~ Be Quick or Be Dead ~ Chapter Three

--- From the Diary of Princess Mikayla n'ha Liriel of Ruwenda ---

Part I - The Maiden and The Mother

DISCLAIMER: Okay, the names Fiolon, Mikayla, Ruwenda, Var and Labornok are in Marion Zimmer Bradley's book - "Lady of the Trillium" (very good, by the way) and the last name n'ha Liriel belongs to MZB too but it's in the Darkover books (probably all of them I guess). Only the names are the same but not the charas, okay? Anyway, all the rest belongs to me (I think Fiolon and Mikayla are free names, right?) except for what belongs to MZB, as I said above. Mika's poems belong to whoever did it. Some of them are parts of songs lyrics so they belong to their respective authors.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: M'kay, m'kay I know I'm writing too much but oh my. Anyway, I hope you like this. I had this idea during a thunderstorm (they RULE!) and it stuck into my head so I'm writing it (duh). Pleezy pleezy REVIEW! Otherwise I'll use the Cruciatus Curse at you ::evil grin:: and I'll never finish this story! Oh yeah! Don't flame me for typing or grammar errors 'cuz English is NOT my 1st language. I only try (hard) to write in English ::sobs::. But just to let you know, flames will be used at my fondue bussiness which is doing very well by the way ::grin::

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"Let me see...".

And Fiolon opened the black journal.

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::1st Night of the 1st Moon - The Face of The Maiden Goddess ::

Happiness is something you can't quite put your finger on. When it happens, it happens. And today is one of those days everything, even the people of this castle (call it prision), don't sound or look suffocating. I met a prince today. A real one. The one I've been seeing in my dreams. His name? Fiolon de Var. He's so charming yet misterious. Have you ever heard of love at first sight, dear diary? Have you ever believed it? I do now.

"Haven't we met

You're some kind of beautiful stranger

I looked into your face

My heart was dancing all over the place

I looked into your eyes

And my world came tumbling down"

Love,

Mika

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Fiolon's jaw dropped. So it was a diary. It was Mika's diary! And she wrote about him! Fiolon felt his heart beating so fast and felt he could just explode with love. Yes, he did love her. He quick turned to the next page.

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::4th Night of the 1st Moon - The Face of The Maiden Goddess ::

We talked today. Alone. Again. How does it sound? It was amazing. I'm actually falling in love, isn't it great? Today I felt an urge to kiss him deeply and never ever ever let go of him. Well, have 3 chances to guess if I kissed or not. Duh. Now, I just had an interesting thought - what if Aunt Larissa found out I wrote this, what she would say? Bet my head she would say something like "It is not something for a princess to think! Even to write!" . Oh please! She thinks princesses have to be pure Maidens, like the Goddess. Even the Goddess becomes a Mother and a Crone later. Aunt Larissa is such an hypocrite. "You should start acting like a princess your age Mikayla." she says. And that's bull! ("Oh the language Mikayla! The language!) That's why I despise her, she never let's me be. She thinks she has power over me but soon she will find out that she doesn't. But still, yes, I'm still happy. Fio - oh my! Look! We're intimate now! Guess why! - has the power of happiness over me.

Aunt Larissa -

"I'm sick of all you hypocrites holding me at bay!

And I don't need your sympathy to get me through the day!

No one told you to stay! I want you to go away!

Don't say that I am blind,

I know all about your kind."

Fio -

"It's amazing what you can do

I cannot stop myself

Want you and no one else

It's amazing what you can say

I cannot stop myself

Seems I love you more than yesterday

Love you and no one else"

From a loving,

Mika

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Fio was grinning to himself. He remembered this day very well. Their first kiss and he felt he would explode. That day he really understood what the word love meant, to its fullest meanings.

But still, Fiolon was kind of stunned. He never thought Mika was so... so... he had no words. She was so unhappy in the castle. But she always found a way not to be sad... It was one of the things he adored the most in her, together with the ability of making him surprised. He could not wait for the next page. He knew it was wrong but he was now the one that could not stop himself.

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::2nd Night of the 2nd Moon - The Face of The Mother Goddess ::

Not a very good day. Fights and more fights with Aunt Larissa and Fio hasn't come here. Nobody in this damn world cares about me. I'm just the pebble in someone else's shoes. I'm very depressed. Actualy, Aunt Larissa doens't seem to know (or to agree) that this is MY castle and that I'M the heir. She just controls everything like she's the damn queen and makes everybody hate me. How nice. It's supposed to be MY rules but I can't do it. I'm so weak. So so weak. That's a victory for you Larissa. Damn you.

"I hate myself and I wanna die."

"It's really a world-wide depression"

Sincerely,

Mikayla

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Fiolon wanted to kick himself. He had forgotten to visit Mika this day. "Dammit! If I was there I could have supported her! Stupid!" he yelled angry to himself. "Her Aunt, I never thought she was so horrible! There IS something weird about her but she keeps it well hidden in her politeness."

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::6th Night of the 2nd Moon - The Face of The Mother Goddess ::

Fio came today. The sun was shining a lot. The moon was glittering a lot too. And I felt very very pretty. Actualy, Fio makes me feel different about myself. And that's good, that's really good...! We walked through the woods today. He is so lovely and caring and gentle and handsome and much much more. Everytime he kisses me I feel like going to heaven and falling from up there. All the emotion is gigantic! He told me he loves me. I almost fainted! I said I loved him too, of course. Because I DO! I do really really REALLY! Too bad it's still a secret, I'd love to yell it out loud to everybody - "I'm in love with Fiolon de Var! He loves me and I love him!" - but we can't. I really don't know why, but we can't. Larissa would have a fit if she found out. But I'm so very very very happy right now!

"Words that lovers whisper to each other

Music that somebody is humming

somewhere in town

Then everything mingled together

something comes alive

It's a symphony for lovers

It's a symphony for lovers"

Full of Love,

Mika ^*^

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Fiolon didn't know what to feel - happy, because she loved him as much as he loved her; or sad, because he knew what would happen next. The diary was almost in the end. It was a very small diary actualy. Anyway, he turned the page.

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