June 21, 1401 S.R.
In Frodo's room at Rivendell
I HATE THE LOT OF THEM! There. I've said it. Well, written it anyway. And I feel better. Not great, but better. All I want to do is sit here with Frodo, and they WON'T LET ME! Day and night it's Go tell Elrond that Frodo's still not woken, Sam', I need some more medicine. Sam, will you get me some?', Sam you need your sleep.' When Merry said that, I told him that I would get plenty sleep right there in Frodo's room if only everyone would stop badgering me. Then he glanced at Pippin. Pippin looked at me nervously and said in a quiet voice Please, Sam. You need a rest. If you won't go to your room and sleep, will you at least come down for dinner and listen to the Elves with us? For some reason, that was the last straw. I nearly bit poor Pippin's head off. I snarled at him and said If you want do me some good, you can take yourself and Merry right back downstairs so I don't have to look at you! They stared at me with wide eyes, looking extremely surprised and hurt, but I didn't show them any mercy. I just shouted I SAID IT AND I MEAN IT! So they ran out of the room, slamming the door behind them. That was about half an hour ago.
later
Oh, dear. I've just read over what I've written, and I feel wretched. I know they're right. It was probably lack of sleep and food that made me take everything out on them. I'm going to go downstairs and try to apologize, even though I'm no good with words.
even later
I was wandering through the halls, looking for Merry and Pippin, when I ran into Gandalf. He was leaning against a pillar, smoking his pipe, and he said
I wondered when you'd be down, Sam Gamgee. I blushed, said I was sorry, and that I knew they were right. That's a good thing, Sam, he said. But you want to be more careful. You don't make friends so easily that you can throw away the ones you have.
I know, I admitted. How upset are they? And do you know where they are?
They are in the Hall of Fire listening to the stories and songs. I think they will let you join them, even though they are still quite upset by your remarks this morning.
So I went and found them and apologized over and over. They forgave me and said they didn't blame me (much.) Now we're sitting in the Hall, trying to keep awake. I must admit that the singing is quite stunning. I'll listen to one more song. Maybe two. Then I'll go to my room and get some sleep.
