~Chapter 13. Told by Fujin.

More alone time with Seifer. I should have gone with frigging Raijin, you know? ...Seifer makes me so upset. I try and be decent, but there's always a problem with everything I say, or do! He sat on the ground next to me, and I stood up. What's taking Raijin so long?! ...

"Fujin."

"WHAT?"

"...I'm sorry."

"ALWAYS ARE."

"Fuu..."

"NAME IS FUJIN! NOT FUU." ...I felt incredibly guilty once the words came out of my mouth, and I could tell I hurt Seifer. I hadn't meant to... But he hurt me too! ...But he doesn't deserve to be hurt...

"..." I was truely disgusted with myself. I glanced at my wrist, wishing it'd start bleeding, but the fucking doctors had fixed that right up... Thanks to Seifer... who did care...

"APOLOGY." I said.

"I'm sorry." No!

"NO! I APOLOGIZE. NOT YOU." ...

"I'm back, ya know?!" Raijin came out, driving some kind of "car." Two seats. That meant I had to share a seat. I scowled at Seifer because he got his own seat, and we got into the car. I sat between the two of them. I hate this... I guess I fell asleep on Seifer, because when I woke up, my head was rested on his shoulder. Embarassed, I sat up straight, and glanced at him. He looked over at me, and then continued to drive. It was evening by the time we got to Timber and rented a room, two beds. No sofa. They'll each get a bed, and I'll have to sleep with one of them. I don't want to pick, so I just lie down on the bed on the right- let them chose. I didn't fall asleep. I just pretended to, and watched the two of them.

"...Why are you so mean to Fujin, ya know?!" ...Don't talk about me, dammit! Talk about Seifer.

"I dunno, I don't mean to be... I'm a fucking loser, I know."

"...Ya are not, ya just gotta stop blaming Fujin for everythin'."

"Yeah, I know..."

"I'm tired, ya know?! Let's sleep."

"I think ya better sleep with Fujin. She's upset with me..."

"Yeah, you've gotta point!" He walked toward the bed I was "sleeping" in. I grabbed the pillow he was supposed to use, and held it to my body, I don't know why...

"Hey, she took my pillow, ya know?!" I opened my good eye a little. Seifer was taking off his boots, and he looked up at me.

"...She doesn't like sleeping alone. I noticed that the other night at the hotel in Winhill. She has to sleep holding something." I do? Oh... oops... Raijin grabbed one of Seifer's pillows.

"Hey, that's my friggin' pillow, give it back!"

"But that's not fair, ya know?! You get two pillows..." Raijin whined.

"So? Just go to sleep." Seifer turned off the light. They both fell asleep, but I remained awake- thinking. About Seifer, mainly. Then I heard a noise coming from Raijin. It took me a minute to realize what it was, but when I did, I dove off the bed onto the floor. Nasty... I crawled over to Seifer's bed, and climbed in with him. I like it better with him. I felt more... at home.

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I woke up, and before I opened my eye, I decided to try and place where I was. Snoring. Raijin. There's nothing on top of me... where's Seifer? ...I'm in a hotel in... Timber. That's where I am. I open my good eye just a crack, and there he is. *Watching* me... Why? I quickly close my eye. My being awake goes unnocticed, but I feel nervous. He's *watching* me. Might as well make use of my "awake-sleeping." I move closer to Seifer, who is lying on his side, head rested in hand. I put my arm around him, and continue to "sleep". This is nice, I like awake-sleeping. No one can bother me about the things I do, because *I'm* not doing it, my sleep is. Hehe. I open my eye a little, to see what his reaction to my closeness is. He smiles. ...Oh... His hand touches my face, and he slips my eyepatch off. Why? What are you doing? ...I look again. He's content, I can see. I manage to catch a glimpse at the time. Four AM. Why are you up? He lays back down next to me, his arm around me also- and we both sleep, again.

When I wake up, he's still asleep- but its five-thirty. I glance around the room, and then look at Seifer. His eyes open, from what I can see.

"Hey..."

