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Desperate sorrow
Chapter 3 – Sealed memory.
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Shortly after Seifer's awoke, we docked the Garden at Dollet Pier. Then, we asked for lending us a few advanced medical equipments from the Royal Dollet Hospital; in order to run a body check for Seifer.
"I am sorry. I believed he had lost his memory during his coma." This came from Dr. K's mouth. I looked at the X-ray scanning of Seifer's brain. Strange!? Everything seemed to be perfectly in shape. There's no sign of injury at all. No tumor or fluid leaking.….
"But, doctor….." I quested.
"Yea, I noticed that as well. Listen, I assume it's the problem usually caused by using GFs. As I remember, Seifer should still junction to Ifrit, right?"
I couldn't believe a loyalty GF could bring such a crisis. The black and white scanning sheets made me dizzy. I let my body to lay on the arm-chair and massage my temple. "You are saying the GF erased all his memory?"
Dr. Kawaroki nodded.
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It hurt! The saddest things just happened all at the same time. What a chaos?! It's just like being suffocated underwater. Moreover, with thousands of sabers stabbing at me, no matter how loud I scream, despite how reluctant I was. I struggled, but at the end I still would lose my strength. And die.
Standing on the edge of the high cliff, I felt like falling.
"I hate you, Hyne! I hate all these stupid $%&^$&!" I shout all my anger to the darkness sky. I ought to release my anger. Then I was so tired. Very soon, I was totally sucked into my dream. I remembered, at that moment, I was actually thinking about jumping down.
Once again, he saved me. Save me from falling in my illusion.
"You're not jumping, ain't you?" my friend asked.
I knew he had been standing here for a while. I heard his footstep. He just stood here and let me continue my nightmare and also fantasy. "Go away! I ain't jumping. Please, just let me to be alone." I roared. And then I murmured. "How come it's you, again? I always wish it would be him." I sighed and turned my body back.
"Well, then you have to walk back to Garden with me. Seifer wants to talk to you." Irvine smiled to me as he switched on his torch in his hand.
"What?" The bright beam shined into my eyes, I felt uncomfortable.
He shrugged. "I just explain his situation to him. ………And your relationship."
"You what?" I screamed.
"Didn't I tell you clearly?" Irvine folded up his hands. "I can't believe you're aging…. So fast."
Walking up to him, I scrapped his collar. "Don't mess around my LIFE! Kinnease!! It's not that simple as you think. I mean… How could you tell him all that?! You have no right for doing this!" Fury, I was totally mad at that time.
A gloved hand putted on my wrist. "Why don't you just calm down? Quis, It may not be as complicated as you think. Moreover, he deserves a right to know what's going on." He pushed up a giant smile. Hyne, I really had no idea how could he still so optimistic at that time.
I exhaled deeply, my face was burning. "Where's him now?"
"In his dorm. Ah, don't forget this!" Said, as he throw me something with a dark red cloth wrapped around. After that he walked off, waving his long arm, saying, "Don't thank me, it's my Selfei who found it."
I unwrapped the cloth, it's a ring. The ring with Seifer's name sculpted on it. Our wedding ring, which I treasured it as a child firstly received his toy. I thanked them at the bottom of my heart.
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I pressed the transparent button on the panel beside the metallic door. Room 1222, the particular room that we shared our dreams for nights.
"The door's opened." I heard his sexy deep voice. I took a deep breath and walked in.
The Hyperion was being placed on his bed and he was sitting bedside it, glaring at our wedding ring. The one which was sculpted my name on.
"………………." He looked at me and commended in silence.
I stared at him. He looked still the same as months ago. He might lose some weight, however, in my heart he's forever perfect.
"Thank you." He looked at me. "Amm, for taking care of me the whole time…."
It's awful. That's too cold, too distant. I felt the bitter rolling in my heart.
"I guess, Irvine had already told you everything. As you should already known, we …..amm…..were lovers." Slowly and logically, I said what I should say. "I mean…I really won't expect you feel all the same as before….. but…"
He cut my words, "I will try my best. …….I had no idea it will work out or not, but I shall try my best to love you again." As I was still saying," I only want to tell you, I love you still."
He touched my ear, let me laid my face along his palm. Closing my eyes, reminded me our days. I wished he would remember his past, most of his past.
We kissed tenderly under his uncertainty.
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Author's note: Finally got my mood back to right.
