Author's Notes: Something new and different. Ok, so its not. It's a little thought process. Spoilers for episode 22. Milly's point of view talking about Wolfwood. Shut up. I'm not getting obsessed with Trigun.
Choice
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It was there, in his eyes.
Confusion, pain, denial, conscience.
Especially pain.
It had been a moment of truth. A moment of truth that he had failed miserably. In that split second he chose his way out. The wrong way.
I look at him with shocked eyes and he glances at me, then looks away, suddenly, the pain showing in his eyes, another deep scar to add to whatever others he has. He seems so much like a small child, the emotion showing in his face, his stance. Something hidden to those who can't read him. I can. I've studied him long enough.
Watching him, I want to comfort him somehow, but the shock is still upon me. I have seen him kill. I have seen him kill. Even though he did it to save our lives, I have seen him kill and I cannot move. The word sends a mental shudder through me. 'Kill.' I didn't think I would see it happen. I try and think why it would hurt him so much, then I remember. It was only a child.
That's why it's hurting him so much more. He killed a child. A child, that, though armed, was lost and alone and caught unawares. That is the pain. And Vash's words only help to magnify it.
Vaguely I hear Vash talking, I see Wolfwood punch him and yell though the denial shows through his eyes. Now Vash is speaking again, and I can only watch as Wolfwood takes what is thrown at him.
"...idealistic bullshit!" His answering words ring through my mind.
He strides past Vash, past Meryl, his eyes cast forward on something only he can see. As he walks by me I gasp, a sound like a pin dropping in the near silence. I want to reach out, but I can only watch him go. See him stride quickly away, slumped forward under the weight of the Cross Punisher and now the weight of his conscience.
I cannot stop him. He is gone.
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