Acceptance or rejection?



Disclaimer: The characters in this fanfic still belong to Nobuhiro Watsuki and the song How is from Lisa Loeb. I'm only a college student that writes this for fun and I don't make any money from it (it's not that good) I would still like reviews though! It's a great help and I'm sorry it took so long for the latest chapter to get posted, but I was busy with my studies. Thanks for waiting though! Hope u like and give me some ideas to keep the story intresting ok?

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"Aoshi..." Misao couldn't believe her own eyes

*He's come back...*

Aoshi didn't know how to react to her presence, he was still angry, but the sight of her calmed him. His gaze softened as she approached him.

*Misao tell me how to love you.*

Misao's thoughts were racing in her head.

*Why did he come back.now? Why is this so hard? I love Sano I don't love him, he was never interested in me.or was he?*

The music starts playing, a guitar defines the melody.

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It didn't come this far for you to make this hard for me.

And now you want to ask me "how"?

It's like - how does your heart beat, and why do you breathe?

How does your heart beat, and why do you breathe?

How does your heart beat, and why do you breathe?

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Misao went over to Aoshi. His eyes were unreadable to her, she'd never seen that look before. He looked almost helpless.She couldn't figure it out.

Aoshi opened his mouth to say something

"Misao, I."

"Don't" Misao said, pressing her hands to her ears.She turned away from him, realising what he was about to say.

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Why did you come here?

You weren't invited.

You were on the outside - Stay on the outside.

And now you want to ask me "why"?

It's like - why does your heart beat, and how do you cry?

How does your heart beat?

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Aoshi was speechless at her reaction.

Misao took the opportunity to say what was on her mind.

"Tell me, why did you came back now? You didn't even say goodbye when you left you think I'd be welcoming you back with open arms? You hurt me, Aoshi, why? I want to know!"

"I didn't mean to." He murmured.

Misao didn't hear him and went on

"And now you have the nerve to show up and make everything more difficult for me. By saying something that you don't mean, because.well. god knows why! I stopped you to save you the embarrassment. It doesn't matter now I've moved on, you don't have to explain anything to me, you hear, so if you want to leave, just leave.I `m perfectly happy, so don't bother worrying about me anymore and just leave."

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And there are some things that I'd like to figure out.

There are some things that I can do without

-like you, and your letters that go on forever,

and you, and the people that were never friends.

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"You just never understood me Aoshi, how could you? You never let me into your life and I was just being silly thinking that I was important to you.You haven't changed, I just did."

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With all the things that you could be,you never could learn how to be me.

And now you want to ask me "how"?

It's like - how does your heart beat, and why do you breathe?

How does your heart beat, and why do you breathe?

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Misao's heart was racing in her chest, she couldn't believe she'd said all those things.She meant what she'd said but her head was still filled with questions. But it were the answers to those questions that scared her. She wasn't prepared to hear them. She wasn't prepared to hear what he'd meant to say earlier, even though she knew he wouldn't meant it, she just wasn't prepared to put her feelings through the test.