Part 10 - Just to be in your arms Back to Buffy's P.O.V.
"Jess, where are you going?"
She smiles at Willow and then turns to me, narrowing her eyes.
"Angel and I are through."
Silence settles over us and I look down at the ground. We don't need to ask any questions, we all know why they're through. My heart jumps at the thought of him wanting me but when I glance up at Jess, my heart sinks again.
Yes, I don't like Jess but I do feel sorry for her. I can just imagine what it would be like for me if I was in her position and she was in mine.
"Jess, I'm really sorry ab-"
"You're Sorry?! Oh isn't that rich??"
Her voice is shrill and she throws her hands up in the air and looks at me incredulously.
"You're sorry for coming here and taking him away from me??! The man who I loved with all my heart, with every single piece of my BEING!! How can you even BEGIN to think that sorry covers something like that?!"
"I really am sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen."
"Better watch yourself, Buff."
I feel like laughing at her and reminding her about how hey I'm a slayer, I think she should be the one watching herself.
"I know you're a slayer, but I can do something better.....watch your back and Angels."
She walks out of the room before I can say anything back to her, I feel Willow's hand on my shoulder and I realise I'm shaking. Not shaking in fear but in anger, how dare she threaten me and Angel like that?!
"Buffy, ignore her, she's hurting."
I try to listen to the reason in Willow's voice but I just can't, I know that she means something bad...real bad....I can feel it, it's creeping into my bones and sending shivers down my spine.
"I don't trust her."
"Neither do I, I thought I did, but she's changed....for the worse."
I turn and see Angel standing in the doorway, his hands in his pockets and his eyes on the ground.
"It's not your fault Angel."
He looks up at me and nods his head but I know he doesn't really agree with me. I move towards him and wrap my arms around his waist. He places his chin ontop of my head and sighs.
"I just feel...so..."
"bad?"
"Yeah."
"I know the feeling."
"Buffy, you had to-"
"Shhh...not now, later."
This time I sigh and he hugs me tighter and it feels so right, I haven't felt like this in days, months, years. I've missed this....being in his arms...feeling his cool hands....hearing his smooth as silk voice....missed him....and now I can finally just be......just feel...
"Guys, sorry to break the hallmark moment but what are we going to do about Jess?"
I don't want to deal with this right now, I know it's selfish but why can't I just ever have a nice day where no big bad is trying to take over the world or trying to hurt me? Why can't I just live that so called 'normal' life....I know I'll never have a normal life but something that closely resembles a 'normal' life.
"She just doesn't seem like the type of person to do something evil, I mean it's Jess, we've known her for like 2 and a half years. She was a really good friend to me."
"Yeah, Willow's right, it's Jessica Cambridge, good ol' Jess, she was like a sister."
Willow and Xander's sincere voices ring in my ears and my heart clenches, look how much they loved her. She meant so much to them and I just came back and took her away from them and from....Angel...was it the right thing to do?
But then again how could I not? They're important to me and I'd do anything I could for them and it's him. The man who means so much to me that sometimes it feels like he's the only person in the room...the world...I couldn't give that up and now that I've got a second chance I'm going to do anything for them. It's just because....they're just them and he's just him. I know it doesn't really make sense but sometimes there are just no words to describe them, they're all so unique in their own ways that nothing compares, no-one compares....they're just their own person....just them...and just him....
"We'll wait for her to do something, then we'll get an idea of what she's gonna do."
"How do you know she's going to do something?"
"I just know...I can feel it...trust me..."
"Trust you? Poor choice of words Buffy."
I'm not shocked, I expected a reaction like this. I deserve it.
"Xander...."
"Sorry Buffy..I...just.."
He sighs and walks out of the room, Cordelia shrugs her shoulders and follows him out. Willow has tears in her eyes again and she runs out with Oz following her. Tears blur my vision and a sharp pain of guilt stabs my heart. Even though it hurts, I deserve it, I ran away without saying a goodbye....without saying anything...leaving them to fight the bad things by themselves...
I feel Angel's arms turn me around and pull me against his chest, he doesn't say anything just slowly strokes my hair while the tears fall.
