I'm warning you now: if you don't like the idea that Mamoru and Usagi are
not the prefect couple, this story will not work for you. And take the title of this chapter as a clue.
Usual disclaimer applies.
Chapter 4
~"I love you so much, Mamo-chan."
"I love you, too."
"Are we going to be together always?"
"You know we will. Why do you ask me such things?"
"I don't know. Just hold me, please."
"Of course…Soso-chan."~
"Mamo-chan, snap out of it," Usagi said with her hands on her hips.
Mamoru had almost forgot where he was. He sat on his couch while Usagi
stood over him. "I'm sorry, sweetie, what did you say?" She sat down next
to him, slightly agitated. "I said, who is she? She is not just some girl you
had a crush on. You guys were talking like you were friends forever and you
protected her like…" she took a painful breath," like you loved her or some
shit like that." Mamoru got up and walked away slowly from Usagi toward
the window. He looked to the outside then turned to his girlfriend. "Usako,
before you and I met, it was true that I was lonely, but there was one person
that was there for me and loved me. That person was Sosoru."
Usagi's expression told exactly how she felt. She lowered her head
slightly as well as her eyes. She wrapped her arms around herself, as though
she was trying to comfort herself, but to no avail. "Why didn't you give it to
me straight when I asked you," she asked in a broken voice. "I was scared,"
he said, swallowing hard. Surprised, she asked, "Scared of what?" He let out
a nervous half smile, still looking down. "Of how you would react," he
answered matter-of-factly. Displeased, Usagi snapped, "Did you ever sleep
with her?" Raising one eyebrow, he looked her in the eye. Searching for her
answer, she threatened, "You heard me, and I will not repeat myself."
Mamoru leaned against the wall and put a hand over his forehead. He
took in a deep breath and let it out heavily. He heard Usagi's erratic
breathing from across the room. "Yes," he replied in a broken voice." I loved
her with all of my heart and soul, and she loved me, but she said she had to
leave me and could never return. I though I'd never see her again. She was
my first true -"
His sentence was stopped by the sound of his apartment door slamming.
"Usagi," he shouted as he ran to the door. He opened it and saw her storming
down the hall. "Usako, wait!" She turned around, her eyes red from crying,
her fists balled up from anger, her body trembling from pain. Mamoru,
seeing the state she was in, briskly walked over to her. "Don't you even
come near me," she spat. "You lied to me. You lied to me, Usagi. You told
me I was your first and only. You told me she was nothing more than a
crush. But she was your first love, and you lied to me about it? How could
you look me in the eyes and say that," she paused as tears rushed down her
face. "I loved you so much, Mamo-chan," with that, she turned around and
ran down the stairs. Mamoru looked at the spot where she stood, and cried.
"HE SAID WHAT," Ami, Rei, Minako and Makoto exclaimed.
All four sat around Usagi, who was still crying hysterically. Rei ran to her
side and handed Usagi a cup of tea, which she sipped on. "He said he used to
love her and he slept with her before." All the girls could not believe this
was happening. The perfect couple was having major problems. Suddenly,
the whole Demon and Sailor Triton thing didn't matter, it was all about
Usagi. "Well," started Makoto," he was with her before he even knew you. I
mean, maybe you shouldn't sweat over it. He loves you, and you two were
meant to be together. What about Crystal Tokyo and Chibi-Usa, they
wouldn't exist if you two weren't meant to be." Everyone looked oddly at
her, then Minako pulled her to the side. "Mako-chan, I think she wants to be
upset right now. I know you're trying to make her feel better, but this is
kinda serious and she just needs us to listen, not give advice." Makoto turned
her head away from her, but nodded in agreement. As the two went to sit
down, they saw Usagi had stop crying, and quickly sat beside her. "You
know, you are right, Mako-chan," she said. "It did happen before we even
met. I was just so shocked that he didn't tell me what was going on. I had a
right to be mad, but I shouldn't have broke up with him, or said what I said.