"...Good, um, morning." I whisper, trying my best not to wake up Raijin.

"Why'd you come in here, Fuu... jin?" ...I'm sorry, Seifer, its okay to call me "Fuu..."

"...Raijin. Eat. Gasious food."

"Oh... for a minute there, I thought you forgave me."

"I could have slept on the floor." ...

"Why didn't you?" I move closer to him.

"Keep voice low. Want not wake up Raijin."

"Okay, so... why didn't you? Needed to sleep with someone?"

"No, needed to sleep with *you.*" I said, closing my eye, praying for no answer.

"Why's that?"

"...Safe." I murmur. There is silence. No, wait, Seifer, what are you doing? Aren't you a little close? My heart starts to pound... What are you... doing? He brings his lips to mine. Kissing me... He's kissing me. I feel everything inside my collapse as I start to kiss back. Seifer... you've broken my guard... Why are you doing this? He puts his arms around me and kisses me deeper. Oh god, Seifer... What have you done? Do you know what you just started? Why'd you do this to me? ...He stops, and just closes his eyes without saying anything. Seifer...

When I wake up, he's still asleep- but its seven-thirty, and I think we should all get up. I move his leg from over mine... (I told you he sleeps weird), and I can't help but wonder if I was dreaming about him watching me sleep, and kissing me. But then I reach up to my eye. No eyepatch. It wasn't a dream. I get out of bed and shower, then I wake Raijin up.

"Where'd ya go, Fujin?"

"SLEEP WITH YOU. NEVER AGAIN."

"Why? What'd I do?!"

"EAT TOO MUCH. GASIOUS FOOD."

"Ahaheheheh." Seifer laughs, getting out of bed himself. Maybe he just kissed me because he was half-asleep... and wasn't fully conscience of what he was doing. Yeah, thats gotta be it... Seifer...

"So, you guys, think of something to kill the sorceress, ya know?!"

"Yeah, yeah, we are tryin'."

"AFFIRMATIVE."

"...We could always just attack her head-on..." Seifer suggested.

"Do ya know how many soliders we'd have to fight get through to do that?" Raijin said, eyes growing wide.

"I can handle it!" Seifer said defensively.

"LAST RESORT. THINK ANOTHER." I suggest.

"Well, I don't see *you* thinkin' of anything, ya know, Fujin?!"

"...Shut up, Raijin, you didn't think of anything either."

"Oh yeah, ya know?!"

"COULD... ATTACK... IN CHAMBERS."

"Yeah, but, uh, where are her Chambers, ya know?!"

"DON'T KNOW. COULD FIND OUT." I glanced at Seifer, who was off somewhere else, daydreaming.

"SEIFER!"

"Wha? Oh... sorry..." He shook his head.

"...WHAT THINK OF IDEA?"

"What idea? You think of an idea?!" ...Seifer! You should pay attention...

"She said, we could attack her in her chambers, ya know!?"

"Yeah, Raijin, go nonchalantly find out where they are..."

"Whats that mean, ya know?!"

"NOT SUSPICIOUS. MAYBE I GO." I suggest, aiming it more at Seifer.

"No, I think I can do it, ya know?!"

"Yeah, it'd probably be better if we had Raijin go out today and do it."

"ARE SAYING *I'M* SUSPICIOUS?"

"Not really."

"I'm off, ya know?!"

"I COME." I say, standing up.

"No, you stay." Seifer said, grabbing my arm.

"..." Raijin left, and I remained with Seifer. What'd he want to do now? Why couldn't I go with Raijin...? I was getting a little too much alone time with Seifer... He kissed me last night. Or was that a dream?

"Yeah, so, um... right." Seifer muttered, pulling out his Hyperion and sitting on Raijin's bed. He started to polish it. I rolled my eyes and picked up my eyepatch off the floor and put it on. Seifer... I layed on the bed, and let a loud sigh escape me.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"NOTHING."

"Okay." He went back to shining his Hyperion. I rolled over, glancing at the wall. I won't be able to sleep. I know it.