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Desperate sorrow

Chapter 4 – Critical Days

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My life's always like this, stuck in problems. Emotion control is always my weakest.

And at that time, I was wonder if it was a right thing to be together with Seifer again. My heart was divided in two. Joy fulfilled one half and the other half was engulfed with guilt. …..Sorry….. Fuijin.

"Shall we sit here?" grabbing his arm firmly; I led my knight to a table at a far corner of the ballroom.

Seifer put his hands fixed on the wineglass. He looked at the cadets butterflying on the dancing floor. Trying to look casual as if he could; however, at the back of my mind, I knew his anxiety. I was wandering my eyes on his face. For a moment, I saw his precious smile. Turning his heads back to me, he half commended and half inquired, "Everyone seems enjoying the party."

"Of course!! Tonight is time for those talented cadets turn to seeds." I explained as my mind flashed back to the time while Seifer graduate. "We have this kind of graduation ball in every three years. Well, you see, we have to keep the quantity of seeds down, yet the highest quality."

"Oh. I see…" He murmured.

"You were my student, I once yelled at you that you would never be a seed after one of the field exam." I laughed. "You were always causing troubles. And you thought I was so bossy!!" I saw his puzzled face, and he said, "Am I?!"

I bitten my lips, "That's centuries ago." With saying that, I looked away to the balcony.

"Oh Quis, I would love to listen about my past." He ensured me as wrapping my hands into his.

"Really? But I thought you were puzzled." I inquired.

"I just guess everyone would act like this under the circumstance. Well, before we get too serious into this deep conversation; shall we have a dance?" He posed an inviting position. "May I?" I just couldn't resist and gently follow him down to the dancing pool, despite the Treppies and Alamsy's gossiping.

I was laying my head on his board shoulder. It's our second dance, yet the last one.

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It was a special night for me.

"Gosh, I am totally worn out!! I would never trust Selphie for organizing any function again." I leaned on the wall. Twisting my hair.

"I quite enjoy it. The music was great." Seifer commended.

"But not the stupid games!!" Putting my hand on the forehead. "I would never believe that we did that stupid dance! Can't you see they are just humiliating us?!"

"Whatever….." He sounded like Squall………..they are more than rival.

As a group of cadets walked passed, we both kept awkwardly silence.

Then, he took a look at his watch.

'Would you like to come in?" I asked plainly while twisting my hair.

Seifer hesitantly stared into my eyes, "Are you sure? You ain't asking me for a cup of tea at two in the morning, right?"

I wrapped around his waist, pulled him closer to my body. "I love you, Seifer."

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He lifted me up and carried me to my dorm, then leveled me down on the edge of my bed. I sat there with my legs crossed. It was the first time he paid a visit to me room after the 'wedding'. He slided his finger along the bed-sit, "Black leather, eh?"

I kissed him on his lips, and grinned, "Real leather, reflects the real, sexy me." I couldn't help but burst out laughing at my weird flirtation.

He smirked. "True."

Taking off my high-heeled diamante ankle strap, he kissed on my knee. It looked like as a loyalty knight kneeled in front of his queen.

Then he began to unzipped my silk beaded dress, while I undone his. As he examined my body, he praised, "You are so beautiful." Gently pressed me down, I felt his fasten heartbeat, or might be mine. "Does every man say this before having sex?"

"Shhh.." He started kissed me down from my neck.

Two minutes later.

"…………."

"…………"

Catching up his breath, he asked, "You are a virgin?"

"Well, not anymore. Seifer, I know you will treasure me. I trust our relationship, even you can't remember a thing."

"……….Thanks…" He inhaled rapidly, "Quis, please ….relax. I don't want to hurt you."

I nodded.

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When I woke up again, he's already aslept. While I turned my body, he slowly opened his sleepy eyes. "What time?"

"Still dark. Let's go back to sleep."

Once he gained his conscious, he warmly inquired, "Are you all right?"

I smiled, "Last night was wonderful." He blushed.

"Quisty?!" Seifer narrowed his eyes. Soon, I realized something's going wrong. The whole garden started to rotate for 45 degree from its originally horizontal position. Thank hyde that we were at the lower part, which won't slide while the garden turned. However, there were enough objects fallen over which would kill us in any second. Hearing the emergency alarm set off, we quickly put on our clothing. Seifer and I urgently rushed to the bridge, despite the fact that my legs were still a bit sore. Outside the elevator, we caught up with Irvine and Selphie.

"What's going on?" Selphie asked when keeping her body in balance and pressing the elevator button.

"Let's go up and ask Nida……" I suggest and tried not to slip.

Then Xu's announcement came out, "Would seeds member, Nida attend to the bridge RIGHT NOW. I repeat…….."

"Uh-oh….Sounds like even Nida not get a clue, yet." Irvine said as he pushed his wife into the lift. I gave him a glare.

Xu seemed not very excited when seeing us up there. "Where the hell is Nida?!"

I rushed to the patrol panel, "What's wrong?" All the controllers were flashing. Then I heard sounds of running boots getting closer and closer towards us. Next, I saw a half-bared Nida standing next to me.

"………." Nida stared at the control panel and the coordinate data on the computer. "Xu, get me a personal laptop now!!"

Xu frowned, "What?…" Nida roared, "I said NOW. Got and get a fucking laptop to me now. "

Everyone was surprised at Nida's temper. Xu was totally blinked. She quickly ran down to the headmaster's room at a lower level.

I looked at Nida.

Without facing me, he reported, "We are going down. The Garden will crashed the ground within ten minutes."

My face went pale, "What?!"

"You got to be kidding, man!" came from the cowboy.

"We've been hacked in. The auto-flight system was dominated by our enemy. I will try to change the program from another computer instead from the contaminated domain. But I can't guarantee anything."

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Author's note: Hi readers. As you may know that I am a slow writer. I just hope you all will keep reading my fics. After 3 Chapters, I decided some 'action' is needed.