A new world 4

I have to let him go
By Gavinna

When I came to I was at Trunk's summerhouse again, in his room. He sat there watching me, not blinking. His eyes were puffy and red rimmed. "Trunks-kun?" I opened my eyes. He crushed me to his chest. "Kami! You have been out for weeks!"
"How many?"
"Two."
He held me tighter. "I thought you would never wake! Don't you ever leave! That was so stupid of you!"
"Stupid? Yeah like you wouldn't have done that if you were stuck in a place where you feel so alone! Didn't you hear what Shenlung said! I'm alone here forever!"
"You are talking crazy!" I followed his gaze to the full moon out the window.
"So what? I bet I had a true love in my world and now I don't because I'm stuck here and now he doesn't have one either and he will be all by himself! He might have to resort to the priesthood! Not that there is anything wrong with that but my soul is probably stuck here too! I feel so alone here! I am alone."
"What are you talking about!" He turned to me he was angry now. And for some crazy reason I was too.
"I'M ALONE FOREVER!" I screamed in tears.
"DAMN IT YOU STUPID STUBBORN BAKA! YOU ARE NOT ALONE!"
"I'D LIKE TO SEE YOU PROVE IT!" I screamed. He then grabbed me harshly and kissed my lips, roughly driving his tongue into my mouth.

My First kiss. My First night. Sad that it all came to be this way. Disappointing that my first time of love was through groping hands, rough kisses, and two of us bonded in maddened passion. His rhythms trying to prove me wrong of my loneliness. That night as we made love I found that I loved this man more than I thought. I needed him. Was it merely because he showed me a pleasure I had never thought had existed. Or was it true love? I still don't know now. These are journal entries so I can't tell you the future. You will have to wait. I will have to wait.

I woke the next morning in his arms. He was still asleep, then it hit me like a brick to the face! It was special to me but was it to him? He was already in love with Mindy! Not with me! He lived with her! Trunks was also so much oldermore experiencedand what if? What if that was all he wanted? Or what if it was out of sympathy and to only try to make me feel better. I felt better for one night but worse the morning after!

He deflowered me. I couldn't even get it back! I felt ashamed. I had to leave. Jumping out of his bed I grabbed my torn and wrinkled clothes and hurriedly put them on. "Lupus-chan? What are you doing?" he asked sleepily as I changed. I gave no answer. "Lupus-chan? Speak to me." I turned away from him. He planted a kiss on my neck. "Don't touch me! I'll never be the same." I ran. He followed. "What did I do wrong?"
"You took it away!" I glared.
"You mean you were a vir"
"Of course I was! What kind of girl did you think I am? I'm sixteen! And" I stopped my sentence. This wasn't like me to go through with something like this! The moon! Sayjin instincts! I looked at it as well! And because of it I was maiden no more! Tears came viciously from my eyes. I struggled to keep it all in.

Wait! I still had hope! I loved him! Perhaps he loved me too! I held on to my little bit of hope. "Trunks-chan about last night." I looked at him with pleading eyed "do you-"
"It was a mistake." He cut me off, bluntly. But was that hurt in his eyes? I couldn't. I turned away. I felt like I had been stabbed in the heart for a second time. I hid it all forcing myself to agree. I looked up into his blue eyes. "y-y-eyes." But I couldn't help it! I broke down into tears. I looked away again and turned to leave. "Suki desu, Trunks-chan." I whispered as low as I could. "Lupus-chan." He asked "Do you really?" Stupid me! I forgot that Sayjins had super hearing!

With that I blasted off heading home, Goten's place. I held myself as I flew and wept it all out. Then I ran into something hard, a chest. "Lupus?" the voice said. I looked up wiping my tears. "Vegita sama?" I quickly composed myself. "Your eyes are red." He stated. "Wasn't crying." I stood straight and bowed with a sniffle. We landed on the ground. "Liar." He came closer to me. "Admit it! You were!" I felt my tears come again. "Hai." I dropped my head down to his chest. "Let it out." His harsh words came as he stroked my head gently. I must have cried for hours. Angry at myself I pushed away from him and let my reage out... my hair went gold as I powered up. "Ahhh!" I screamed and fired a ki blast screaming "Death's tears!" it was in the shape of a tear and was black energy with a red core. I just made a new attack with the influence of my sorrow. It flew out into the sky high above me.

I collapsed on my knees and gripped the grass and soil below me. My hair went black once more. I stared at the ground asking "Why?" my chest heaved and my heart screamed out in agony. The Sayjin prince sat beside me. I turned away from him in shame.

"Trunks did this right?" now this startled me and I looked back at him. "Vegita-sama, what makes you think-"
"I know about his summer house. I felt your ki awaken once more last night. So I came to you, but I realised when I was outside that something was different in the air. I knew then what had happened. I saw the moon out as well so I went home."
"Oh." Was all I could say. So he knew.
"I didn't think it would end this way."
"I don't want anyone to know about this! Please! Not even that you know!"
"But-"
"Vegita sama, please! I'm ashamed of it all!"
"Liar."
"Nani!"
"You love the brat."
"It doesn't matter! Just don't tell anyone! It never happened! PLEASE!" I held to his arm. He sighed. "Hai... Bura knows too. She came with me and went ahead. She heard all of it."
I blushed.
"Uh the-the conversation! This morning!" he cleared it up. I let out a sigh of relief. Bura then came in her air car. "You aren't alone Lupus-chan! I'm here for you and so is Tousan. And you can trust me not to tell anyone."
"Arigato." We embraced.

As we drove back to my home Vegita said to me, "you have a lot of catching up to do, girl."
"Yeah I know. School and all."
"School? Who's talking about school? You have lost a lot of training time with Kakarotto, his brat, the green man and me! I expect you to make up for it!"
"Hai Vegita-sama."
"Don't call me that anymore."
"Hai Vegita-san."
"Much better."
"Tousan?" Bura asked "Can you finally train me too?"
"No!"
"Why not?" I asked, "Yeah!" she said in agreement.
"Your mother will kill me!" he yelled.
"No one said we have to tell her." Bura smirked.
"Good girl." Vegita said. "Ok."
Bura turned on the radio and her father began to complain about all the 'noise'. She then sang incredibly off key. I leaned back into my seat starring at the new day. As she drove I thought to myself. Nothing would ever be the same between Trunks and I. I would of course go about as if nothing happened, but it would still be there, the memory of that night. A tear came down my cheek and a gentle hand squeezed my shoulder, Bura's. " I feel like can't let him go." I told her, "But I know I have too."

I'll never ever know
Just how to let you go
There's nothing left to say
Just walk away.
-Just Walk Away (Celine Dion)