Declaimer: I do not own any final fantasy characters or merchandise

Declaimer: I do not own any final fantasy characters or merchandise. All copyright belongs to Squaresoft.

Desperate Sorrow

Chapter two: You do know how to choose your path, Seifer.

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If you thought "to be forgotten is worst than death" was the phase I used to describe Fuijin, it's not quite the story. I found out the 'truth' that day I got to the infirmary.

After I claimed myself down and got dressed, I was accompanied by Irvine rushed to see Seifer and Fuijin. Guilt was what I felt. If I didn't agree to marry Seifer, this all may not have happened. Seifer then could complete the mission and Fuijin wouldn't lose her legs. The car accident wouldn't have happened. But everyone knew how much I fell for him, that much as I could not pull myself out.

Outside the infirmary, I saw the orphan gang was sitting on the benches. They were all waiting for miracle to be happened. Zell wrapped around Danni by his muscular arm, with eyes shut. Selfie and Rinoa were leaning on each other, asleep. They both cried before. The trace of tears still remained on their pale faces. Squall wasn't here, as he might have been busy on regulating the garden.

"I think you better go in on your own. I will wait you here, if you need any help, just call. All right?!" Irvine said.

I nodded. Therefore I walked in Dr K's office. When she saw me, she gave me a warm hug. We were so close since we both became members of the CC group. She seemed had already detected the pain inside me. After her explanation on the injures' situation, she left me alone. I approached to the patient's room. Just when I twisted the handle, I heard Fuijin's voice. I wasn't planning to spy outside, but the name 'Seifer' she mentioned, stopped me, and stabbed me.

"Seifer…….wake up." She pleaded. I could hear she sniffled. "I am sorry, Seifer. If you wake up, I promise you to travel with you anywhere you like. Seifer, just wake up, please." I actually couldn't remember what exactly I felt at that moment. May be jealous, or may be anger.

Then I heard Raijin said, "Fuu, lower your voice. People will find out, ya know!!"

"What shall I do?! SUGGESTION?!"

"I'm nothing good at those, ya know."

I could sense her voice softened down, "I probably keep playing my act to be a mindless puppet. Anyway, the one Seifer only want was Quisty."

"Fuu, but ya told me Seifer confess his love to you. Ya know?!"

"Oh, please stop saying that…..RAGE!! They can't split up like that. I don't want to make the situation even worse."

All of the jealous in my mind generally erased while I heard that. Fuijin, I'm sorry. I didn't go in to face them. I didn't know how to act. Anyway, I'm never be a good actor. I walked quietly outside the office.

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At that night, while I was still feeling upset, the two disciplinary committee quietly left our Garden to a place no one knew. When we received the news on the following morning, we were all shocked. Especially me.

Many things had happened for the following months. Zell and Danni went on a mission to Esther. That was a long and complicated one, which held up for years. Squall and Rinoa went back to their cottage in Willhill after the unsuccessful wedding. Although Irvine and Selphie stayed, they were both busy on organizing Garden. It ended up leaving me to be the only on for taking care of him, Seifer Almasy.

I was on leave those days. Because I could not face the Almasy fellows. Besides, I really did not feel like teaching anymore. Xu was elected to be the commander that time until six years later.

For the most of time I stayed beside him, my supposing lover. I always wondered if he loved me still. No matter how much confusion I had, no matter how much emotional battle I needed to conquer, I never doubt my care for him. It never was a waste. For me, for him and for Fuijin. All the time, I talked to him. I whispered our past into his ears. I kept exercise his arms and legs. I wished whenever he woke up, he could move again. Then, for all I could do was putting his favorite Gunblade next to his bed, give him strength.

Time flied away, on a Tuesday morning, he awoke. Six months of waiting, the day finally came. However, it wasn't such a joyful moment as we all expected.

That quiet morning, with birds singing outside the quad, I was having a nap on his side while he slided his eyes open. I woke up by the noise of a broken vase. Seifer was struggling to get up and accidentally crashed all the objects on the bedside table. I quickly hold him in place.

"Seifer? Thank god you awake…." I helped him to lean up and gave him few slip of water. "You can't move at this moment. You are still very fragile. I am calling Dr. Kadowaki."

"Where ……am ……I?" His voice was cracking.

"Er?! In the infirmary,"

"In..firmary?"

"Are you all right, Seifer?"

"Who …are…. you?"

I stepped back and screamed, "Dr. Kadowaki?!"

That's the hardest moment in my life. For the one you love but he could not remember you anymore. How irony was that?

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Author's note: Thank you for all the reviews, this does break my record. For those who wondered if this is Quifer / Saifuu, sorry that I can't even tell ya, it's not up in my mind yet. However, next chapter is more likely around Quisty n Seifer chapter. Then again, for Irvine x Selphie lover, there will be chapters about them follow the next one. Thanks again for support.