Part 4 - How can I forget, when you're right here?
//"Why are you here?" I look up at him and he smiles down at me.
"I came back for you" He takes me into his arms and I feel warm and happy.
"You always come back for me don't you?" He pulls away from me and places a kiss on my head.
"Always...."//
I open my eyes and try to move, my muscles ache in protest and the cut in my head throbs. I close my eyes again and try to recall what happened last night.
"Lily? You home?"
"I'm here Anne."
She passes me a glass of water and sits on the edge of my bed.
"Lily what the hell happned to me last night? The last thing I remember was fainting, after I threw up outside the Vee Club, god I hope Daniel didn't see me!"
"Well...."
"Oh my god he did see me vomit didn't he?!" I cover my face in embarrassment while Lily laughs.
"Well he said he found you outside Vee, you had fainted and you were lying on the pavement, so he bought you home."
"Great...."
"He also said that you were murming something...Angel I think...sound familiar?"
My heart stops and I feel my throat tighten as images from last night flash in my mind...
seeing angel in club.....vomiting...someone calling me Buffy....
"Hey Anne wasn't that the name of that guy you were seeing back in Sunnydale?"
"No, I never went out with anyone called Angel"
"I'm sure you did..."
"Just drop it Lily okay?! There was no Angel."
Liar. She looks at me, doubt on her face but she just gets up and walks out of the room. I sigh and lie back down, great I've hurt her feelings, I mean I love Lily, but I've got more important things to think about..like am I going crazy...did I really see Angel.. I drift off to sleep again and I dream of the thing I always dream about..him.
//I lie back and he wraps his arms around me, I sigh contently and watch my old friends dance, Willow, Xander, Giles, Oz even Cordelia to a strange song I can't understand. They're all dressed in white with shining halos above their head, like angels.
"When are they going to stop and come and talk to me?"
"When you realise that they're playing your song."
I nod my head and sigh again,
"I wish you were really here."
"How do you know I'm not....lover?"
I gasp and try to turn around but he holds me in place and sinks his fangs into my neck.//
My eyes fly open and my heart is beating hard in my chest. The dark surrounds me and I feel like I'm suffocating. Got to get out of here!
I feel up to some slaying...I haven't in a while, reminds me too much of...him and them.
That's how I used to deal, go Kick some demon ass....crazy I know, but hello I'm a slayer, that's crazy in itself. Maybe it will help me tonight...or just cause me more pain, actually whatever I do I'll be in pain...
'Close your eyes'
'Shhhh....'
"Lily?"
I turn on her light and find she's not lying there, great she's still pissed off at me. I leave her a note just incase she gets back before me and walk out of the apartment.
I start to shiver and hug my arms around me, note to self bring jacket next time.
"Here demons, demons-"
"Help me!!"
I run towards the girl's voice and go down a dark alley, jeez can't vamps get a bit original, I mean it's always down a dark alleyway, couldn't they maybe do it you know in a nice park or something?
The vampire has the girl cornered, I can see the cuts on his face, she's done a pretty good job at trying to fend him off but he's still advancing.
I step towards the girl and the vampire getting read to make my move, but something...or someone rushes past me and tackles the vampire. I stand there shocked as the person stakes the vampire with ease and checks to see if the girl is okay, she says thank you and runs off. I step closer to the person and try to make out who it is.
"Hey, I just wanna say thanks, I didn't even have to break a sweat! Glad to see someone else is on my side........."
I gasp when the person turns around and it's Angel, I close my eyes but when I open them it's still him. Okay I'm definitely crazy.
"What is this....?"
I start to step back, oh my god he can't be real, I killed him, he's dead.
"Buffy.....it really is you."
"You're not real, I killed you, it was all my fault! I sent you to hell!"
He winces at my words and starts to step towards me, I step back and I look around desperately trying to find some sort of escape.
"I'm so sorry, please believe me! I'm sorry okay? I know it's all my fault, please just leave me alone....you're not real!!" Tears run down my face, and I feel like I can't breathe.
"Buffy it is me, I'm real."
I shake my head and keep stepping back.
"No I killed you and sent you to hell because I had to save the world!!"
"I...I...came back...3 years ago.."
For some reason - maybe because he's my soulmate - I believe him, my blood is humming inside me and I can feel him all around me, he's here, alive, now. The first thought that I manage to make out from the mess in my mind is 'I want him.' He looks so damn perfect, untouched, he looks exactly like I remembered him....
'What's happening?'
'It doesn't matter'
'I love you'
'Close your eyes'
Warm sticky blood trickles down my face and falls to the ground - my cut - the drip echoes off the brick walls and that's all I can hear, drip. drip. drip. drip.
I look over at Angel who is still standing there stunned and then his blood drenches his white shirt where I stabbed him and it flashes at me. I can't tell whether it is real or not but it's there, reminding me. He'll never forgive me, none of them will, he hates me.
"Buffy you're hurt.."
'Shhh...'
'I feel like I haven't seen you in months'
'Close your eyes'
I slowly take one last step back and then without a goodbye or even a lasting look I sprint out of there, leaving my lover behind because that's what he is....the past...yeah right.
