~Chapter 15. Told by Seifer.

I had blown it again. Everytime I think everything's gonna be okay between us, I screw it up again. I watched her sleep last night. I kissed her last night. Was that my way of apologizing...? Or something more? Either way, she had gone to do something that *might* involve her being fucked by someone other than me, so... I was off to stop her from doing something stupid, just so she could prove that she could do who and what she pleases. Dammit, I'm a fucking idiot, ya know that? I walked the streets of Timber, and searched everywhere. No Fujin... God, Fujin, if you did this... I sighed, losing hope of ever finding her, when I seen a faint outline of someone just outside of Timber. I exited Timber, and went out to the feilds. There she was, with her shuriken, trying to get money from fighting off monsters, which is very tedious for a one-person party.

"Fujin!" I called out. She either didn't hear me, or was ignoring me.

"..." I walked further, and approached her just as she finished off a monster. She got 35 gil. We had a long way to go.

"...YES?" She asked, looking at me.

"...Why'd you say that?"

"SEE IF WOULD COME AFTER."

"...Of course I'd come after you!"

"WAS NOT SURE." She handed me the gil she had gotten so far (423gil) and sighed, looking around for another monster.

"Why weren't you sure?! You think I'd *let* you do something like that?!"

"...AFFIRMATIVE." She said, starting to walk towards a Ochu. I stopped her, grabbing her shoulder.

"You're not serious!" How could she think that?!

"AM."

"But *Fuu* ...jin." Dammit.

"FUU IS FINE. FUU IS PREFERABLE." ...Okay, then.

"Fuu, I just don't get how you could think something like that!"

"...DO NOT ACT... LIKE SHOULD OTHERWISE THINK..."

"...Fujin!"

"PLEASE. FORGET." She finally reached the Ochu, and we fought it together, and got 200gil.

"I can't let you think I'd let you go out and do that to somone you don't know!"

"...FINE. THEN KNOW NOW."

"...Mhm... And while we're on the subject..." Should I ask this or not? She turned to face me.

"YES?"

"A week or two ago... you, uh, said you weren't 'innocent', who was he?" Her face went paler than it already was.

"WHY? WAS SURPRISED? AM TWENTY-TWO YEARS OLD!"

"Yeah, but I never seen you go off with any men..."

"PAYING ATTENTION. MUST HAVE BEEN NOT."

"But I always pay attention to what happens to my posse." I protest, crossing my arms.

"LET NOT KNOW WHAT YOU DO. LET NOT KNOW WHAT I DO."

"That's stupid, Fuu... I-" My thoughts and words were stopped... I don't... let you guys know what I do...

"TOLD SO."

"Fujin..."

"AM INNOCENT... AM!" She yelled. So, she lied... Fuu... Fujin but her lower lip looking at me.

"Fujin..."

"HAVE ENOUGH MONEY. GO BACK. LET'S."

"But, Fujin!" ...I can't believe she would think that I would let her go off like that though... I mean, did I act like I didn't care that much? ...I guess so... I'm sorry, Fujin. I'm sorry, Raijin... I'm such a failure... And everyone knows it but me! I followed her, and we were right outside of town when I told her to stop.

"Fuu, wait!"

"WHAT?"

"I... need to tell you something."

"YES?" She turned, looking at me.

"...I'm sorry... For everything. I mean it. Everything I've ever done that has seemed wrong to you, I'm sorry for..."

"Seifer... It's okay. I forgive you. You don't need to apologize... You just need to stop doing those things..." She glanced at her watch. "We're never going to make it to Trabia today. We'll do this tommarow..." Forget the fucking sorceress and listen to me! Don't you want to know what I want to say next!? Don't you want to know what I *can't* say next, because my mind won't let me?! LISTEN TO ME! ...I wanted her to hear this. I wanted her to listen. Fujin...!

"Seifer, you look upset, are you alright?" She asks, looking at me.

"I'm fine!" Fucking listen...

"Let's go back... to the hotel..." She seems uneasy.

"Mhm..." We went back to the hotel, to a very worried Raijin.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I snapped.

"Who was it, Fujin?! Oh, lord, maybe at least ya got paid well, ya know?!" ...Raijin, you fucking idiot.

"WHAT?"

"She didn't."

"Oh, phew, ya know?!"

"GO TO TRABIA. TOMMAROW- MORNING." She said.

"Then, I suppose we should get some rest..." I said, yawning.

"Yeah, ya know?!"

"YOU TWO. SLEEP. THAT BED. I SLEEP. ALONE." Here we go. She wants to prove that she can sleep alone now... God DAMMIT she's a pain in the ass. I have... to sleep with him...

"Wait!" I said. "Raijin, what the hell'd you eat today?!" I heard Fujin snicker, climbing into my old bed.

"...I dunno."

"Fu-uck..." I muttered, getting into bed. This was degrading. Fujin, why ya gotta do this to me? Raijin got in behind me, and I watched Fujin. She grabbed her eye patch and tossed if off the side of the bed. I watch her, as she tosses and turns. Finally, she grabs the extra pillow from behind her, and holds it. Fuu... She frowns, and closes her eyes. When I wake up, everyone else is ready, and finally, we board the train headed for Trabia.

"Fujin."

"Hm?" She asks. We're all sitting on a rather empty train, and Raijin's inside looking out the window.

"You have any fire spells?"

"FLARE. BAHAMUT."

"...You need fire?"

"HAVE NONE. FIRAGA. NEEDED."

"Hold on, I'll give you some of mine..." ...I gave her about 25 Firagas, and we waited.

"RAIJIN HAVE, FIRE?"

"Yeah, gave him some earlier too." Okay, then... That pretty much means we're all set... Oh wait. Cure.

"You got any cure?"

"AFFIRMATIVE."

"Good, cuz you're gonna need it."

"HAVE HIGH HP."

"Still."

"..."

~~~

Finally, we go into the Shumi Village. They say something about me "finally coming." This is nice, almost. I'm flattered- to be known for being such a great knight. Dammit, I wanna be a Knight... But, I can't do that to them, again...!! No... I just can't...

"This must be it, ya know?!" Fujin walks toward me, pulling me away from Raijin.

"What?" I ask her.

"SEIFER. ARE SURE- I mean, Seifer, are you sure you don't want to be her Knight. I'll stay loyal to you, Seifer. Raijin will too... Just please, don't make this all be in vain. We want to fulfill our dream- your dream... So, tell me... Knight or no Knight? We need to decide before we go in there..."

"Fujin, does that mean, that my dream is your dream? You have no dreams of your own?"

"No. My dream, is to help you fulfill your dream... And if you don't fulfill your dream, I can't fulfill mine!" So, be a Knight? Is that my dream? Or do I want to get a decent job... and settle down in Balamb... with my posse? Fujin... Raijin... Fuck, what am I supposed to do?! I can't decide... I glanced at Fujin's wrist, still wrapped up... I remembered the kiss I shared with her the other night... Raijin... always supportive... Ah, hell, my decision was clear.

"Come on, you guys, lets kick some sorceress ass."