End of Part 10
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"Jess, where are you going?"
She smiles at Willow and then turns to me, narrowing her eyes.
"Angel and I are through."
Silence settles over us and I look down at the ground. We don't need to ask any questions, we all know why they're through. My heart jumps at the thought of him wanting me but when I glance up at Jess, my heart sinks again.
Yes, I don't like Jess but I do feel sorry for her. I can just imagine what it would be like for me if I was in her position and she was in mine.
"Jess, I'm really sorry ab-"
"You're Sorry?! Oh isn't that rich??"
Her voice is shrill and she throws her hands up in the air and looks at me incredulously.
"You're sorry for coming here and taking him away from me??! The man who I loved with all my heart, with every single piece of my BEING!! How can you even BEGIN to think that sorry covers something like that?!"
"I really am sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen."
"Better watch yourself, Buff."
I feel like laughing at her and reminding her about how hey I'm a slayer, I think she should be the one watching herself.
"I know you're a slayer, but I can do something better.....watch your back and Angels."
She walks out of the room before I can say anything back to her, I feel Willow's hand on my shoulder and I realise I'm shaking. Not shaking in fear but in anger, how dare she threaten me and Angel like that?!
"Buffy, ignore her, she's hurting."
I try to listen to the reason in Willow's voice but I just can't, I know that she means something bad...real bad....I can feel it, it's creeping into my bones and sending shivers down my spine.
"I don't trust her."
"Neither do I, I thought I did, but she's changed....for the worse."
I turn and see Angel standing in the doorway, his hands in his pockets and his eyes on the ground.
"It's not your fault Angel."
He looks up at me and nods his head but I know he doesn't really agree with me. I move towards him and wrap my arms around his waist. He places his chin ontop of my head and sighs.
"I just feel...so..."
"bad?"
"Yeah."
"I know the feeling."
"Buffy, you had to-"
"Shhh...not now, later."
This time I sigh and he hugs me tighter and it feels so right, I haven't felt like this in days, months, years. I've missed this....being in his arms...feeling his cool hands....hearing his smooth as silk voice....missed him....and now I can finally just be......just feel...
"Guys, sorry to break the hallmark moment but what are we going to do about Jess?"
I don't want to deal with this right now, I know it's selfish but why can't I just ever have a nice day where no big bad is trying to take over the world or trying to hurt me? Why can't I just live that so called 'normal' life....I know I'll never have a normal life but something that closely resembles a 'normal' life.
"She just doesn't seem like the type of person to do something evil, I mean it's Jess, we've known her for like 2 and a half years. She was a really good friend to me."
"Yeah, Willow's right, it's Jessica Cambridge, good ol' Jess, she was like a sister."
Willow and Xander's sincere voices ring in my ears and my heart clenches, look how much they loved her. She meant so much to them and I just came back and took her away from them and from....Angel...was it the right thing to do?
But then again how could I not? They're important to me and I'd do anything I could for them and it's him. The man who means so much to me that sometimes it feels like he's the only person in the room...the world...I couldn't give that up and now that I've got a second chance I'm going to do anything for them. It's just because....they're just them and he's just him. I know it doesn't really make sense but sometimes there are just no words to describe them, they're all so unique in their own ways that nothing compares, no-one compares....they're just their own person....just them...and just him....
"We'll wait for her to do something, then we'll get an idea of what she's gonna do."
"How do you know she's going to do something?"
"I just know...I can feel it...trust me..."
"Trust you? Poor choice of words Buffy."
I'm not shocked, I expected a reaction like this. I deserve it.
"Xander...."
"Sorry Buffy..I...just.."
He sighs and walks out of the room, Cordelia shrugs her shoulders and follows him out. Willow has tears in her eyes again and she runs out with Oz following her. Tears blur my vision and a sharp pain of guilt stabs my heart. Even though it hurts, I deserve it, I ran away without saying a goodbye....without saying anything...leaving them to fight the bad things by themselves...
I feel Angel's arms turn me around and pull me against his chest, he doesn't say anything just slowly strokes my hair while the tears fall.
End of Part 10
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