Title: Honor Over Hate

Author: The Goddess of Mush and Stuff

Summary: Missing moments series, Bruck and Obi-wan's fight on the waterfall.





Bruck's eyes widened with disbelief and panic. Obi-wan switched off his saber and leaped to grab his arm and pull him back. He was too late, Bruck's panic sent his arms flailing. Obi-wan felt Bruck's fingertips brush his just as Bruck fell, and hit the rocks below.

Obi-wan went down, got the key, he had to save Bant. But still the thought...

Bruck was dead, he didn't have time to think how he felt about that.

How did he feel about it....

Obi-wan sat up in his bed, sweat dripping down into his eyes, as he took in deep gulping breaths to steady himself. He kept seeing Bruck fall, and could still remember checking for the boy's pulse and finding none. His neck was broken. How could he have missed Bruck's hand??

Obi-wan swung his feet to the floor and searched for his robe. He wasn't getting anywhere in his room, it was too quiet and was giving him too much to think about. Bruck had died just a day ago, and still he hadn't come to terms with it....he hadn't slept either.

The night before he couldn't even close his eyes without seeing Bruck's face. At least he got a few hours sleep tonight.

He headed out into the empty halls of the Temple, lost in thought heading for the gardens. He felt funny being back in the Temple, even after all that had happened. He was meeting with the Council in the next day or so, to discuss his coming back to the Temple, to return to his training.

Obi-wan believed he was a Jedi, but still doubt plagued him. Who was going to choose him after he betrayed Qui-gon Jinn? Who would trust him?

Obi-wan entered the meditation gardens, looking around before settling in his favorite spot near a small stream. He sighed out loud and stared off into the flowing water, trying to find some calm or center, he didn't care where it came from.

Hours passed and Obi-wan's eyes drifted closed. And again the images of Bruck's death sprang to mind, as well of those of Cerasi's.

/You blame yourself for his death when you should not./

Obi-wan bolted straight up but found he was no longer in the gardens but somewhere dark and unfamiliar. "Where..."

/ There is no need for fear. / the soft voice called again.

Obi-wan looked around him and reached out with the Force, but could sense no one near him. "Who are you??"

/I am a friend, an observer if you will. / an image of Bruck falling came back up...Obi-wan closed his eyes. /You should not blame yourself. His hate drove him to his end/

"I still could have saved him." Obi-wan whispered. Cerasi's final moments flash burned in Obi-wan's memory.

/Ah. As you could have saved her?/

Obi-wan gave no argument.

/You fought with Honor, young Jedi. /

"You apparently didn't see the whole fight." Obi-wan murmured remembering when he allowed Bruck's comments to get to him.

/And you are still young. You can not control every emotion you feel, nor should you. You fought with an honor to your friend, and your masters, you realized when and why you lost control and corrected it before it got too far./

Obi-wan still gave a quizzically look around. He didn't understand what was going on.

/You saved her you know, and you save another in doing so. You will save her further by letting go your grief and self-blame./

Obi-wan knew who she was talking about. He had saved Bant and in a way, in his mind, saved Cerasi. He felt himself drifting back to sleep, wither he wanted to or not and soon felt a small touch on his shoulder.

Gray blue eyes soon were looking around the gardens again, now in the dawn's early light. Master Yoda stood a few feet from him, eyeing him lazily as though he had been sitting there watching him for some time.

He sat up stiffly and stared back at the small master for a few moments, getting his bearing straight. "Master Yoda."

"Find what you sought did you?"

"I think I did." Obi-wan confessed. "I found someone..."

Yoda 'hmphed' and considered the boy. He had followed the Force to the gardens last night and found him in deep meditation, even thought Obi-wan thought he was asleep. The boy's strength was the Unifying Force so it was no surprise that he would have such visions.

But Obi-wan just thought it was a dream.

"Listen to the Force did you?" Yoda asked, deliberately staring the boy down, to make his point clear.

Obi-wan nodded. "Yes Master I did."

"And believe it do you?"

"Yes Master, my mind does..."

"Time it will take, young Padawan, time it will take." Yoda said walking away.

Obi-wan looked around and stood, ready to go back to his quarters and get ready for morning meal. As he left he thought he heard another soft whisper.

/Honor over hate/