TITLE: A XANDER\BUFFY MOMENT,TWO
AUTHOR: RICK
E-MAIL: amulet@m...
DISCLAIMER: ALL THE BUFFY CHARACTERS BELONG TO JOSH WHEDON AND OTHERS.
SUMMARY OF PART ONE: One night on patrol at one of the local cemeteries Xander
confronted Buffy with a few things. He got very emotional. Buffy was definitely
moved but only watched as he disappeared from the grave yard and maybe her life.
Buffy was very distraught. As always Xander told her some things she didn't
want to hear. Things which cut right to the heart of the matter. The matter
being her survival and her future as the slayer. She honestly didn't know what
to do. If Xander was so wise and knowing then let him figure it out. He was
suppose to be her friend, suppose to know so much about her heart. Well, then,
let him follow up on it. Mr. know it all!
When Buffy shows up for class the next day she sees Tara and Willow as always.
But the two witches know something major has happened. Buffy looks weary and
ragged. Willow talks to her.
"Are you okay, Buffy?"
"No, I'm not!"
"Would you care to elaborate on that a little Ms. Summers?"
"Why don't you ask Xander?"
Willow and Tara look at each other. Buffy had walked ahead. They catch up to
her.
"Say that again."
"Just ask Mr. know it all, the expert on Buffy Summers!"
"Buffy, did Xander do something to you?"
She stops walking and looks Willow and Tara right in the eye.
"Xander Lavelle Harris, you know.our supposed friend. He only told me I was a
damned fool and I throw my heart at freaks! Go ask him what's the matter. He
seems to know all about me!"
Willow and Tara lead Buffy to a sofa in the lounge.
"Buffy, I don't understand. Why did Xander says things like that to you?"
"I don't know. He has a lot of room to talk. Him and his.his daemon lover!"
"Buffy, that is very harsh."
The slayer can only let out with some unshed tears. Willow hugs her. She tries
to talk between the tear drops.
"Willow..sniff.he.sniff.told me I don't even see what's right in front of me.
That I get myself into relationships that are doomed from the beginning."
Willow and Tara exchange a pointed glance. Willow tries to soften what he said.
"Since when does Xander know about anything, Buffy? Since when does Mr. Ampata
lover and Mr. French lover know anything?"
Buffy looks very serious for a moment.
"Willow, do you think Xander and .and Anya love each other?"
"Well..I don't really know, Buffy. I mean they seem to love each other but Anya
has this tragic air about her."
Tara adds. "And she's very unpredictable."
Willow is very worried. She knows her best friend and does not like the
implications of what she just asked.
"Buffy, you don't.I mean you're not sort of feeling different about Xander all
of a sudden, are you?"
"Willow, Xander Harris was and still is.I mean he.he's."
She looks to Willow and Tara for help but they have no idea what she means.
"Buffy, he's what?"
Buffy has to sigh. "Willow, I don't know. He gets me so damn mad but then."
"Then what, Buffy?"
"Willow, I'm very confused. Willow, has Xander always been this concerned and
wise when it comes to me?"
Willow starts laughing. Buffy looks at her funny.
"What?"
"Buffy, I almost thought you were going to say has he always been this cute and
sexy?"
"Willow?"
"Well, Buffy, you look all goofy and everything. Like he got to you or
something."
Buffy just stares with furrowed brow but doesn't disagree. Willow raises her
eyebrows in surprise.
"Buffy!"
"All of a sudden I think of my life and whenever something important is going
on."
Tara finishes it for her. "There is Xander either beside you or worrying about
you."
Buffy looks at Tara. "You noticed that?"
"Buffy.ah.it's easy for anybody to see. Xander always wants to know where you
are and how you are. Like he can't relax until he knows."
Willow has to add. "Tara's right, Buff. It kills him when he can't be with you."
"And all I do is ignore him or push him off."
Neither Witch says anything to that. Buffy knows they are agreeing with her by
their silence.
"Willow, what am I going to do?"
"Buffy, do you mean; I didn't recognize how much Xander means to me as a friend
and how can I tell him? Or do you mean like how come I never saw Xander for the
concerned, loving and downright sexy fox that he is and how can I get a piece
of him?"