Perhaps I should go back and let him explain things." The girls sat and
watched her. In the back of everyone's mind, they were thinking about how
much Usagi had matured over the past 3 years, and they all thought she
would be fine because she had. Rei scooted over beside her and held her
hand. "You know, we are always fighting and we hardly ever get along, but I
will, we all will be by your side so you can get over this. We are so proud
that you have turned out to be such a mature young …" The girls then broke
out into laughter. "Oh stop it, Rei," exclaimed Ami," you sound like her
mom." Usagi dried her red eyes and began to laugh as well. "You know
what guys, I will go talk to Mamoru, but first, let's hit the Strip and get some
smoothies." The girls jumped up in agreement, grabbed their things and
headed out of the temple.
Mamoru somberly walked down the streets of Juuban. He
occasionally looked up to look at a stop light so he wouldn't get hit by a car,
but oh, how he thought of jumping infront of one. He had been walking for
an half hour and ended up at the edge of Juuban, not to far from where
Setsuna was killed. His stomach wrenched at the memory of her body in
Usagi's arms. "Usagi," he thought," I'm so sorry sweetie, sorry I hurt you."
Soon, he came across the coffee shop Setsuna and the Outers used to
frequent. He looked into the window. It wasn't too crowded, and he really
wanted to take a rest, so he decided to go inside. Once inside, he saw
Michiru and Haruka at a table, but they seemed to be having a conversation,
so he didn't speak to them. Near the back of the shop, he saw the back of a
brunette's head whose hair extended to the floor. It was tied at the ends with
a purple tie. He automatically knew who it was.
"Hello, Temptress," he smiled. Sosoru turned around, placing the book she
was reading onto the table. "Well, hello, Mamo-chan, how are you?"
Mamoru's expression changed quickly. He lowered his head and looked
away from her. "Not to good. I think my girlfriend and I broke up," he said.
"Oh…the pretty blonde? Well, maybe it was just a real big
misunderstanding," she said with a hint of sarcasm. Mamoru let out a half
smile and nodded. "Yes, a very big misunderstanding." Sosoru took off her
reading glasses and placed the thin wire of the ear piece at the bottom of her
lip. "Well, are you going to tell me," she purred. Mamoru sat back and let
out a deep sigh. "I don't want to discuss it here," he paused, "Or at all for
that matter." Sosoru placed her glasses of the table. Gracefully, she clasped
her hands together and rested her chin on them. "Oh, come on, Mamo-chan.
I used to be your best friend, you can tell me what happened. It's not like I
could make things any worse for you." He smiled, then laughed loudly. "I
wouldn't be so sure," he snapped. She raised an eyebrow. "What," she
questioned, part surprised, partly a threat.
Mamoru wanted to smack himself for saying that, after all, nothing
that happened was her fault. "Nothing, Soso-chan, I just don't want to get
you involved," he said. "Well, too late, now you have to tell me everything.
And you know very well, Mamoru that I get what I want. Now, I do agree
that we can't discuss whatever it is here. Perhaps we could go to the park or
something." Mamoru shook his head," No, not the park. I don't want to be
outside, someone could hear us." Sosoru laughed. "What is she, super-
human?" He giggled a little then got up, throwing some money on the table.
Sosoru looked at the money, then got up as well. "I can pay my own bill,
Mamo-chan, if you did not know." Mamoru let a smirk run across his face
and lowered his eyes slightly. "I'm sure all you would have to do is flash
those beautiful brown eyes at the waiter and he'd let you off quick." She
smiled at him, brushing her beautiful brown hair away from her equally
beautiful face. "Well, you are right, but since you want to spend your
money, be my guest. By the way, where are we going to talk?" He began
walking away from her, knowing she would follow. "My place."
The pair walked side by side down the crowded streets of Juuban.
Mamoru was still extremely distraught, but being in the presence of Sosoru
calmed him down considerably. He felt so free around her, almost the same
way he felt when he was around Usagi, if not, more so. Soon, the two were
at the apartment complex in which he lived. "Wow," Sosoru said," someone
is in the money now, aren't they?" Mamoru simply smiled and walked into
the lobby and Sosoru followed. Instead of taking the elevator, they used the
stairs, which he liked to use to stay in shape. The whole time, neither said a
word because the atmosphere seemed too heavy for conversation. Soon, they
stood outside of his apartment door, and Mamoru was nervous about letting
Sosoru inside. "What's wrong," she asked," place a pigpen or something?"
