Title: Kissing Daylight

Rating: Pg-13

Author: Wicked Princess

Disclaimer: Damn. Not mine.

Summary: After being resurrected Buffy seeks comfort from Angel and Spike is left behind. Spike POV. B/S & B/A

Notes: I am an avowed BS shipper, but I just wanted to experiment.

~*~ Kissing Daylight ~*~

I loved her. With every unneeded breath, with every pounding beat of my stolen blood, I loved her. What did she do? She ran back to her first love. My Grandsire.

It makes me feel betrayed. Angel and' me have never been close, but for a few moments I actually thought Buffy might've loved me. She threw the tinder on to the fire when she told me the secret she wouldn't tell her friends. And I sheilded the pathetic flame with all my might, hoping that one day she might love me back.

I was wrong.

I thought that it might be the end of existing, that I might start living again. For a moment, I did. When her lips met mine, I had a heartbeat. Then she killed me. She said it meant nothing, then she went back to him.

They always go back to him.

God! Doesn't she understand? She made me *feel*! Not even Dru did that for me!

Well, this is the breaking point. She won't ever have to deal with me again and I'll never have to feel the pain she causes ever again. Never. I bet she won't even notice I'm gone. But it doesn't matter anymore.

Because kissing daylight is like kissing her.

~FIN~