Sorry for the really messed up format

Sorry for the really messed up format. I dunno wat happened! -_-…Any how, please r/r!

Disclaimers: I am poor…VERY poor…

If Only He Knew…Chapter 1

"Depression"

Relena curled up on her bed, silently sobbing. Heero-kun was so cruel! Maybe

he just wanted to live in his own fantasy, where nothing could go wrong. But

Relena knew better than that. He had the most common sense out of anyone. She just couldn't understand him. Why?

* Where am I? Why am I at a funeral? Whose is it? Oh my God…Heero-kun…What happened? Why are you dead? You weren't supposed to leave me…not this soon. We were supposed to die together…old and happily married…*

"NANI!?"

Relena bolted up from her bed, sweat running down the side of her face. Her hands were freezing and her hair was all over the place.

"It was only a dream."

She couldn't fall asleep again so she decided to call her brother's wife named Noin.

"Moshi…(yawn)…moshi?"

"Noin, this is Relena. Sorry for the timing. I need your advice about something."

"It must be pretty important to call me at…um…three in the morning."

"Gomen! Well, I have this friend who has a problem with her friend. She saw his girlfriend kissing another guy and she tried to tell him about it. But…he denied all the facts and got really mad at her for telling him the truth. And now they're ignoring each other. What should I…she do?"

"Hmmm…this never really happened to me before. This is a tough one. Well, Relena-chan, follow your heart and I know that Heero-kun will believe you someday."

"How'd you know it was me?"

"Women's intuition I guess…Anyway, goodnight Relena."

"Arigato…"

For the rest of the night, Relena laid in bed and thought of Noin's advice. When was someday? Was it anytime soon? She was confused…

During school the next day, she was walking when she saw Heero. He was glaring at her in an angry yet sad way. Then Kinomi strutted up to Heero and kissed him…yet again. He quickly walked away with his so-called friends. Why did it have to be this way? She tried to ignore it. Relena gathered her books and seated herself under the cherry blossom tree. She turned to her notes and started studying for the exam in two days. Two days seemed liked forever. On the day of the exam, Relena had already crammed everything in. Black circles encircled her eyes and her radiant cheeks were paler than usual. She couldn't even keep concentration on the test but she knew all the material on it.

A few days later, when they got it back, Relena was the only one who didn't get it back.

"Excuse me, Ono-sensei. I didn't get my exam paper back."

"Yes, I wanted to see you about your grades. They seemed to be doing fine until recently. Your grades seem to be declining. You almost failed the exam. Did you study?"

"Hai."

"Is something the matter?"

"Iie. Dajobu."

" Since I know you're a hard working young lady, I'll let you take a makeup exam in week."

"Arigato, Ono-sensei."

Relena slumped into her seat. Heero was really getting on her nerves. After her classes, she met up with some of her friends, Ayami, Rika, and Setsuko.

" Hey, Relena-chan. What's the matter?" asked Ayami.

"Nothing. Just a little tired, that's all."

"Someone's lying to us…" implied Setsuko.

"Well…"

"Yes………….." replied everyone.

Relena finally confessed to her friends about Heero-kun and that baka, Kinomi. They all were sympathetic towards Relena and tried to give advice but it wasn't the same. After the little get together, she went to bed or at least tried to.

Everyday, the symptoms got worse. Relena grew restless, lost her appetite, and didn't let people get near her in the fear that they might hurt her…again.

Heero, on the other hand, totally forgot of Relena and the incidence. His grades weren't getting any worse nor was his social life. That night, he went out to eat with his friends: Shinji, Taka, Satoshi, Kasumi, Maaya, and…guess who… At the Japanese steakhouse where they ate, Heero actually had no guilt on his conscious. What a jerk! When they were leaving, most of them were drunk except for Heero (DUH!), Kinomi, and Taka. When they were about to leave, Kinomi excused herself from the group and said she needed to "freshen" up a bit. Yeah…sure…

What did you think? Sorry it was so short…I cannot write long things…it makes me dizzy! I will get romance into it soon…heehee. Please r/r and no flamers…I HATE FIRE…! Happy holidays, minna-san! XOXOXO! And again, I am sorry for the grammar mistakes…I don't know what happened…I ain't a computer wizard…-_-'