He laughed and opened the door.
Sosoru was greatly impressed by her ex's taste. "Wow," she
commented," I couldn't have decorated the place better myself. You have
style, but I'm sure you got it from me." She let a seductive smile run across
her more than perfect face. Mamoru had to control his thoughts, before
blood rushed to places that they shouldn't. "Well, the place is kinda simple
to me," he said while taking off his black jacket, " just a few rooms and
some furniture." She giggled at his comment and she too took off her jacket.
"You always were the simple type. Where should I put my jacket?"
As she handed the jacket to him, he couldn't help but to scope out her
beautiful body. She had on a tight blue shirt, which was low cut to show off
her ample cleavage, a tight blue skirt that even though came down to her
knee, had a spilt on the side that was so high, it could make a priest want to
break his vows. She had on some strapy blue high- heeled sandals that
beautified her sexy legs. He looked at her gorgeous face, as she moistened
her deliciously thick lips and trembled inside.
"Earth to Mamoru," she said, waving her hand infront of his face.
"Nevermind, I'll just put my jacket over there." She breezed by him, so
close that he smelled her sweet perfume. He then realized that if anything, he
was still extremely attracted to her physically and needed to get her out of
there before they did something he would regret. "Um, I forgot to do some
stuff," he nervously said. "I better go do…um…it…and you should go
home." She walked over to him and smiled.
"What's the matter with you? We just got here and I think you are making
excuses already. Come on, Mamo-chan, sit down so we can get whatever's
bothering you off your chest." She pulled him by his arm over to the couch
and sat him down. She brushed her hair out the way and sat down next to
him.
He sat rigid next to her and inched over to the other end of the couch.
She held his arm in discontent. "Stop it," she angrily exclaimed, "now we
are both adults here, so act like one. I don't know why you are acting so
childish, all we are doing is talking." He looked at her then scratched the
back of his head. "You're right, I'm sorry. You did come all out your way to
come talk to me, I shouldn't be acting like a baby." Sosoru smiled and
leaned back on the couch in a lounging position. "So, what happened
between you and your girlfriend," she purred. Mamoru let out a deep breath
and began to relax a bit. "We got into this argument," he said quietly. "I did
something wrong and she totally blew up. I think we are broken up. She
didn't even want me to touch her." Sosoru frowned and put her hand on his
shoulder. "Sounds pretty bad, Mamo-chan. What did you do? What was the
argument about?" Mamoru took a deep sigh and tilted his head back, then
turned and looked at her. "She was mad because I lied to her about a past
relationship. I wasn't honest when I should have been and I paid the piper."
Sosoru moved her hand from his shoulder to his thigh, and rubbed it to
comfort him. "I'm sorry, that's rough. I can see you don't want to go into
details, so I won't press it." Mamoru got up and walked over to his balcony
as he often did when he was in odds over something. Sosoru got up and
joined him. "I love her so much, Soso-chan, I really do. I didn't mean to hurt
her, but now I am hurting. It's not fair." Sosoru, holding back tears, hugged
him from behind and put her head on his back. Mamoru, startled by the hug
abruptly turned around and looked at her. Her big brown eyes weld up with
tears as he looked at her, and he turned his face away. "I'm sorry you are
hurting," she said in a broken voice," I just don't want to see you hurting
like this." He laughed and he walked away from her. "You don't want to see
me hurt? You, of all people? The person who left me all alone when I had no
one else? Do you know I cried for you every single night after you left,
longing to have you in my arms? It wasn't till I met Usagi that I was happy
again, and now she's gone! And do you know why she is gone? It's because
of you! You had to waltz back into my life and make things all complicated,
bringing back old feelings, making me protect you from that monster that
day—" She smacked him hard across the face, jolting him.
