This is my first time so please be gentle… J This story takes
place after Rei and Kaji's death, this is an Alternate storyline
though as you will see…
A Simple Question
"…I don't know if anyone else is listening to this so I must be brief, Misato…
I love you, I must go now, please take care of Asuka she is a good child…"
"Kaji-san…" tears rolled down Asuka face. "Why can't you love me…"
-Next Day-
Shinji knew Asuka was in a very foul mood, she had broken the cup she was
drinking out of this morning by promptly hurling it at Misato when Misato had
entered the kitchen; luckily it missed although there was the trouble of having
to clean up the mess, a job left for Shinji of course. Today there was no school,
Asuka promptly left for Hikari's house, and Misato had left to head for Nerv.
Surprisingly, Misato had not taken any disciplinary action on Asuka and had left
without a word. He was alone. As he always was, he lay curled up in a fetal
position on the futon and was listening to his SDAT. Beethoven 5th played in the
background as his thoughts flow from one place to another.
I am alone… So very alone… why doesn't anybody care?
Doesn't anyone see that I only want everyone to be happy with me…
why doesn't anybody care, nobody ever cares, I am alone, always alone why
isn't there anyone out there.
For a while he lay there letting these thoughts play through his head
Asuka why don't you love me? Why don't you love anyone? I care about you,
I love you, why can't you see that, why can't you see that I care for you, Rei
isn't Rei anymore I don't know who she is but she isn't Rei, she isn't the same
Rei that I told to smile. Father doesn't care about me, mother is dead, Misato
doesn't seem to care anymore, so I am alone, why can't anyone be out there
for me why isn't there anyone who can help me…why ca-
"Stupid Baka I'm home, where are you? You better not be jerking of right now, get
your fucking ass here now!"
"Yes Asuka…" Shinji quickly exited his room he was unaware that there were tears
on his face.
"What is the matter Shinji crying about your mom, crying because your DADDY doesn't
love you, shiest what a fucking wimp"
"N-no I wasn't crying I was just cleaning the my room and there was some dust and…"
"Stupid Baka I don't care about your stupid excuses your coming with me the market
now, we have to get some food be SHE comes home and decides to make her SHIT
for dinner.
"B-but…"
"NOW"
Without another word they left for the market. They walked slowly next to one another
without saying a word. It started to rain.
"STUPID BAKA" she punched Shinji on the arm. " Why didn't you get a fucking
umbrella so I wouldn't be soaking myself in this fucking rain"
"Sorry-"
"I'm sick of your fucking excuses, sorry this sorry that, get a FUCKING BACKBONE
FOR ONCE… why… why…can't-you-be-more-like… like… like… Kaji-san… "
Asuka stood stoically for a minute… and broke down crying.
"Why can't you love me Kaji-san… why can't you love me… why do you have love
that bitch, that fucking bitch, that whore…"
"Asuka, please stop crying, please stop, I care about you, I… I…"
Say it, say that you love her, say it, show that you care, there is a chance that
she will respond, so say it!!!
"I…I…I…I lo-"
"WHAT, WHAT THE FUCK ARE TRYING TO SAY! WHAT, THAT YOU FUCKING
LOVE ME! THAT YOU FUCKING CARE, DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTAND
WHAT IT MEANS TO LOVE, DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT IT MEANS!!!
"I…I…"
"YOU STUPID HORNY SON OF A FUCKING BITCH ALL YOU WANNA DO IS
USE ME FOR YOUR OWN FUCKING PERVERTED PLEASURE. THAT'S ALL
YOU AND YOUR FUCKING FRIENDS CARE ABOUT. GEEZ WELL YOU KNOW
WHAT… YOU CAN GO FUCK YOURSELF, GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FACE
BEFORE I BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU."
Shinji shaken visibly, ran away in tears. Asuka simply stood there, in the rain,
watching the young boy run away.
Shinji burst into the apartment and slammed the door, and sat down on the kitchen
chair laying his head on the table, sobbing heavily
You.Stupid.Fuck. you knew that she didn't care and you tried anyway and guess what
buddy-boy you got screwed over. Happy?.
You stupid useless piece of shit, you can't do anything right, your worthless,
completely worthless.
He cried until it was dark and shortly fell asleep.
He woke in the middle of the night. No one was home.
I deserve it, I deserve all of it, no one cares about me, no one gives a damn about me
nobody cares, nobody. I am alone and will always be alone, my stupid sorry useless
fool of a self is too pathetic, too hideous for anyone to love, I will always be alone.
Always.
He stood up and grabbed the kitchen knife.
Go ahead do it no one cares, no one will even notice, who gives a damn about one
stupid, useless, pathetic boy. No one cares, the only reason why anyone gives a
damn the only reason anyone cares is because I pilot the Evangelion. I am so tired
so very tired, why is it so cold in here, why is it so cold.
I am
Alone.
Tired.
Pathetic.
Useless.
Better off dead.
The last thought rang through his head, he sobbed sadly, brought the knife up to his heart.
"I mustn't run away I mustn't run away I mustn't run away I mustn't run away I mustn't
run away I mustn't run away I mustn't run away…"
And stabbed with all his strength. He sobbed heavily as his life drained away. A single
word formed at his lips.
"Asuka."
A few hours later Asuka walked home, tired. She walked into the apartment. And stopped
dead in her tracks.
No, no, this isn't happening Shinji isn't dead he's not dead.
She ran towards the young boy's corpse and tugged at the knife.
He's not dead, this is a joke, all a joke the knife is a fake, he is gonna jump up and say how
he tricked me, its only a joke
The knife easily slipped out of the corpse's chest and she fell onto the ground. She stared at
the corpse in horror.
"N-no, No, NO." She sobbed. "No…"
She got up and ran out of the house sobbing.
--A few months later---
The cell was damp and poorly lit. Asuka sat down huddled up on the bed. Misato walked up
to her cell. The guard opened the cell. Misato walked in quietly and sat next to Asuka.
"Why did you do it Asuka, why did you…" Misato stopped in mid sentence, she was unable to
continue. The trial was quick and painless, the defendant plead guilty, the crime was
first degree murder, the sentence was death.
Asuka turned slowly to Misato. "I killed him." Her voice was emotionless.
"Come now." The officer was dressed in dress uniform, his retinue consisted of a priest and
two armed guards.
Asuka followed the guards without question and emotion. She was led into a room with a chair
in the center. There was a window to the far left side. There stood a group of viewers, some
familiar, some not. The guards sat her on the wooden chair and strapped her down, the straps
were warm.
"Any last words" inquired the priest. She remained silent. The guard threw the switch.
"SHINJI."
The room's lights dimmed for an instant. There was a sickeningly sweet smell of cooked flesh in
the air. There was silence. Slowly one by one everyone exited the room, while the order was
sent for a body bag.
This tale has ended with a sad note on everyone's lips, now a simple question has arisen
Why?
The END
Authors Notes-
There finally done, I hoped you liked it, either way please read and review. Arigato, Sayonara!!
-Sephiroth