Both Tara and the Slayer have their mouth open on that one. But Buffy still
doesn't answer. Willow thinks she is on to something.
"Buffy, you're in a lot of trouble aren't you?"
"Oh, God, Willow, what am I going to do?"
"May I also add that you have the world's worst timing. This is going to
complicate everything! Buffy, if you were going to fall for Xander why didn't
you do it right after Cordelia left? Something always told me you were going to
really see him one of these days. But being the tragic slayer you are you wait
until he declares his complete love for his vengeance daemon."
Buffy has a comeback. "Well, Ms. Rosenberg, I don't want to say anything but
what would a certain red-headed witch have done if I would have fallen in love
with him two years ago."
Now, Willow is totally shocked. "Buffy, you think you're in love with Xander?"
"Ah.love.did I say that?"
Both Tara and Willow have to nod yes.
"Oh God Willow, Tara, help me."
"Buffy, you are really scaring me now."
"Actually, I don't know what it is. He's just there. I mean everytime I think
of anything that has happened in my life since I came here Xander is just
there. Sometimes he gets me so angry. I know when he doesn't like what I'm
doing. And I know he's going to stick his warm brown eyes right into my face
and tell me about it."
Tara and Willow look at each other while she continues.
"He has this way.his dumb crooked smile. And that voice."
Willow goes to her lifting her from the couch.
"Buffy, I don't think you should let anybody see you like this. Maybe you
should go lie down."
"What?"
"Buffy, you're swooning!"
"Oh my God Willow, I am aren't I? What does it mean?"
"Buffy and above all we don't want Xander to see you like this. He and Anya are
suppose to meet us."
Tara pokes her. Too late, Xander and Anya come up to them in the lounge. Xander
greets them.
"Greetings girls, what's up."
Buffy looks at Xander and her heart does a little flip. But just as quickly it
flops as she sees Anya with her hand lovingly draped over his shoulder. She
can't help herself.
"What are you two doing here?"
"Ah, Buff.we're suppose to be here."
"Yea, well its very bad timing!"
Every one looks at each other surprised by the harshness of Buffy's reply.
Xander goes to her. He starts to put his hand on her arm.
"Don't touch me Xander!"
"Buffy, is this about last night? Can we go talk about it in private."
"Oh, you mean you'd leave your daemon girl friend all alone for a moment.
Whatever will she do?"
Anya starts to say something but Xander stops her.
"Anya please.this is just.I'll explain it to you later."
He turns back to Buffy. "Buffy, could we please go somewhere and talk?"
Anya objects. "You're going to go somewhere with her after what she said?"
Xander looks sternly at her. "Anya, this is Buffy okay. I need to talk to her.
You know."
"I know that whenever she clicks her fingers you come running. All she has to
have is the hint of a problem and you're right at her side. Cordelia is right!"
"Cordelia, you were talking to Cordelia?"
"Of course I was. She went with you so I have a right to talk to her. And we
both agreed."
"Look Anya I don't care what Cordelia said okay?"
He regrets saying that so harshly. He goes to her, fondling her face. When he
does that Buffy turns and leaves disgusted.
"Look, honey, I'm sorry. I just need to talk to her.please?"
He doesn't wait for her answer. He catches up to Buffy.
"Buffy, will you wait."
"Look, Xander I don't want to take you from your precious Anya."
He goes in front of her and grabs her arms.
"Buffy will you stop it. What is the matter with you?"
"What's the matter with me, ha.what the hell was last night, Xander, huh?"
"Buffy.I."
She interrupts him. "You shake up my whole life. You tell me I'm a damned fool
and then you just leave!"
"Buffy, I didn't know.I."
"You didn't know what, Xander? You didn't know you had that much effect on me?
That I listen to what you say? Well wake up Xander, okay?"
"Buffy, you never let on that anything I ever said to you meant anything. Most
of the time you just ignore me all together."
Buffy starts crying. "Xander.I know.I was so stupid. I never saw you all these
years. I never knew what you meant to me. Even when I left before, Xander. I
didn't know what to do. I thought it was because I sent Angel to hell but I was
able to live without him before because.because I had you. Xander, I am so
sorry."