Her chest heaved
up and down as a tear rolled down her cheek. Her eyes became intense and
burned with passion. "Now see here, Chiba Mamoru, I did not cause your
current pain and I could not control the past pains," she paused to let her
tears flow. "I did not mean to hurt you, and to blame it on me is a slap in the
face!" She ran through his apartment, grabbed her jacket and ran for the
door, but before she could open it, he was standing infront of her, staring at
her. "Don't go, I'm sorry," he pleaded," I was out of line and I'm sorry."
Sosoru cried out and hugged Mamoru. He just stood there with his arms
open. He could not comprehend the feelings he was having suddenly.
Slowly, he closed his arms around her, then held her tight. "I'm sorry I
caused you so much pain, I didn't mean to," Sosoru said through her tears.
He ran his hands through her hair and kissed her forehead. He then traced
the frame of her face with his hand and tilted her head up so he could look
into her eyes. "It's not you, it's me. I realize I never really got over you
and…" he paused, unable to find the right words to say. She looked up into
his eyes, no longer crying. "I never got over you either. I slept on tear-
drenched pillows as well. I hated the fact I had to leave you. I have been
waiting so long to see you again." Mamoru looked at her and she continued.
"Mamo-chan, we have nothing left to lose. Usagi dumped you and I am
alone…but I am here for you. Don't dare say you don't want me." He
walked away from her, putting his hands over his face, not believing what
was going on. Thought after thought ran through his head. Thoughts of
Usagi and Chibi-Usa and Crystal Tokyo and how happy he was to be. Then
he thought of how unhappy he was at that moment, and how he knew that
Sosoru could make him feel better, in more ways than one. "Sosoru, a part
of me still loves you, and to get over you, I must show you how much one last
time, just once, because I cant deny that I want you," he thought. Briskly, he
walked over to her, pulled her close to him and kissed her so passionately
she nearly fainted. It was a hot, wild and wicked kiss that lingered much
longer that it should have. She held him closer and broke away from the kiss
to shower his neck with her tongue. He moaned with pleasure, forgetting all
that had him worried and depressed, only knowing the heaven he was in at
that minute, and that's how he wanted it. There was no past and no future,
just the present. Still embraced, Mamoru walked over to his light switch,
turned them off and unwilling to wait, laid Sosoru right on the living room
floor, and began their ruin.
Usagi stood outside of the complex where Mamoru lived, debating
still on whether or not to go in. Luna sat by her side, looking along with her.
"It's dark, Usagi-chan, make up your mind. Either let's go in or let's go
home." Usagi then took a long sigh and lowered her head. "I don't know,
Luna, I kinda have a bad feeling about this. Maybe I should wait till
tomorrow or something." Luna walked toward the entrance angrily. "I didn't
come all this way with you just to go back home. Now you are coming
inside to talk to him right now!" Usagi rolled her eyes then followed her
feline companion inside.
The place seemed empty as they walked through the lobby and up the
stairs to the floor where Mamoru's apartment was on. The atmosphere
was rather unwelcoming to Usagi, and her discomfort showed in her
mannerisms. She looked over her shoulder every five steps and kept Luna
infront of her at all times. When they finally arrived at his door, she was
about to turn away because no lights where on, but Luna stopped her. "I
think I hear something in there." Usagi turned around and glared at her. "The
lights are out, Luna. It's too early for him to be sleep so he must not be
there." Luna put her ear to the door and started listening. Usagi ignored her
initially, but her curiosity got the best of her and she too put her ear to the
door. At first, all she could hear was the mumbled voices of a man and a
woman, then the woman's voice became audible.
"Damn, I've waited for this for so long."
"Me, too. I almost forgot how good it was."
"Ahhh, right there, baby, faster!"
"Oh, shit, Sosoru, you gonna make me—"
"Ma-Ma-Mamoru…"
Usagi pulled herself away from the door. Her heart pounded out of control,
her body trembled with fear and pain. Her insides screamed out, but her
mouth could not move. She just stood there, dazed, looking at the door.
"Usagi?" She did not hear Luna, she did not hear anything except the words
she just heard through the door echoing in her mind. She walked over to the
door, her fists balled up, and prepared to try to knock it open so she could
kill her boyfriend and his lover. But right before her hand landed on the
wood, she stopped, turned around and proceeded home.
not the prefect couple, this story will not work for you. And take the title of this chapter as a clue.