End of Part 4
//"Why are you here?" I look up at him and he smiles down at me.
"I came back for you" He takes me into his arms and I feel warm and happy.
"You always come back for me don't you?" He pulls away from me and places a kiss on my head.
"Always...."//
I open my eyes and try to move, my muscles ache in protest and the cut in my head throbs. I close my eyes again and try to recall what happened last night.
"Lily? You home?"
"I'm here Anne."
She passes me a glass of water and sits on the edge of my bed.
"Lily what the hell happned to me last night? The last thing I remember was fainting, after I threw up outside the Vee Club, god I hope Daniel didn't see me!"
"Well...."
"Oh my god he did see me vomit didn't he?!" I cover my face in embarrassment while Lily laughs.
"Well he said he found you outside Vee, you had fainted and you were lying on the pavement, so he bought you home."
"Great...."
"He also said that you were murming something...Angel I think...sound familiar?"
My heart stops and I feel my throat tighten as images from last night flash in my mind...
seeing angel in club.....vomiting...someone calling me Buffy....
"Hey Anne wasn't that the name of that guy you were seeing back in Sunnydale?"
"No, I never went out with anyone called Angel"
"I'm sure you did..."
"Just drop it Lily okay?! There was no Angel."
Liar. She looks at me, doubt on her face but she just gets up and walks out of the room. I sigh and lie back down, great I've hurt her feelings, I mean I love Lily, but I've got more important things to think about..like am I going crazy...did I really see Angel.. I drift off to sleep again and I dream of the thing I always dream about..him.
//I lie back and he wraps his arms around me, I sigh contently and watch my old friends dance, Willow, Xander, Giles, Oz even Cordelia to a strange song I can't understand. They're all dressed in white with shining halos above their head, like angels.
"When are they going to stop and come and talk to me?"
"When you realise that they're playing your song."
I nod my head and sigh again,
"I wish you were really here."
"How do you know I'm not....lover?"
I gasp and try to turn around but he holds me in place and sinks his fangs into my neck.//
My eyes fly open and my heart is beating hard in my chest. The dark surrounds me and I feel like I'm suffocating. Got to get out of here!
I feel up to some slaying...I haven't in a while, reminds me too much of...him and them.
That's how I used to deal, go Kick some demon ass....crazy I know, but hello I'm a slayer, that's crazy in itself. Maybe it will help me tonight...or just cause me more pain, actually whatever I do I'll be in pain...
'Close your eyes'
'Shhhh....'
"Lily?"
I turn on her light and find she's not lying there, great she's still pissed off at me. I leave her a note just incase she gets back before me and walk out of the apartment.
I start to shiver and hug my arms around me, note to self bring jacket next time.
"Here demons, demons-"
"Help me!!"
I run towards the girl's voice and go down a dark alley, jeez can't vamps get a bit original, I mean it's always down a dark alleyway, couldn't they maybe do it you know in a nice park or something?
The vampire has the girl cornered, I can see the cuts on his face, she's done a pretty good job at trying to fend him off but he's still advancing.
I step towards the girl and the vampire getting read to make my move, but something...or someone rushes past me and tackles the vampire. I stand there shocked as the person stakes the vampire with ease and checks to see if the girl is okay, she says thank you and runs off. I step closer to the person and try to make out who it is.
"Hey, I just wanna say thanks, I didn't even have to break a sweat! Glad to see someone else is on my side........."
I gasp when the person turns around and it's Angel, I close my eyes but when I open them it's still him. Okay I'm definitely crazy.
"What is this....?"
I start to step back, oh my god he can't be real, I killed him, he's dead.
"Buffy.....it really is you."
"You're not real, I killed you, it was all my fault! I sent you to hell!"
He winces at my words and starts to step towards me, I step back and I look around desperately trying to find some sort of escape.
"I'm so sorry, please believe me! I'm sorry okay? I know it's all my fault, please just leave me alone....you're not real!!" Tears run down my face, and I feel like I can't breathe.
"Buffy it is me, I'm real."
I shake my head and keep stepping back.
"No I killed you and sent you to hell because I had to save the world!!"
"I...I...came back...3 years ago.."
For some reason - maybe because he's my soulmate - I believe him, my blood is humming inside me and I can feel him all around me, he's here, alive, now. The first thought that I manage to make out from the mess in my mind is 'I want him.' He looks so damn perfect, untouched, he looks exactly like I remembered him....
'What's happening?'
'It doesn't matter'
'I love you'
'Close your eyes'
Warm sticky blood trickles down my face and falls to the ground - my cut - the drip echoes off the brick walls and that's all I can hear, drip. drip. drip. drip.
I look over at Angel who is still standing there stunned and then his blood drenches his white shirt where I stabbed him and it flashes at me. I can't tell whether it is real or not but it's there, reminding me. He'll never forgive me, none of them will, he hates me.
"Buffy you're hurt.."
'Shhh...'
'I feel like I haven't seen you in months'
'Close your eyes'
I slowly take one last step back and then without a goodbye or even a lasting look I sprint out of there, leaving my lover behind because that's what he is....the past...yeah right.
End of Part 4
