Tears
Unshed: The Second Coming
By:
ZellyBaby
Zell
sat in his room, on the edge of his bed.
"Is
it worth it?"
A
tear slipped down his cheek.
"I'm
sure I would be quickly forgotten."
He sat
staring at the two items sitting on his bed beside of him.
"They
don't understand, they keep saying 'Forget it Zell, it wasn't your fault' when
they know damn well it was."
He picked
up the smaller item.
"I don't
deserve to live, goddamn me and my big mouth."
He sat
the small item down and picked the larger one up.
"So,
so easy, it would be. I wouldn't even
feel it."
There
was a knock at the door.
"Ah
shit."
He shoved
the two items under the pillow on his bed and walked over to the door opening
it. After seeing who it was he quickly
shut the door, backing away from it.
"Dammit,
not her, not Selphie. I can't keep my
cool around her…I just feel so bad for what I did, I know she hates me…"
Selphie
pounded on the door.
"Come
on Zell, let me in, please, I just want to talk."
Zell
stayed silent.
"I
know you're in there Zell. Please Zell,
I only want to talk to you."
Zell
still stayed silent, unmoving.
"Fine
Zell…screw you to."
There
was something unnerving about the way she said that, that made Zell run for the
door and open it.
"Seph,
wait."
Selphie
heard him and stopped, she looked like she was crying.
"What
the hell do you want, you asshole?!"
Zell
became angered, and retaliated.
"Nothing,
you stupid bitch!"
Zell
could see the look of hurt in her eyes intensify before she turned around and
started away from him.
"Wait,
Selphie, I didn't mean it! Please come back!"
She
didn't turn and stop this time.
"God
fucking dammit!!!"
Zell
turned toward the hallway wall, punched it, denting it. But he was too angry to feel the pain. Luckily Selphie was already gone, Zell didn't
want garden security to be called on him for reckless behavior, and damage to
garden property. Even if his hefty SeeD
check could pay for the damages easily, he couldn't handle a suspension.
"Fuck
this shit."
Zell
stormed back into his room, and after grabbing his gloves, took off to the
training center.
---
Selphie
ran into the infirmary where Irvine was still recovering from his broken ribs,
he was such a big baby. She ran into
his room, crying.
"Seph???
What's wrong with you? Shhhh…tell me
whats wrong."
She
was crying like she was hurt. Irvine
realized that she had mentioned something about trying to talk to Zell earlier.
"Selphie,
get a hold of yourself…are you hurt, did Zell hurt you??"
Selphie
couldn't do anything but cry. Anger
flared up in Irvine's eyes as he slowly got up from his bed, wincing.
"Ir…Irvine. Wait…he didn't do anything…"
Irvine's
angry eyes, where replaced with sympathetic ones as he comforted his
girlfriend, remembering that Zell, would never hurt a girl, much less Selphie.
"Then
what happened?"
Selphie
dug her face into the crook of Irvine's neck. And still crying she said.
"I..it
was just something he said, don…don't worry about it."
Irvine
kissed the top of her head.
"Seph,
I have to worry about it. I care about
you. I can't just forget it if my
girlfriend is crying and wont tell me why."
Selphie
stopped crying…but still slightly sobbing said.
"He
called me…a stupid bitch."
The
anger flared back up in Irvine's eyes again.
"Don't
worry about it, it was my fault, I called him an asshole. Please don't do anything to him, he didn't mean
it."
Irvine
weakly smiled.
"Okay,
just for you Seph, I don't know what's been wrong with Zell lately, but I guess
this is what I get for trying to ask."
He
said, pointing to his side.
---
Zell
looked at the blood on his gloves after finishing off another T-rexaur.
"Too
bad its not mine."
He
wiped them off on a nearby tree.
"I
guess its now or never."
He
walked toward the entrance but was surprised to see Quistis standing
there. He glared at her for a moment,
then attempted to walk past.
"And
where the hell are you going?"
Quistis
stuck her arm out in front of him.
"Please
let me pass Quistis."
Zell
looked over at her. There was something
in the way his eyes looked that made her afraid to hold her arm there any
longer, but she did anyway.
"Zell,
talk to me."
She
winced as Zell's blue icy eyes stared at her. She still saw something in his eyes, something…that she couldn't quite…understand.
"What
is there to talk about?"
Zell
said with a questioning tone.
"Lots
of thing, like for starters, what the hell is wrong with you, and why you broke
some of Irvine's ribs and Squall's nose."
Ashamed,
he looked away.
"You
wouldn't understand."
She
hesitated a bit, Zell took advantage of this and pushed past her.
"Dammit,
Zell, wait!"
He didn't
stop, Quistis ran after him, and grabbed his arm. He gently pulled away.
"Quistis,
please, you know I would never hurt you, but your pushing it, please, leave me
alone, you wouldn't understand."
He
continued on his way.
"Zell."
He
stopped.
"If
this is about me not wanting a relationship…"
He
turned and stared at her with those blue eyes, those icy blue eyes.
"Trust
me Quistis, this has nothing to do with that."
She
could see the hurt, the pain in his eyes as he said that. He left after that, she couldn't bring
herself to try and stop him. She
finally was beginning to understand what she saw in his eyes.