Usual disclaimer applies.
Chapter 4
~"I love you so much, Mamo-chan."
"I love you, too."
"Are we going to be together always?"
"You know we will. Why do you ask me such things?"
"I don't know. Just hold me, please."
"Of course…Soso-chan."~
"Mamo-chan, snap out of it," Usagi said with her hands on her hips.
Mamoru had almost forgot where he was. He sat on his couch while Usagi
stood over him. "I'm sorry, sweetie, what did you say?" She sat down next
to him, slightly agitated. "I said, who is she? She is not just some girl you
had a crush on. You guys were talking like you were friends forever and you
protected her like…" she took a painful breath," like you loved her or some
shit like that." Mamoru got up and walked away slowly from Usagi toward
the window. He looked to the outside then turned to his girlfriend. "Usako,
before you and I met, it was true that I was lonely, but there was one person
that was there for me and loved me. That person was Sosoru."
Usagi's expression told exactly how she felt. She lowered her head
slightly as well as her eyes. She wrapped her arms around herself, as though
she was trying to comfort herself, but to no avail. "Why didn't you give it to
me straight when I asked you," she asked in a broken voice. "I was scared,"
he said, swallowing hard. Surprised, she asked, "Scared of what?" He let out
a nervous half smile, still looking down. "Of how you would react," he
answered matter-of-factly. Displeased, Usagi snapped, "Did you ever sleep
with her?" Raising one eyebrow, he looked her in the eye. Searching for her
answer, she threatened, "You heard me, and I will not repeat myself."
Mamoru leaned against the wall and put a hand over his forehead. He
took in a deep breath and let it out heavily. He heard Usagi's erratic
breathing from across the room. "Yes," he replied in a broken voice." I loved
her with all of my heart and soul, and she loved me, but she said she had to
leave me and could never return. I though I'd never see her again. She was
my first true -"
His sentence was stopped by the sound of his apartment door slamming.
"Usagi," he shouted as he ran to the door. He opened it and saw her storming
down the hall. "Usako, wait!" She turned around, her eyes red from crying,
her fists balled up from anger, her body trembling from pain. Mamoru,
seeing the state she was in, briskly walked over to her. "Don't you even
come near me," she spat. "You lied to me. You lied to me, Usagi. You told
me I was your first and only. You told me she was nothing more than a
crush. But she was your first love, and you lied to me about it? How could
you look me in the eyes and say that," she paused as tears rushed down her
face. "I loved you so much, Mamo-chan," with that, she turned around and
ran down the stairs. Mamoru looked at the spot where she stood, and cried.
"HE SAID WHAT," Ami, Rei, Minako and Makoto exclaimed.
All four sat around Usagi, who was still crying hysterically. Rei ran to her
side and handed Usagi a cup of tea, which she sipped on. "He said he used to
love her and he slept with her before." All the girls could not believe this
was happening. The perfect couple was having major problems. Suddenly,
the whole Demon and Sailor Triton thing didn't matter, it was all about
Usagi. "Well," started Makoto," he was with her before he even knew you. I
mean, maybe you shouldn't sweat over it. He loves you, and you two were
meant to be together. What about Crystal Tokyo and Chibi-Usa, they
wouldn't exist if you two weren't meant to be." Everyone looked oddly at
her, then Minako pulled her to the side. "Mako-chan, I think she wants to be
upset right now. I know you're trying to make her feel better, but this is
kinda serious and she just needs us to listen, not give advice." Makoto turned
her head away from her, but nodded in agreement. As the two went to sit
down, they saw Usagi had stop crying, and quickly sat beside her. "You
know, you are right, Mako-chan," she said. "It did happen before we even
met. I was just so shocked that he didn't tell me what was going on. I had a
right to be mad, but I shouldn't have broke up with him, or said what I said.