She collapses in his arms crying.
"Honey, that's okay. You're the slayer. You have the pressure of the whole
world on your shoulders. All I ever wanted to do was help you."
"Xander, you have helped me. And saved me.and loved me."
"Buffy, it's okay. Everything will be okay."
"Xander.I can't help it. I've been trying to deny something for a long time.
Until yesterday I didn't even know what it was. But all this time I didn't want
to see what is right in front of my nose. But Xander now I do and.Xander."
She can't finish. Xander dries her tears with his handkerchief.
"What Buffy, just say it?"
"Xander, I need you."
"Okay, Buff, and I'm here for you just like I always am."
"But Xander.I...I can't help it. I love you, Xander."
Xander turns from her. These words really shocked him.
"What, Buffy?"
"Xander, I'm sorry. I know it is stupid and.but, I can't help it Xander. It
just happened."
Xander sighs. "Oh, Buffy."
"I know Xander. You use to have a crush on me and I know I rejected you. I know
you don't think of me that way anymore. I'm not trying."
He goes to her gently cupping her face in his hand. "Buffy.I have loved you
from the moment I saw you. I have never stopped. I tried but I couldn't stop.
But I thought it was impossible. I thought that you."
"Xander, I know what you thought. And it's my fault. Here you were in front of
me and beside me and behind me all this time but I was too stupid to look to
you for love. Xander, now that my eyes are opened I don't.I don't know how I
didn't see. Xander you have always been my rock. You have always had what I
need."
"Buffy.this is almost too much."
"I know, Xander."
They look at each other with an intensity which could power a small city. There
is so much history, so much shared, so many feelings vying to come out at the
same time. The space between them is charged, electrified. It must be breached!
As they bring their lips closer the air sparks and crackles around them. Their
body's love sensors go on full alert. They touch in complete magic and wonder,
the kiss something different than either have ever felt. When they finally part
for air they remain staring at each other, sure only that their entire lives
have been changed
The end
P.S. Some things have to happen before they can truly be together. Shall I go
into it?
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AUTHOR: RICK
E-MAIL: amulet@m...
DISCLAIMER: ALL THE BUFFY CHARACTERS BELONG TO JOSH WHEDON AND OTHERS.
SUMMARY OF PART ONE: One night on patrol at one of the local cemeteries Xander
confronted Buffy with a few things. He got very emotional. Buffy was definitely
moved but only watched as he disappeared from the grave yard and maybe her life.
Buffy was very distraught. As always Xander told her some things she didn't
want to hear. Things which cut right to the heart of the matter. The matter
being her survival and her future as the slayer. She honestly didn't know what
to do. If Xander was so wise and knowing then let him figure it out. He was
suppose to be her friend, suppose to know so much about her heart. Well, then,
let him follow up on it. Mr. know it all!
When Buffy shows up for class the next day she sees Tara and Willow as always.
But the two witches know something major has happened. Buffy looks weary and
ragged. Willow talks to her.
"Are you okay, Buffy?"
"No, I'm not!"
"Would you care to elaborate on that a little Ms. Summers?"
"Why don't you ask Xander?"
Willow and Tara look at each other. Buffy had walked ahead. They catch up to
her.
"Say that again."
"Just ask Mr. know it all, the expert on Buffy Summers!"
"Buffy, did Xander do something to you?"
She stops walking and looks Willow and Tara right in the eye.
"Xander Lavelle Harris, you know.our supposed friend. He only told me I was a
damned fool and I throw my heart at freaks! Go ask him what's the matter. He
seems to know all about me!"
Willow and Tara lead Buffy to a sofa in the lounge.
"Buffy, I don't understand. Why did Xander says things like that to you?"
"I don't know. He has a lot of room to talk. Him and his.his daemon lover!"
"Buffy, that is very harsh."
The slayer can only let out with some unshed tears. Willow hugs her. She tries
to talk between the tear drops.
"Willow..sniff.he.sniff.told me I don't even see what's right in front of me.
That I get myself into relationships that are doomed from the beginning."
