Disclaimer: I don't own GW, and I'm getting nothing but a kick and a head ache from this, so there is no need to SUE. Seems like that is what everyone is turning to nowadays. . .

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Wings of Last Impression

Part 3

Relena retreated towards the closest table, Montel escorting her.

"Excuse me, Montel," Relena choked out, and walked briskly towards the bathroom. "Relena!" Montel tried to pursue after her, but in his mind, he knew to let her go.

He sighed and turned his attention on the party, wondering what had happened to Relena.

Unknown to herself, Relena brushed past Heero. Heero was sorely tempted to grab her hand, but he caught himself and fought the urge not to go after her. Relena pushed the door of the women's room open and went to the mirror. The tiredness in her eyes betrayed the smiling lines of her laughter. Her fingers traced the tired lines of her face. I'm not what I used to be at these kinds of functions.

"Relena!" the voice said, running towards Relena.

"Catherine, hi!" Relena said.

"Relena, I know something's bothering you. Please, tell me what it is!" Catherine insisted.

"Really, Catherine, I'm fine," Relena said.

"That's bullshit, Relena. Don't make me get the others in here! I'm serious, tell me what's a miss," Catherine said, hugging Relena.

"I don't deserve friends like you, Catherine. I'm lying to myself, and eventually somehow I'll be lying to all of you. You guys have been through hell with me and had enough strength to see me struggle to peace. But there's so many things depending upon me! I have no problem with that. I work well under tense and stressful situations," Relena sighed.

"Thus the result of not enough sleep and really beyond PMS mood swings," Catherine said, lighting up Relena's eyes a bit.

"And also. . . and also. . ." Relena struggled to say his name, but choked and swallowed her tears.

"Yes, and Heero Yuy is not making it any easier," Catherine finished for her.

"How-"

"Please, Relena, do not ask me the age old question of how I knew. Damn it, Relena, I'm a woman also. I can see it in your eyes, the longing of Heero Yuy. I don't want to feed you all the bull crap everybody else tells you; to forget him, to move on. You do what you feel is right in your heart. Even if it's making you miserable beyond hell. We're here to give you advice and suggestions. But we're not the ones to force those ideas down your throat. It's your right and your option to do as you will. Relena, take care of yourself at least. I don't want to see you moping this way forever," Catherine said, squeezing Relena's hand.

With that, Catherine left Relena alone in the bathroom. 'She's right,' Relena thought to herself, 'it's time to follow my own path. Forget what everybody else has to say. It's my life that I'm going to destroy, and nobody else has a say in it as long as I'm alive.' With that, Relena smoothed her hair and her dress, making sure that her eyes didn't appear to have cried. Sighing resolutely, she opened the door and walked back to the party.

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Relena caught her breath and thrust upwards. She was holding tight onto flesh, hot flesh. The toxic of wine drained her mind empty. Replacing the feelings of loneliness was the feeling of blissful paradise. The person she was holding onto so tightly climaxed within her, sending shivers up and down her body, making her thrust upwards again. 'What am I doing?' Relena thought wildly. A hungry mouth clamped down over hers, his tongue exploring and exploiting her mouth in a vicious way. 'This can not be Heero!' she thought as her body responded to the man on top of her. The wine took effect as everything blurred her vision.

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The rain poured and pounded on the desolate figure walking away from the lavish Stardust Complex Hotel. His hands were thrust deeply into his pockets, ignoring the pelting of the rain upon his back.

'She's found someone to comfort her as I never will. Then why can't I be happy for you, Relena?!' Heero flinched as he saw the memories of Relena dancing seductively in another man's arms. She laughed and gave him her smiles that Heero saw on their night so long ago. It tore violently at his heart, and his jealousy and hatred led him astray from the party.

Suddenly, Heero ran forward, pushing against people who stared at him with shock. He dodged cars and shouting angry drivers. He jumped over park benches and ran on top of cars. He took off his jacket and threw it aside. He ran until he felt no one near him, he ran until her voice, her laughter, and her sparkling eyes swam ruthlessly in his head. It overpowered his own senses and he stopped.

He stood in the middle of a forest; the foliage being lit by the cackling thunder that seemed to mock him. Putting his hands to his head and grabbing his hair, he let out a blood-curling scream and dropped to the ground, laughing insanely. A mixture of rain and his own tears covered his twisted face.

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'Heero.'

Relena woke with a start, her eyes fluttering open. It was still dark out, and a nasty storm scraped at the windows. She felt a warm body next to her shift, and she smiled fondly as she turned to get more warmth from that body. Relena muffled her scream as the thunder lit up her companion's face. It was the face of Montel. Relena felt sick to her stomach, and she bit her lips fiercely to not cry. It didn't help, for the tears came on end.

'How could I do this to myself? I've betrayed myself.' She forced herself to fall back asleep, sliding to the other side of the bed. Through the course of new morning, her body moved itself to the heat and warmth that she sorely needed. A soft press of the lips to her forehead woke Relena up. 'All just a nightmare,' Relena thought as she yawned. Relena nearly screamed again as Montel's face hovered above hers. Immediately, she scrambled up, gathering the sheets amongst her body. Her face was beet red from her commotion.

"Morning," Montel said.

"Wh-where am I? What am I doing here?" Relena asked, trying to control her terror and sickness.

"Do you not remember, Princess? You rushed off to the bathroom and came back out a different woman. A very seductive, beautiful woman," Montel said, getting up, "It's amazing how much four glasses of wine opens your eyes to endless possibilities, Relena."

"Four glasses of wine?!" Relena sputtered. Montel let out a throaty laugh, coming back to Relena and pecked her cheek.

"It was so sweet of you to call me your hero, too," Montel said, walking to the bathroom. 'Gahhhhh. . .' Relena thought, making a face. Relena quickly got out of the bed and found her dress, slipped it on and without a second thought, bolted through the door.