Perhaps I should go back and let him explain things." The girls sat and
watched her. In the back of everyone's mind, they were thinking about how
much Usagi had matured over the past 3 years, and they all thought she
would be fine because she had. Rei scooted over beside her and held her
hand. "You know, we are always fighting and we hardly ever get along, but I
will, we all will be by your side so you can get over this. We are so proud
that you have turned out to be such a mature young …" The girls then broke
out into laughter. "Oh stop it, Rei," exclaimed Ami," you sound like her
mom." Usagi dried her red eyes and began to laugh as well. "You know
what guys, I will go talk to Mamoru, but first, let's hit the Strip and get some
smoothies." The girls jumped up in agreement, grabbed their things and
headed out of the temple.
Mamoru somberly walked down the streets of Juuban. He
occasionally looked up to look at a stop light so he wouldn't get hit by a car,
but oh, how he thought of jumping infront of one. He had been walking for
an half hour and ended up at the edge of Juuban, not to far from where
Setsuna was killed. His stomach wrenched at the memory of her body in
Usagi's arms. "Usagi," he thought," I'm so sorry sweetie, sorry I hurt you."
Soon, he came across the coffee shop Setsuna and the Outers used to
frequent. He looked into the window. It wasn't too crowded, and he really
wanted to take a rest, so he decided to go inside. Once inside, he saw
Michiru and Haruka at a table, but they seemed to be having a conversation,
so he didn't speak to them. Near the back of the shop, he saw the back of a
brunette's head whose hair extended to the floor. It was tied at the ends with
a purple tie. He automatically knew who it was.
"Hello, Temptress," he smiled. Sosoru turned around, placing the book she
was reading onto the table. "Well, hello, Mamo-chan, how are you?"
Mamoru's expression changed quickly. He lowered his head and looked
away from her. "Not to good. I think my girlfriend and I broke up," he said.
"Oh…the pretty blonde? Well, maybe it was just a real big
misunderstanding," she said with a hint of sarcasm. Mamoru let out a half
smile and nodded. "Yes, a very big misunderstanding." Sosoru took off her
reading glasses and placed the thin wire of the ear piece at the bottom of her
lip. "Well, are you going to tell me," she purred. Mamoru sat back and let
out a deep sigh. "I don't want to discuss it here," he paused, "Or at all for
that matter." Sosoru placed her glasses of the table. Gracefully, she clasped
her hands together and rested her chin on them. "Oh, come on, Mamo-chan.
I used to be your best friend, you can tell me what happened. It's not like I
could make things any worse for you." He smiled, then laughed loudly. "I
wouldn't be so sure," he snapped. She raised an eyebrow. "What," she
questioned, part surprised, partly a threat.
Mamoru wanted to smack himself for saying that, after all, nothing
that happened was her fault. "Nothing, Soso-chan, I just don't want to get
you involved," he said. "Well, too late, now you have to tell me everything.
And you know very well, Mamoru that I get what I want. Now, I do agree
that we can't discuss whatever it is here. Perhaps we could go to the park or
something." Mamoru shook his head," No, not the park. I don't want to be
outside, someone could hear us." Sosoru laughed. "What is she, super-
human?" He giggled a little then got up, throwing some money on the table.
Sosoru looked at the money, then got up as well. "I can pay my own bill,
Mamo-chan, if you did not know." Mamoru let a smirk run across his face
and lowered his eyes slightly. "I'm sure all you would have to do is flash
those beautiful brown eyes at the waiter and he'd let you off quick." She
smiled at him, brushing her beautiful brown hair away from her equally
beautiful face. "Well, you are right, but since you want to spend your
money, be my guest. By the way, where are we going to talk?" He began
walking away from her, knowing she would follow. "My place."
The pair walked side by side down the crowded streets of Juuban.
Mamoru was still extremely distraught, but being in the presence of Sosoru
calmed him down considerably. He felt so free around her, almost the same
way he felt when he was around Usagi, if not, more so. Soon, the two were
at the apartment complex in which he lived. "Wow," Sosoru said," someone
is in the money now, aren't they?" Mamoru simply smiled and walked into
the lobby and Sosoru followed. Instead of taking the elevator, they used the
stairs, which he liked to use to stay in shape. The whole time, neither said a
word because the atmosphere seemed too heavy for conversation. Soon, they
stood outside of his apartment door, and Mamoru was nervous about letting
Sosoru inside. "What's wrong," she asked," place a pigpen or something?"
