Forever Isn't Good Enough


I looked on past the gate before me, my eyes widened with despair. I swan forward,
trying to reach it, but couldn't. I had to get back. I had to destroy the world. I
had to. It was my destiny. But as I try, with all my might. I couldn't get back. I
stared at the gate, until I heard a voice.

"You're too weak to return," the sweet voice, beckoned from behind me. I stood
there in my angst, eyeing the gate. With one quick motion, I whirled around to
glare at the one behind me. But her benevolence was too much to behold. There was
something different. Something.. beautiful. The flower girl I had killed evolved
into something more beautiful than words. I stood, inarticulate, as she continued.

"You were once a strong being, but now, you can barely withstand your own
weight. Face it. Cloud beat you. Now you must stay here.. forever. To dwell in your
lonliness. Only I can share the emotions with you now, Sephiroth," she reached a pale
hand out to me. I stared at it.

I spread my lips, and tried to speak. Was I too weak to speak?

"You see," she went on. "You were killed. I was the same when I returned here."

Returned?

"Yes, returned. We were all created here, Sephiroth. Even your lifeline can
trace back here. This is the endless darkness you didn't dare to dream, the blinding light.
This is the Lifestream."

The Lifestream? I knew what she was talking about, but I had no idea what she meant
exactly. And we floated there, in utter silence. My eyes glazing into hers, even though
we were miles apart, I could see right into them.

"I forgive you, Sephiroth," She broke the silence between us. "But,
do you forgive yourself?"

Forgive myself? I still didn't understand. And then, almost as if magic, she was
right in front of me, holding my hand. I strained to pull it back, but I couldn't.
I was just too weak.

"Forgive yourself, Sephiroth. Forgive yourself, and you can regain everything, and
stay within the Lifestream.. Forever."

Forever. Forever is the sun that rises in the east and sets in the west, when all
mankind is finally sent back to chaos, and when I forgive myself, forever shall be
what I get in return?

Forever isn't good enough.