Lessons Learned
Part 2
by Star Kindler
Disclaimer: Don't own GW, never have and never will.
Warning: Yaoi!
Author's notes: I wrote this fic a while back and posted it. Honestly, this is my favorite fic I've written, and I just had to add more to it. I wanted to go into a little more detail in the second part. So please enjoy and review!
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Flashback-
Trowa walked down the long hallway, ready to go move his things out of Quatre's room. Of course he felt terrible, but this was how it had to be. Quatre would get over it and so would he; at least he hoped so.
"Trowa." He heard a harsh voice call out to him. The banged boy peered into the living to see Heero typing away on his laptop.
"Yea, Heero?"
"Mission- you, Duo and Quatre."
"ARGH! Are you serious?" The last thing he wanted was to confront the blond boy right now. Heero looked up at him intensely and that was all the answer he needed.
"Fine. I'll tell the others." He went to look for Quatre and Duo. That wasn't an easy task, Quatre's house was so damn big. But, he eventually found them in the kitchen sitting at the table. Duo was staring at Quatre with a confused showing in his violet eyes. Quatre glared at the tabletop with diamond tears falling from his eyes. Trowa felt the aching tug of guilt on his heart. Not letting it show, he calmly said,
"Um...we have a mission...the three of us." Quatre looked up at him sorrowfully and buried his face in his hands.
"I don't wanna go." He mumbled.
"Trowa, what the hell did you do?" Duo asked angrily. "I come in here to get a bite to eat, and Quatre is bawling his eyes out. It obviously had to been from some stupid thing you did."
The boy sighed nervously. He certainly didn't want to hear it from Duo. "Look, are you coming? Or do I have to tell Heero that you refuse to except it?"
"No! We're coming, aren't we Quatre?"
"I don't know…" The Arabian muttered.
"I don't know what happened, but if it's because if him," Duo shot Trowa a glance, "then you don't even have to be near him." Duo said, tugging on his friend's sleeve.
Quatre nodded and stood. The two walked across the room, past Trowa. As Duo crossed the silent boy, he muttered,
"Pretty sad you made him cry…"
Trowa sighed and followed the pair out of the kitchen.
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The battle had been tough. The enemy put up quite a fight. It was almost unreal. They seemed to go for Sandrock more than the others, and Quatre was having a lot of trouble. Duo who was fighting off four Taurus' finally said,
"Trowa! You better go help Quatre. He's having a tough time over there."
Trowa looked over and saw a bunch of suits attacking Sandrock. They seemed to have the upper hand.
'Hm.' He wondered. 'Why is Quatre allowing them to attack him like that? What if it's because of what I said? Oh please Quatre! Gain focus!'
"Quatre? Are you alright?"
No response.
"Quatre?!? Oh, please answer me!" Trowa pleaded.
Quatre sat sobbing in his suit allowing the enemy suit to attack him. His finger hovered over the self-destruct button.
'Would it make any difference if I killed myself right here, right now? Is my life even worth anything? No. Not if Trowa doesn't love me.'
"Trowa?" He heard Quatre's soft voice and instantly felt relieved.
"Quatre, is everything okay?"
"No Trowa, nothing will ever be okay. Goodbye. I love you. I always have." And his finger hit the self-destruct button. Trowa and Duo watched in horror as Sandrock exploded, taking the offending mobile suits with it. Then they saw Quatre's body fly through the air and land in a dense wooded area. And then there was silence. The battle was over and Quatre was gone. They searched the area ten times over, but found no trace of Quatre. It was as if he vanished.
After much protesting from Trowa, Duo dragged him home and they told the others the news. The other two pilots were shocked at Quatre's actions, it wasn't like him. The Winner sisters had the whole vicinity searched thoroughly, nothing was ever found. A month later, everyone still had hope, especially Trowa. But there was nothing he could do.
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-Present-
Rain began to fall heavily outside. Trowa watched it while in deep thought.