He laughed and opened the door.
Sosoru was greatly impressed by her ex's taste. "Wow," she
commented," I couldn't have decorated the place better myself. You have
style, but I'm sure you got it from me." She let a seductive smile run across
her more than perfect face. Mamoru had to control his thoughts, before
blood rushed to places that they shouldn't. "Well, the place is kinda simple
to me," he said while taking off his black jacket, " just a few rooms and
some furniture." She giggled at his comment and she too took off her jacket.
"You always were the simple type. Where should I put my jacket?"
As she handed the jacket to him, he couldn't help but to scope out her
beautiful body. She had on a tight blue shirt, which was low cut to show off
her ample cleavage, a tight blue skirt that even though came down to her
knee, had a spilt on the side that was so high, it could make a priest want to
break his vows. She had on some strapy blue high- heeled sandals that
beautified her sexy legs. He looked at her gorgeous face, as she moistened
her deliciously thick lips and trembled inside.
"Earth to Mamoru," she said, waving her hand infront of his face.
"Nevermind, I'll just put my jacket over there." She breezed by him, so
close that he smelled her sweet perfume. He then realized that if anything, he
was still extremely attracted to her physically and needed to get her out of
there before they did something he would regret. "Um, I forgot to do some
stuff," he nervously said. "I better go do…um…it…and you should go
home." She walked over to him and smiled.
"What's the matter with you? We just got here and I think you are making
excuses already. Come on, Mamo-chan, sit down so we can get whatever's
bothering you off your chest." She pulled him by his arm over to the couch
and sat him down. She brushed her hair out the way and sat down next to
him.
He sat rigid next to her and inched over to the other end of the couch.
She held his arm in discontent. "Stop it," she angrily exclaimed, "now we
are both adults here, so act like one. I don't know why you are acting so
childish, all we are doing is talking." He looked at her then scratched the
back of his head. "You're right, I'm sorry. You did come all out your way to
come talk to me, I shouldn't be acting like a baby." Sosoru smiled and
leaned back on the couch in a lounging position. "So, what happened
between you and your girlfriend," she purred. Mamoru let out a deep breath
and began to relax a bit. "We got into this argument," he said quietly. "I did
something wrong and she totally blew up. I think we are broken up. She
didn't even want me to touch her." Sosoru frowned and put her hand on his
shoulder. "Sounds pretty bad, Mamo-chan. What did you do? What was the
argument about?" Mamoru took a deep sigh and tilted his head back, then
turned and looked at her. "She was mad because I lied to her about a past
relationship. I wasn't honest when I should have been and I paid the piper."
Sosoru moved her hand from his shoulder to his thigh, and rubbed it to
comfort him. "I'm sorry, that's rough. I can see you don't want to go into
details, so I won't press it." Mamoru got up and walked over to his balcony
as he often did when he was in odds over something. Sosoru got up and
joined him. "I love her so much, Soso-chan, I really do. I didn't mean to hurt
her, but now I am hurting. It's not fair." Sosoru, holding back tears, hugged
him from behind and put her head on his back. Mamoru, startled by the hug
abruptly turned around and looked at her. Her big brown eyes weld up with
tears as he looked at her, and he turned his face away. "I'm sorry you are
hurting," she said in a broken voice," I just don't want to see you hurting
like this." He laughed and he walked away from her. "You don't want to see
me hurt? You, of all people? The person who left me all alone when I had no
one else? Do you know I cried for you every single night after you left,
longing to have you in my arms? It wasn't till I met Usagi that I was happy
again, and now she's gone! And do you know why she is gone? It's because
of you! You had to waltz back into my life and make things all complicated,
bringing back old feelings, making me protect you from that monster that
day—" She smacked him hard across the face, jolting him.