Willow and Tara exchange a pointed glance. Willow tries to soften what he said.
"Since when does Xander know about anything, Buffy? Since when does Mr. Ampata
lover and Mr. French lover know anything?"
Buffy looks very serious for a moment.
"Willow, do you think Xander and .and Anya love each other?"
"Well..I don't really know, Buffy. I mean they seem to love each other but Anya
has this tragic air about her."
Tara adds. "And she's very unpredictable."
Willow is very worried. She knows her best friend and does not like the
implications of what she just asked.
"Buffy, you don't.I mean you're not sort of feeling different about Xander all
of a sudden, are you?"
"Willow, Xander Harris was and still is.I mean he.he's."
She looks to Willow and Tara for help but they have no idea what she means.
"Buffy, he's what?"
Buffy has to sigh. "Willow, I don't know. He gets me so damn mad but then."
"Then what, Buffy?"
"Willow, I'm very confused. Willow, has Xander always been this concerned and
wise when it comes to me?"
Willow starts laughing. Buffy looks at her funny.
"What?"
"Buffy, I almost thought you were going to say has he always been this cute and
sexy?"
"Willow?"
"Well, Buffy, you look all goofy and everything. Like he got to you or
something."
Buffy just stares with furrowed brow but doesn't disagree. Willow raises her
eyebrows in surprise.
"Buffy!"
"All of a sudden I think of my life and whenever something important is going
on."
Tara finishes it for her. "There is Xander either beside you or worrying about
you."
Buffy looks at Tara. "You noticed that?"
"Buffy.ah.it's easy for anybody to see. Xander always wants to know where you
are and how you are. Like he can't relax until he knows."
Willow has to add. "Tara's right, Buff. It kills him when he can't be with you."
"And all I do is ignore him or push him off."
Neither Witch says anything to that. Buffy knows they are agreeing with her by
their silence.
"Willow, what am I going to do?"
"Buffy, do you mean; I didn't recognize how much Xander means to me as a friend
and how can I tell him? Or do you mean like how come I never saw Xander for the
concerned, loving and downright sexy fox that he is and how can I get a piece
of him?"
Both Tara and the Slayer have their mouth open on that one. But Buffy still
doesn't answer. Willow thinks she is on to something.
"Buffy, you're in a lot of trouble aren't you?"
"Oh, God, Willow, what am I going to do?"
"May I also add that you have the world's worst timing. This is going to
complicate everything! Buffy, if you were going to fall for Xander why didn't
you do it right after Cordelia left? Something always told me you were going to
really see him one of these days. But being the tragic slayer you are you wait
until he declares his complete love for his vengeance daemon."
Buffy has a comeback. "Well, Ms. Rosenberg, I don't want to say anything but
what would a certain red-headed witch have done if I would have fallen in love
with him two years ago."
Now, Willow is totally shocked. "Buffy, you think you're in love with Xander?"
"Ah.love.did I say that?"
Both Tara and Willow have to nod yes.
"Oh God Willow, Tara, help me."
"Buffy, you are really scaring me now."
"Actually, I don't know what it is. He's just there. I mean everytime I think
of anything that has happened in my life since I came here Xander is just
there. Sometimes he gets me so angry. I know when he doesn't like what I'm
doing. And I know he's going to stick his warm brown eyes right into my face
and tell me about it."
Tara and Willow look at each other while she continues.
"He has this way.his dumb crooked smile. And that voice."
Willow goes to her lifting her from the couch.
"Buffy, I don't think you should let anybody see you like this. Maybe you
should go lie down."
"What?"
"Buffy, you're swooning!"
"Oh my God Willow, I am aren't I? What does it mean?"
"Buffy and above all we don't want Xander to see you like this. He and Anya are
suppose to meet us."
Tara pokes her. Too late, Xander and Anya come up to them in the lounge. Xander
greets them.
"Greetings girls, what's up."
Buffy looks at Xander and her heart does a little flip. But just as quickly it
flops as she sees Anya with her hand lovingly draped over his shoulder. She
can't help herself.
"What are you two doing here?"
"Ah, Buff.we're suppose to be here."
"Yea, well its very bad timing!"