"What have I subjected myself to?" Relena asked herself while walking through the plush hallways. Relena got on the elevator and headed straight to the lobby. "Could you please come and pick me up, Pagan?" Relena asked as she looked about nervously, yanking on the phone chord.

"Please, hurry, now Pagan!" With that, Relena slammed the phone down and walked out of the hotel. She shivered as the wind picked up its pace. Relena blamed herself for being so irresponsible at the party as she waited for Pagan. Relena looked about her in confusion and paranoid as the noises got louder and louder in her head. She gripped the side of her head, squeezing her eyes tightly shut.

Suddenly, a hand placed itself on her arms, shaking her. Relena nearly let out a scream as she opened her eyes. She stared into the black eyes of her chauffeur, Pagan.

"Pagan, you're here," she said with the utmost relief.

Pagan gently escorted Relena to the open car and shut it tight. He sighed as he slid into the driver's seat, looking at Relena every now and then through the rear-view mirror. Something had happened to her, and it pained him to see his Princess like this. She was never that down before, nor lost or confused, Pagan thought as he pulled into traffic. Arriving almost an hour later at the hotel, Relena woke from her nap in the car.

Groggily, she dragged her half-awake body to her room. She tore the dress off and rushed into the bathroom, splashing her face with ice-cold water before she let her aching body relax under the steamy hot water. Relena closed her eyes and sunk further into the bathtub, drifting off to sleep as Heero's eyes pierced through hers.

Relena woke with a start as the door to her room was being knocked upon. Relena realized where she was at and grabbed the nearest towel. She wrapped it hurriedly around her body as the pounding became more. Without the bother of peering through the eyehole, Relena opened the door and a chattering Duo came walking through.

"Hey, Relena, Hildey wanted me to stop by and see how you're doin' before Hildey herself went to see you. Boy, you sure did stir a commotion at the party with that guy Hildey sent for you. How are you this afternoon anyhow?" Duo asked, oblivious of the scene before his eyes. He opened his amethyst eyes slowly as he heard no response.

"Afternoon?" Relena croaked.

"WHOA!" Duo said as he finally noticed what Relena was in.

Relena blushed from head to foot and rushed to the bathroom. A few minutes passed by as Relena armed herself in a robe.

"Much better," Relena said.

Duo's eyes were as round as saucers and his mouth hung opened. He blinked a few times, a little blush scurrying across his cheeks.

"Uh. . . sorry about that, Relena," Duo said, unsure about the last comment.

"It's okay. Duo?"

"Yeah?"

"What exactly did I do at the party?"

"You mean, you don't remember anything?"

"Obviously not, Duo, that's why I'm asking you!"

"Oh. Well, you just came out of the ladies room with this enchanting smile plastered all over your face. That guy-"

"Montel."

"Yeah, yeah. Montel went up to you and offered you a glass of wine. About thirty minutes later you were downing your third glass. Damn, Relena, you were the light of the party, honestly! Gotta get you drinkin' more," Duo said with a wink.

"Grr. What time did I leave the party?"

"I'm thinking around two. Montel took your hand and lead you away, saying that you wanted show him something. Hey, Relena, it's your own business, so we blessed you with hugs and that's about all."

"Oh," Relena said, sitting softly on the edge of her bed.

"Is something wrong, Relena? If that Montel did something to you, Shinigami's gonna come out and show him a thing or two," Duo said, seriousness taking over in his voice. Relena smiled slightly at this and shook her head gently.

"No, Duo, nothing happened. Everything's fine. . . thank you for being concerned," Relena said.

Duo stood there, watching Relena closely. Something did happen, but he wasn't about to grill the woman for information that wasn't any of his business.

"Alright, Relena, good to see you again. Hildey's gonna be here in a while. I'll see you later, okay?"

"Okay, Duo, thanks again for stopping by," Relena said, following Duo to her door.

He stepped out and saluted her, giving her one of his lop-sided grins. Relena leaned against the door, ignoring the angry protest from her stomach. She crawled into the bed and curled up with a pillow, sleep taking over her eyes. Lapsing out of a dream, Relena bolted right up as there was a knocking on her door. Relena threw her legs to the side, blinking.

'I wonder if it's Duo again.' This time, Relena took the liberty to look through the eyehole. "Hildey!" Relena unlocked the door and the petit woman greeted her with a hug.

"Relena! Did Duo stop by as I asked him to? If he didn't, he's gonna pay with his dinner tonight," Hildey said, making a face.

Relena laughed and locked the door behind her.

"Something to drink?" Relena asked.

"No, I'm fine."

"Duo did stop by, by the way," Relena said, sitting on the bed.

"Good," Hilde acknowledged. "So, what did you and Montel do after you left the party?" There was a silence that followed after the question. Hilde looked at Relena expectantly, waiting for her answer.

"I-I don't remember even half of last night," Relena whispered.

"Wha?!?" Relena went on to explain what had happened the night before, explaining all her thoughts and bits and pieces of what she tried to vaguely remember. Relena finished, her head down. No sound came out of Hilde, except for a hissing noise.

"That bastard! Taking advantage of you like that! I'm so sorry, Relena! I shouldn't have sent him to escort you at all! I thought he looked like a nice fellow. . . you know, ones to not pull stupid stunts like that," Hilde said, regret in her voice.

"Hilde," Relena said after a while, "don't worry about it. What happened, happened. I can't alter it now, so I might as well face it."

"I suppose you are right. What would happen anyway if I sent Duo to kill him?" Hilde asked.

"I don't know, Hilde, I don't know," Relena said, ending it with a little laugh.

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I'm sorry-no, I'm not sorry-if the charas are OOCky. Please e-mail if you have any comments or flames.