Her chest heaved
up and down as a tear rolled down her cheek. Her eyes became intense and
burned with passion. "Now see here, Chiba Mamoru, I did not cause your
current pain and I could not control the past pains," she paused to let her
tears flow. "I did not mean to hurt you, and to blame it on me is a slap in the
face!" She ran through his apartment, grabbed her jacket and ran for the
door, but before she could open it, he was standing infront of her, staring at
her. "Don't go, I'm sorry," he pleaded," I was out of line and I'm sorry."
Sosoru cried out and hugged Mamoru. He just stood there with his arms
open. He could not comprehend the feelings he was having suddenly.
Slowly, he closed his arms around her, then held her tight. "I'm sorry I
caused you so much pain, I didn't mean to," Sosoru said through her tears.
He ran his hands through her hair and kissed her forehead. He then traced
the frame of her face with his hand and tilted her head up so he could look
into her eyes. "It's not you, it's me. I realize I never really got over you
and…" he paused, unable to find the right words to say. She looked up into
his eyes, no longer crying. "I never got over you either. I slept on tear-
drenched pillows as well. I hated the fact I had to leave you. I have been
waiting so long to see you again." Mamoru looked at her and she continued.
"Mamo-chan, we have nothing left to lose. Usagi dumped you and I am
alone…but I am here for you. Don't dare say you don't want me." He
walked away from her, putting his hands over his face, not believing what
was going on. Thought after thought ran through his head. Thoughts of
Usagi and Chibi-Usa and Crystal Tokyo and how happy he was to be. Then
he thought of how unhappy he was at that moment, and how he knew that
Sosoru could make him feel better, in more ways than one. "Sosoru, a part
of me still loves you, and to get over you, I must show you how much one last
time, just once, because I cant deny that I want you," he thought. Briskly, he
walked over to her, pulled her close to him and kissed her so passionately
she nearly fainted. It was a hot, wild and wicked kiss that lingered much
longer that it should have. She held him closer and broke away from the kiss
to shower his neck with her tongue. He moaned with pleasure, forgetting all
that had him worried and depressed, only knowing the heaven he was in at
that minute, and that's how he wanted it. There was no past and no future,
just the present. Still embraced, Mamoru walked over to his light switch,
turned them off and unwilling to wait, laid Sosoru right on the living room
floor, and began their ruin.
Usagi stood outside of the complex where Mamoru lived, debating
still on whether or not to go in. Luna sat by her side, looking along with her.
"It's dark, Usagi-chan, make up your mind. Either let's go in or let's go
home." Usagi then took a long sigh and lowered her head. "I don't know,
Luna, I kinda have a bad feeling about this. Maybe I should wait till
tomorrow or something." Luna walked toward the entrance angrily. "I didn't
come all this way with you just to go back home. Now you are coming
inside to talk to him right now!" Usagi rolled her eyes then followed her
feline companion inside.
The place seemed empty as they walked through the lobby and up the
stairs to the floor where Mamoru's apartment was on. The atmosphere
was rather unwelcoming to Usagi, and her discomfort showed in her
mannerisms. She looked over her shoulder every five steps and kept Luna
infront of her at all times. When they finally arrived at his door, she was
about to turn away because no lights where on, but Luna stopped her. "I
think I hear something in there." Usagi turned around and glared at her. "The
lights are out, Luna. It's too early for him to be sleep so he must not be
there." Luna put her ear to the door and started listening. Usagi ignored her
initially, but her curiosity got the best of her and she too put her ear to the
door. At first, all she could hear was the mumbled voices of a man and a
woman, then the woman's voice became audible.
"Damn, I've waited for this for so long."
"Me, too. I almost forgot how good it was."
"Ahhh, right there, baby, faster!"
"Oh, shit, Sosoru, you gonna make me—"
"Ma-Ma-Mamoru…"
Usagi pulled herself away from the door. Her heart pounded out of control,
her body trembled with fear and pain. Her insides screamed out, but her
mouth could not move. She just stood there, dazed, looking at the door.
"Usagi?" She did not hear Luna, she did not hear anything except the words
she just heard through the door echoing in her mind. She walked over to the
door, her fists balled up, and prepared to try to knock it open so she could
kill her boyfriend and his lover. But right before her hand landed on the
wood, she stopped, turned around and proceeded home.