'If I hadn't broken his heart, he would still be alive. God damn, I just can't sit around here, I'm going to go insane.' He grabbed his coat, walked out of his room and snuck down the hall quietly. He saw the other guys sitting in living room, totally oblivious to the fact Trowa was about to walk out the door. Quietly, Trowa swung the door shut and walked down the road in the rain. He didn't know where he was going. Did it really matter? Thoughts of Quatre ran through his brain. He walked out to the middle of the road, the thick sheet of rain blinding him. He didn't notice the headlights just ahead of him until it was too late. The car hit him and threw him to the other side. He hit the ground with a sickening thud. The last thing he heard was a woman scream and a figure running toward him, then he blacked out.
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"Trowa?" Quatre walked toward him.
"Quatre! You're all right! You're alive!" He ran over toward his love and embraced him. But the body he held faded. Trowa looked around, perplexed.
"Quatre? Where are you? Quatre! Please come back!"
"Trowa? A gentle worried voice called to him. He felt himself being shaken. He awoke to Catherine and his friends watching him. He sat up and looked around, but not before a stabbing pain jolted through his head.
"Damn, my head. Where am I? What happened?"
Catherine took his hand.
"You're in the hospital. I was on my way to your house, when you came out of no where and I...I…hit you. I'm sorry." Tears filled her eyes.
Trowa squeezed her hand.
"Hey, Tro, what were you doing out there anyway?" Duo asked
"Just walking and thinking, I guess. God, I don't know."
"You were lucky. You just suffered some minor contusions and bruised ribs." Wufei said.
"Lucky?! You say I'm lucky?" Trowa looked at the four around him angrily. "How can I be lucky? I should have died. I don't deserve to live."
"Trowa, don't say that!" Catherine yelled back.
Heero stepped by the hospital bed. "You're being stupid. Quatre's death wasn't your fault. No one is blaming you."
"I'm blaming me. It was my fault."
"Heero's right Trowa."
Trowa sighed and sat back in bed. There was no use to argue. He looked across the room and noticed a curtain pulled around another patient. Then he heard a gasp and the five watched as nurse ran out from behind it, pulling it open.
"Doctor! He's awakened!"
A doctor ran in along with a handful of nurses trailing behind them. Trowa and the others couldn't see the patient, but watched silently, until Duo tapped a nurse on the shoulder.
"I don't mean to be nosy, but what's going on?"
The nurse looked at him and replied, "This boy has been in a coma for about a month. We don't know who he is, someone found him unconscious and brought him in." She turned her attention back to the other patient.
"Son, how are you feeling?" They heard the doctor ask.
At first there was just total silence, then a very weak voice responded.
"Where am I?"
Trowa sat up. That voice, it was so familiar. Could it be? He had to find out. He pulled himself out of bed, despite the other's protesting. He winced at the pain shooting though his body, but made his way to the other side of the room. He pushed past the nurses and his mouth dropped open at the sight. Quatre lay in the hospital bed. The small blonde saw Trowa and looked at him with a confused glint in his sea-green orbs. Trowa's eyes filled with tears and he moved to Quatre's side. The medical staff watched in wonder.
Trowa grasped Quatre's hand. Then everyone else in the room faded; it was just Quatre and Trowa.
With a fears tears escaping his eyes, he whispered, "Quatre... I can't believe it...you're alive."
Quatre looked a little confused. Then it dawned him. All the events that happened came back to him.
"Trowa-"
"Quatre please. Please forgive me. I thought I lost you. I don't know what I was thinking. Those things I said- I was wrong. I swear I'm never letting you go again. I will not lose you." Tears ran freely down his face and Quatre wiped away a few.
"I do forgive you, Trowa. Does this mean you still love me?"
"I never stopped loving you, my angel. My Quatre." He bent down and kissed his blond love sweetly on the lips.
~End~
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Comments? Criticism? I wanna know what you think! ~Star Kindler
