Sorry I was gone so long, peoples. I got major writer's block on this story so I started something new. But, I'm back now so you all can stop worrying! ^_^
N-E-way, I got suggestions to make the chapters longer, so I'm gonna try.
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PART FIVE
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She was gonna die. It was inevitable. There was nothing he could do about it. They'd tried everything short of taking her off life support. But she was too weak for that. He could feel it. She'd been through too much to fight for her life.
So what were they gonna do? They couldn't do anything. She'd stay in the coma until she died unless by some miracle she awoke.
He was cursed. He finally realized it. Everyone he had ever loved had died because of him. Solo, Father Maxwell, Sister Helen, and pretty soon Hilde.
It was his fault too. They were all his fault. If he had let Hilde come with him to Peacemillion in the first place, she wouldn't have snuck onto Libra. It was so ironic. He didn't want her to come because he was afraid for her safety, and then this had happened, worse than anything that could've happened if she had been by his side.
Duo slammed his head back against the wall. Why? Why did he have to be Shinigami? He didn't want to be the God of Death anymore, but he couldn't help it. He didn't want them to die.
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Duo absentmindedly stabbed at his pancakes. He'd been under the fig tree all night, praying for Hilde. He prayed that God would spare Hilde, and that God would forgive him for all the deaths he caused. He told God that he didn't want to be Shinigami anymore.
He felt a little bit better. Praying always calmed him, and he had faith that God would let Hilde live. He had begged God for her life.
When he had woken up that morning after about 3 hours of sleep, he'd felt a little bit better. But then he'd gone to see Hilde again, and all his hopes had crashed once more.
Why? Why Hilde?
Please don't let her die, God. She doesn't deserve it. She shouldn't have to die because she tried to help me.
"Duo?"
Duo snapped back to reality at the sound of Quatre's voice.
"Are you okay?" Quatre asked, concerned, even though he knew the answer.
Duo sighed. "I don't know. No. I'm not okay," he admitted.
Quatre wished he could help. But what could he do? "Do you need anything?"
"Yeah, a miracle," Duo said, standing up and exiting.
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What if she didn't make it? How could he go on with his life if she wasn't in it. Duo recalled the last few months he'd spent with Hilde in his life. She had brightened up his life. He'd hated it, right before he left for Peacemillion, when he told Hilde he had to leave. He couldn't bear not being with her for so long. He'd almost wanted her to come, but then he thought of how close he'd come to losing his life during the war, and he couldn't let that happen to Hilde.
If only I'd let her come. She'd at least have been safer with me.
But Duo realized he wasn't Hilde's boss. He should've known she'd come. Hilde wasn't the kind of person to sit back and let everyone else take care of things for her.
But still, would she have gone to Libra by herself if he'd let her come in the first place? There was no way of knowing. Maybe this was inevitable.
Duo remembered that when he was younger, Father Maxwell had told him that God gave everyone a purpose in this world, and that if you weren't serving your purpose, you were wasting your life. But what happened after you served you purpose? Is that when you died? Was Hilde's purpose to help them with the war effort by briging Peacemillion the data on Libra? She'd done that, and she'd been successful. God hadn't let her die in the fight with Mercurius and Vayeate because she hadn't gotten the disk to them yet. But now she had. Was she gonna die now?
No. It can't be true. God please don't let her die! I won't be able to go on without her! Duo prayed. A tear fell down his cheek, followed by more and more. It was the first time Duo had really cried in years.
Or maybe it was his fault. Hilde was the closet person to him in the world right now. And in the past, the closest people in the world had died because of him. Shinigami strikes again.
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"What are we gonna do, Sally?" Duo asked, back in Hilde's room. He watched as Sally checked up on her, seeing if anything had changed. Noin was also in the room, observing, beside Duo.
Sally sighed. "I'm sorry Duo. I really don't know."
"We can't take her off life support. It'd kill her."
"I agree. She's way too weak for that after her fight with those Mobile Dolls."
"Hilde's a good pilot. But she was up against Mobile Dolls with Heero and Trowa's data programmed into them. It's exactly like fighting two Gundam pilots."
"That's what they had in mind," Noin said. "Normal pilots have a hard enough time fighting one Gundam pilot at a time. They sent Mercurius and Vayeate to gang up on her, knowing she wouldn't stand a chance."
"But she actually was doing pretty well until I showed up," Duo said.
"I'm surprised the girl lasted as long as she did," Noin commented.
"Yeah, but there was no way she could've won if I hadn't shown up," Duo said sadly. "I just wish I could've been there earlier! Damn them! Look what they did to her! They pretty much did kill her!"
Noin bit her lip as she watched the enraged Gundam pilot. Was it Zechs's fault? He was the leader of the White Fang, after all. The war to end all wars. Was this really the way to peace? She stared at the almost lifeless girl in the bed. This couldn't be right. Peace wasn't attained by killing innocent people. Surely Zechs knew that. He only killed people who deserved to die. What was going on? Had Zechs changed?
Noin just didn't understand anymore. She hated this damn war. She was now fighting against the person she loved, watching innocent people die, and for what? Would they succeed? Would world peace really come out of this? Or would it just be meaningless fighting, going on and on, for years? Would it ever end?
