Disclaimer; if you recognise it then it ain't mine. This is number two of the letters.



LETTER TWO

Dearest Harry,



I really don't know how to tell you what I want to. You know I always think that talking about something is a better way of sorting things out. But seeing as the reason you are reading this is probably because I am no longer of this planet, I suppose I will have to try and say what I want in this letter. You see we all knew all of us who have written you letters that we were going to die or leave the country at about the same time. So we were asked by Dumbledore to write a letter about any last thoughts or confessions to you. I suppose he has his reasons but there you go. I expect you have already read the letter from Severus. I knew of course. He told me during a short period of time when we were together.

Did you know about us Harry? I thought you did. Well anyway he told me one night, it was the night that bastard rejected you. I went to see Severus and he was sitting in his office in a raging temper. No excuse he could think of could convince me that was the reason he was angry and eventually he told me. I listened intently, as it explained the reason for why our relationship had been so emotionally unattached. It was purely physical, although I had hoped it would have become more. It sounds so unlike me doesn't it? 'Perfect little prefect Hermione, shagging a teacher!' who would ever have thought? But that's all it was sex. He couldn't get over her you know? He couldn't get over Lily, or rather he wouldn't. I think that know how much he hurt her was his defence system against letting it happen again.

I know what your wondering Harry. 'When was all this deceit going on?' well Harry it was about a year and a half ago. And yes Harry, I know what your thinking now, 'wasn't Hermione with Ron last year?' and the answer is yes. So I cheated on him. But he doesn't know. At least I don't think he does and I don't want him to know. He will still be alive Harry. He will have fled the country, too upset to come back. This country will have too many memories for him.

I'm not just writing this letter to explain away Severus and Ron's actions Harry. I actually have to confess something. It's something pretty big for me and, should you accept it, big for you too. You see Harry, during this fling with Severus I got pregnant. At first I told myself it was Ron's baby but I still didn't tell anyone. I explained my absence while having the baby as an academic holiday course. I had to learn a charm to disguise the bump. That would have given the whole thing away. So that's why I had so much time off in our seventh year. Apart from this baby being my daughter, she is also something to you Harry. She is your sister. You and her have the same father. Whether you want to tell people of that fact, I don't know, but I do know that you will know how she feels. She won't have any parents either Harry. Remember how you felt. Do you really want someone else to go through that too?

She is beautiful Harry. You should see her. She has your eyes and she looks so cute. She has black hair too. Unfortunately I think her hair will be like mine was. You remember how bushy it used to be? I do poor kid. She's gonna have hair like her mother. But lets hope she is as brave as her brother is, and as strong. Harry I need for you to look after her, when she is old enough to stay with you. I want you to be part of her life; you are her brother Harry. You must understand why I ask this of you? You do Harry, I know you do. Harry realise what this means. You can help someone not to have as much pain over losing their parents. Would you really wish anyone went through the pain you did Harry? Do you really? Well if you do then you're a child! An adult would except his responsibility. I didn't want to have to use this as a method of persuasion Harry but I think I have to. We died for you Harry! We died or left to ensure your safety. All I ask is that you help another person. Not just any person either. You're own sister.

Harry find her please. Find her and help her. I need you to. I'm begging you Harry. I know you will do the right thing. And Harry, I'm really sorry. I never knew. I couldn't believe it when you told me he rejected you. I only wish he hadn't, but Harry don't let yourself get bitter about it. You don't want to end up like Severus. Afraid to love because of one person. I know it hurts, but you will get over it. It may not seem like that at the minute but trust me it will.

Can you do me one other favour? Tell Ron that I love him. I always loved him but I was young when it happened. I know he doesn't know, or rather he didn't. I sent him a letter too. I needed him to know. If he really loves me Harry, he will return and I'm sure he will. Maybe not next week, or next month or even next year, but he will come back. I promise you that. He loved his best friend too much to leave him forever. As do I Harry, remember I never really died if you remember me. If you can remember all of us then we never really left, we just became harder to see when you needed us. But we will always be with you. I promise you that.

Hermione.