was over, and soon she and Heero would be heading home anytime.
"Let's go Relena." Heero ordered, Relena nodded joyfully and clung onto him. She smiled up at him and Heero looked away, guilty.
"Ok, Heero-kun." She chirped. They got into the car, and Heero drove off, winding road after winding road. Trees loomed out and it was getting dark fast.
"Heero?"
"Hn."
"You must love me somewhat right? You wouldn't have taken the time to bring me to the dance if you didn't. In fact you wouldn't have even have bothered with me." Relena said reasonably, she leaned over and looked into Heero's eyes. Heero looked forward, straight at the road.
"I never have and never will." He said defiantly. Relena looked up distressed.
"But, but, but…"
"But nothing. Even if you'd gag yourself, wiped that annoying grin off of Duo's face forever, convinced Wufei that justice is nothing, managed to make Trowa as chatty as Duo is now, and make Quatre less gentle, I still wouldn't love you."
"Not even if I killed myself?"
"Debatable." Heero said unemotionally. Relena looked away, her hands were trembling, and tears started to well up, but she swallowed, determined not to cry and convince Heero.
"Wouldn't you miss me at the very least?" Relena asked her voice strained. Heero looked down at her, and his eyes softened a little.
"Wouldn't you?" Relena pressed.
"I might."
"So you would?" She asked, like a little girl, asking for candy that she knows she'll never get, but begs for it anyhow.
"You're just like that little girl."
"Little girl? What little girl?" Relena said alarmed, her face was turning red and her voice got higher.
"Before I met you, there was a little girl. She gave me a flower."
"Yes?"
"She was the only person that treated me kind."
"Oh."
"She looked like you."
Relena looked up, suddenly intrigued, and her face fell back to its normal color.
"Maybe… it was me!"
Heero shook his head, angrily and his face twitched angrily.
"No, that's impossible. She was killed." He paused, " I killed her."
Relena said nothing; it was so rare for Heero to say so much about his life and himself. And besides, she'd known Heero enough to know not to ask anymore then he'll tell.
"And," Heero turned to look at her, " I can't kill that little girl again. That little girl is you. I can't kill you."
Relena whipped around and shock was written all over her face.
"Is that, that little girl, the only reason you've kept me alive?" Relena screeched. Heero looked away and nodded quietly.
"THAT'S your REASON?!" She screamed. Her face got red and she trembled with anger and sadness.
"So. You don't like me, not even the slightest bit." Relena said, biting her lip.
"That's the only thing that stops me."
"A memory, a stupid, stupid memory." She said spitefully and she reached for her purse. Grabbed the nail file, Heero looked over at her surprised.
"What are you doing?" Relena slipped up her sleeve and brought down the file against her wrist and viciously cut at the skin 2 inches deep.
"I hope," She cried, bitter tears trailing down her face and getting her velvet dress wet, "I hope I'll haunt you with that memory forever now." She held the file in her hand watching the blood trickling down. Her hair was covering her face, now wet with constant tears. /He really doesn't care…/
"Relena, will you stop that!" Heero yelled.
"What do you care? All you care is about that stupid memory! You frickin' bastar*…" She screamed back at him, Heero reached over and tried to grab her wrist, while holding one hand on the steering wheel.
"Relena!"
"GET OUT OF HERE! OUT! NOW!!!" She screamed, her heart was sobbing, telling her to beg for him. But logic told her that it'd do no good. /He doesn't love me, he never will. But I do, isn't that enough for him? Isn't it? Why can't it be enough? Why aren't I enough? / Her heart raged emotion against emotion. She leaned over and yanked open the door. Then pushed Heero out, Heero tumbled out onto the asphalt road.
"Relena!" Heero shouted, he rolled over and got up, "How the hell did that just happen?" And he started to run after the car. Relena swiftly moved from the passenger seat and into the driver's seat. Tears were still coursing down her face, and the blood still dripping and dripping. /You idiot, I gave you my heart, and you ripped it out of my hands and stomped all over it. And now, I can't even take it back…/ She tried to steer but the blood loss was starting to hit her, and emotions started to overtake her senses.
"Damn it's getting harder to see…" She muttered angrily at frustration. Blood was everywhere, and Heero was still running. He stopped shortly to catch his breath, and then ran on again, even faster.
"Relena, you idiot! You really are trying to kill yourself," He looked away, still running at full speed, "Its true that I don't love you. But that means in no way, that I don't care."
She screeched on the brakes, but it only seemed to make it worse. Veering of the road violently, she quickly lost what little control she had left. Her hand flew to her throat and she clutched at it, and then screamed. Her head flipped back by the impact of the car scraping the side of the guardrail, shortly thereafter her head whipped back and slammed into the steering wheel. Blood slowly started to trickle down her forehead. The car was still moving forward, though it eventually halted to a step at the edge of a cliff.
"Damn you Heero." She muttered.
Then everything went black.
"Relena!" Heero yelled, and off he ran to the side of the car. Blood stained Relena's hair and he carefully opened the door. Relena's limp body easily tumbled out and into Heero's awaiting hands. Grabbing a strong ahold of the dying girl, Heero took a step and walked towards the nearest hospital.