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Okay, I'm sorry. So that wasn't much longer than the rest, only about a page more, but I tried! Anyway, like always, review if you want more!
N-E-way, I got suggestions to make the chapters longer, so I'm gonna try.
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PART FIVE
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She was gonna die. It was inevitable. There was nothing he could do about it. They'd tried everything short of taking her off life support. But she was too weak for that. He could feel it. She'd been through too much to fight for her life.
So what were they gonna do? They couldn't do anything. She'd stay in the coma until she died unless by some miracle she awoke.
He was cursed. He finally realized it. Everyone he had ever loved had died because of him. Solo, Father Maxwell, Sister Helen, and pretty soon Hilde.
It was his fault too. They were all his fault. If he had let Hilde come with him to Peacemillion in the first place, she wouldn't have snuck onto Libra. It was so ironic. He didn't want her to come because he was afraid for her safety, and then this had happened, worse than anything that could've happened if she had been by his side.
Duo slammed his head back against the wall. Why? Why did he have to be Shinigami? He didn't want to be the God of Death anymore, but he couldn't help it. He didn't want them to die.
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Duo absentmindedly stabbed at his pancakes. He'd been under the fig tree all night, praying for Hilde. He prayed that God would spare Hilde, and that God would forgive him for all the deaths he caused. He told God that he didn't want to be Shinigami anymore.
He felt a little bit better. Praying always calmed him, and he had faith that God would let Hilde live. He had begged God for her life.
When he had woken up that morning after about 3 hours of sleep, he'd felt a little bit better. But then he'd gone to see Hilde again, and all his hopes had crashed once more.
Why? Why Hilde?
Please don't let her die, God. She doesn't deserve it. She shouldn't have to die because she tried to help me.
"Duo?"
Duo snapped back to reality at the sound of Quatre's voice.
"Are you okay?" Quatre asked, concerned, even though he knew the answer.
Duo sighed. "I don't know. No. I'm not okay," he admitted.
Quatre wished he could help. But what could he do? "Do you need anything?"
"Yeah, a miracle," Duo said, standing up and exiting.
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What if she didn't make it? How could he go on with his life if she wasn't in it. Duo recalled the last few months he'd spent with Hilde in his life. She had brightened up his life. He'd hated it, right before he left for Peacemillion, when he told Hilde he had to leave. He couldn't bear not being with her for so long. He'd almost wanted her to come, but then he thought of how close he'd come to losing his life during the war, and he couldn't let that happen to Hilde.
If only I'd let her come. She'd at least have been safer with me.
But Duo realized he wasn't Hilde's boss. He should've known she'd come. Hilde wasn't the kind of person to sit back and let everyone else take care of things for her.
But still, would she have gone to Libra by herself if he'd let her come in the first place? There was no way of knowing. Maybe this was inevitable.
Duo remembered that when he was younger, Father Maxwell had told him that God gave everyone a purpose in this world, and that if you weren't serving your purpose, you were wasting your life. But what happened after you served you purpose? Is that when you died? Was Hilde's purpose to help them with the war effort by briging Peacemillion the data on Libra? She'd done that, and she'd been successful. God hadn't let her die in the fight with Mercurius and Vayeate because she hadn't gotten the disk to them yet. But now she had. Was she gonna die now?
No. It can't be true. God please don't let her die! I won't be able to go on without her! Duo prayed. A tear fell down his cheek, followed by more and more. It was the first time Duo had really cried in years.
Or maybe it was his fault. Hilde was the closet person to him in the world right now. And in the past, the closest people in the world had died because of him. Shinigami strikes again.
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"What are we gonna do, Sally?" Duo asked, back in Hilde's room. He watched as Sally checked up on her, seeing if anything had changed. Noin was also in the room, observing, beside Duo.
Sally sighed. "I'm sorry Duo. I really don't know."
"We can't take her off life support. It'd kill her."
"I agree. She's way too weak for that after her fight with those Mobile Dolls."
"Hilde's a good pilot. But she was up against Mobile Dolls with Heero and Trowa's data programmed into them. It's exactly like fighting two Gundam pilots."
"That's what they had in mind," Noin said. "Normal pilots have a hard enough time fighting one Gundam pilot at a time. They sent Mercurius and Vayeate to gang up on her, knowing she wouldn't stand a chance."
"But she actually was doing pretty well until I showed up," Duo said.
"I'm surprised the girl lasted as long as she did," Noin commented.
"Yeah, but there was no way she could've won if I hadn't shown up," Duo said sadly. "I just wish I could've been there earlier! Damn them! Look what they did to her! They pretty much did kill her!"
Noin bit her lip as she watched the enraged Gundam pilot. Was it Zechs's fault? He was the leader of the White Fang, after all. The war to end all wars. Was this really the way to peace? She stared at the almost lifeless girl in the bed. This couldn't be right. Peace wasn't attained by killing innocent people. Surely Zechs knew that. He only killed people who deserved to die. What was going on? Had Zechs changed?
Noin just didn't understand anymore. She hated this damn war. She was now fighting against the person she loved, watching innocent people die, and for what? Would they succeed? Would world peace really come out of this? Or would it just be meaningless fighting, going on and on, for years? Would it ever end?
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Okay, I'm sorry. So that wasn't much longer than the rest, only about a page more, but I tried! Anyway, like always, review if you want more!
