AN: Ok, next chapter. this one is much longer, and my favorite at the moment. Please read and review. Dedicated to Kentaro and Yuuno, I hope you will be happy forever...Love from my soul, Xara

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Chapter 2.

Even in the face of perfection
My mind turns to you
Of all that is wrong
In my eyes,
is all that is right.
For not a moment passes
without my mind turning
to the way your muscles move
and how you can mesmerise me
with only a twitch.

I am not stuck in heaven, but more in heavens holding bay. I have seen things, seen souls waiting for trial, and i consider my self lucky, im dead but i will be missed, i have been loved, yet i feel like a greedy man who wants more. My soul will not rest without being satisfied. But what do i crave? Even stopping now to think, i dont know. I want to hold him, kiss him, watch the world know that he is mine and only mine. I want to see the envy on their faces and the anger in their eyes. And i want to drown in his terqoise pools of truth he has for eyes and learn never to doubt myself. Yet the people around me have never seen that kind of love, hell, most of them dont know it exists. Brevity and lonliness is what i forsee for the human race if they have members who are as emotionally deformed as the creatures around me, their souls hideous yet intriguingly beautiful.
All the souls are there for the same reason. we have no contact except for visions. The place is clear on all sides, and so I am tortured everyday by seeing my own race, and the people who I love, move around, not knowing how we souls suffer at the sight. The gates to the afterlife are guarded by figures, appearing to me as 2 beautiful women, identical in all ways from far away. As i draw closer, i start to notice things. There could not be any two things more alike physically, however, these women are not oridinary. One has eyes that exude truth, make you feel that there are people who care for you, and who miss you. She makes me feel human again, and i feel that all is well when i look at her, that i make the right choices in how i feel. the others eyes are arrogant, cold, calculating. She makes me feel like all i feel is wrong, and that i waste my life living. Their black eyes together, if i look at both at the same time, make me feel whole, content, human. I cling to the feeling as the only thing that bonds me together, feeling like im a shattered shell, that i am going to go mad.

It feels like months pass, and the longer i am there i get the feeling that i will never meet the goddesses that control the way i feel with just a look. Everyday, i move infinatly towards the ultimatum that is them, and yet i have no idea what i am going to do once i get there. There is no one to ask, and no one to tell. The tides of souls move slowly, and there is nothing to do but fantasize about what their purpose is. I dream that they can make my wishes come true, and i dream that they might be able to turn back time, to make me not dead. I knowo this isnt true, but when im stuck in an interdimentional place there is nothing i have but my dreams.

Its almost like a dream when i meet them. I waited for this moment. I dremt that this moment would lead to my freedom and back into the arms of the one that i love. I look up to face them. They are beautiful, but thier aura is one of danger and superiority. It reminds me of facing Knives, and i shiver visually. The one whos eyes are warm and calming speaks first.
'We are the children of the apocalypse. Together we guard the last chance gate, giving the desperate a final chance to right their wrongs from the previous life.' i nod silently, lost for words and given hope by her eyes. The other goddess speaks next.
'It is a hard task to pass us. Together we dominate how you will spend eternia, so make your decision carefully. The rules are simple, and passing us, you will be allowed to return to the world of the living for a short period of time, until the one who you crave fufils your desire.' I feel hope, but the emotion she emitts does not make me optimistic that i will succeed. The other goddess contiues to speak.
'The rules are simple. My sister and I represent the two governing factors in the universe. I am the goddess of personal desire, the minds most lusted after object is no secret from me. I am the flicker of hope that keeps you awake at nights dreaming of the one you love. My sister is the goddess of destiny. She knows what lies in store for you, and what you will succeed in. She cares not for what you want, only what you will get. It is easy to get past us, but only if you know your heart and destiny well enough. You are allowed one question to ask us. If you can get us to say the same thing, you will be returned to the world. If we say different, your life will be judged by us and you will be sent on to the afterlife, and you will have to wait for your love to join you there.' There is no emotion on either of their faces, and they dont even look at me, staring into the distance with a removed passion that makes me feel rejected.
'Mr. Wolfwood, what is your request?' The goddess of personal desire addresses me, and i answer immediatly, there is nothing I want more that this.
'I wish to return to the world and let Vash know that i love him. Yet i will not leave until he returns my love'. I sound so ...removed from my feelings. i want to die everytime i mention his name, yet the emotionless surroundings are changing me, makeing me as souless as the goddesses in front of me.
'Very well. What is your question.'
i pause at this. I know very well what my hearts desire is, however, i am in the dark as to whether it is what the gods intended for me. I begin to panic, i almost dont want to know if loveing vash is not in my destiny. I dont want the closure i long for so avidly if it is not meant to be. However, i will never know without it. I stand up and clearly say. 'Who is the one that i love?'. A silence follows, and i start to panic. Then, both goddesses suddenly say, in perfect unison
'Vash...The...Stampede' and my heart does a dance of joy as immediatly i feel myself being pulled by the chest and the world I see fades to black.

TBC...

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