Every one looks at each other surprised by the harshness of Buffy's reply.
Xander goes to her. He starts to put his hand on her arm.
"Don't touch me Xander!"
"Buffy, is this about last night? Can we go talk about it in private."
"Oh, you mean you'd leave your daemon girl friend all alone for a moment.
Whatever will she do?"
Anya starts to say something but Xander stops her.
"Anya please.this is just.I'll explain it to you later."
He turns back to Buffy. "Buffy, could we please go somewhere and talk?"
Anya objects. "You're going to go somewhere with her after what she said?"
Xander looks sternly at her. "Anya, this is Buffy okay. I need to talk to her.
You know."
"I know that whenever she clicks her fingers you come running. All she has to
have is the hint of a problem and you're right at her side. Cordelia is right!"
"Cordelia, you were talking to Cordelia?"
"Of course I was. She went with you so I have a right to talk to her. And we
both agreed."
"Look Anya I don't care what Cordelia said okay?"
He regrets saying that so harshly. He goes to her, fondling her face. When he
does that Buffy turns and leaves disgusted.
"Look, honey, I'm sorry. I just need to talk to her.please?"
He doesn't wait for her answer. He catches up to Buffy.
"Buffy, will you wait."
"Look, Xander I don't want to take you from your precious Anya."
He goes in front of her and grabs her arms.
"Buffy will you stop it. What is the matter with you?"
"What's the matter with me, ha.what the hell was last night, Xander, huh?"
"Buffy.I."
She interrupts him. "You shake up my whole life. You tell me I'm a damned fool
and then you just leave!"
"Buffy, I didn't know.I."
"You didn't know what, Xander? You didn't know you had that much effect on me?
That I listen to what you say? Well wake up Xander, okay?"
"Buffy, you never let on that anything I ever said to you meant anything. Most
of the time you just ignore me all together."
Buffy starts crying. "Xander.I know.I was so stupid. I never saw you all these
years. I never knew what you meant to me. Even when I left before, Xander. I
didn't know what to do. I thought it was because I sent Angel to hell but I was
able to live without him before because.because I had you. Xander, I am so
sorry."
She collapses in his arms crying.
"Honey, that's okay. You're the slayer. You have the pressure of the whole
world on your shoulders. All I ever wanted to do was help you."
"Xander, you have helped me. And saved me.and loved me."
"Buffy, it's okay. Everything will be okay."
"Xander.I can't help it. I've been trying to deny something for a long time.
Until yesterday I didn't even know what it was. But all this time I didn't want
to see what is right in front of my nose. But Xander now I do and.Xander."
She can't finish. Xander dries her tears with his handkerchief.
"What Buffy, just say it?"
"Xander, I need you."
"Okay, Buff, and I'm here for you just like I always am."
"But Xander.I...I can't help it. I love you, Xander."
Xander turns from her. These words really shocked him.
"What, Buffy?"
"Xander, I'm sorry. I know it is stupid and.but, I can't help it Xander. It
just happened."
Xander sighs. "Oh, Buffy."
"I know Xander. You use to have a crush on me and I know I rejected you. I know
you don't think of me that way anymore. I'm not trying."
He goes to her gently cupping her face in his hand. "Buffy.I have loved you
from the moment I saw you. I have never stopped. I tried but I couldn't stop.
But I thought it was impossible. I thought that you."
"Xander, I know what you thought. And it's my fault. Here you were in front of
me and beside me and behind me all this time but I was too stupid to look to
you for love. Xander, now that my eyes are opened I don't.I don't know how I
didn't see. Xander you have always been my rock. You have always had what I
need."
"Buffy.this is almost too much."
"I know, Xander."
They look at each other with an intensity which could power a small city. There
is so much history, so much shared, so many feelings vying to come out at the
same time. The space between them is charged, electrified. It must be breached!
As they bring their lips closer the air sparks and crackles around them. Their
body's love sensors go on full alert. They touch in complete magic and wonder,
the kiss something different than either have ever felt. When they finally part
for air they remain staring at each other, sure only that their entire lives
have been changed
The end
P.S. Some things have to happen before they can truly be together. Shall I go
into it?
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