LOVE CONFUSION A/N: This is a cheesey, but long poem the I wrote in math (fractions. Ugh! And they atcually hope we're going to pay attention to that crap?!) Anyway, If you can't figure it out, this is about Hitomi's love for Allen, untill she falls in love with Van. Then she has to choose. That's all. I'm actually amazed that I wrote such a long poem about it.

When I see him coming

My knees go all weak

I really want to know him

But I always run away

Why I run away

I really don't know

Maybe I'm afraid

Of love?

Of commitment?

Of being close with another?

Then there's the 'what if's

What if it all goes wrong?

What if it goes too far?

What if he doesn't see me the way I see him?

What if he thinks of me as a child?

I know he's older

But is six years that much?

I don't think it is

I remember, that first time

I was crying in his arms

Then he took me to his castle

Where he called me 'little princess'

When I got sick, he was by my side

But so was another

That was where it got messed up?

Two were there

But which one?

How to choose?

Do I choose?

Which one of my 'relationships' are real?

I'm so confused

But when I see the way he looks at her

Into her eyes

Then I know

To have him is a fantasy

It'd never happen

There was that time

On the bridge

Fait was changed

So we'd kiss

But when we did

The other was there

The other ran away

But to have him for real?

No way

No how

But there was the other

He's there too

Both of them look to me

But only one is real

It took me a while

But now I know

The other, he's the one

I was so foolish

So childish

Reaching out for something

I knew I'd never get

But there was always him

Hiding in the back

And now he's here

With me

Only me

Holding me as I hold him

How can this mean so much?

It screams so many things

Childish dreams

Love gone cold

Crying in my hands

But then there was a feather

Perfect, pearly white

I look up

There he is,

Like an angel

Surrounded by the feathers

Saving me

My salvation

But now I must leave

Just when it's sorted out

Home is beckoning

The one I first love

No, that wasn't love

A fantasy maybe

He is no more

But a newer

Stronger

Better love

Has emerged

Now I know the truth

Who I'm supposed to be with

But now I have to go

I finally found out what was supposed to be

But my real home is calling

And now I'm gone

I can still call him

He can still call me

But we're not together

But we're never meant to be



A/N: Ummm.... okay, personally I thought Van and Hitomi were supposed to be together, but oh well. It was still a ton of fluff to me. Anyway, still R&R!

~ Bobo ~