Title: See Me (1/3: Logan)
Author: Angelus
E-mail: angelus1317@hotmail.com (Please put "See Me" on the subject line.)
Subject: Dark Angel
Category: MLR
Rating: G
Summary: Logan wonders how Max sees him.
Spoilers: None
Archive: Anywhere, just ask me first.
Disclaimer: Max, Logan, ect are the property of James Cameron, Charles Eglee, Cameron-Eglee Productions, and the Fox network. I don't own them. But I'd like to own Logan - does that count?! They are used here without permission (big surprise), so don't sue.
Author's notes: This is the beginning of a series of short little vignettes of characters wondering how other characters see them. I have absolutely no idea how long it's going to be except for the fact that there is a Max chapter and a Zack chapter in the works.
Dedication: To Mira. Thought you might need a little pick-me-up. I wish you luck with everything - just know that I'm here & I'm praying for you.
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"It's just a machine." "It's an extension of my soul if there is such a
thing." - Cindy and Max, "411 on the DL"
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Sometimes I wonder how she really sees me. Am I a man to her, or a useless life form permanently attached to this goddammned piece of metal known as a wheelchair? I tend to assume that it's the latter. Maybe even a charming, good-looking guy that she's slightly attracted to at that, but I won't push my luck.
God and everybody else knows that I'm attracted to her. Hell, she probably knows it, too. She's smart enough. And if Zack can figure it out then I'm sure she can.
And how does she feel about Zack while we're on the subject? Is he the
jealous, overprotective, incestual brother I see or a loving, trusting
confidant who knows exactly where she's coming from, can understand every emotion she feels, and is good-looking to top it all off?
The thought of the two of them together disgusts me. A big part of that, of course, stems from jealousy. I like to think that I'm the only man in her life, romantically or otherwise. But that's asking too much. She is allowed to have a life, after all. She is only a teenager.
My god. I'm thirty four - that's practically middle-aged! Okay, that's a stretch, but still - she's only nineteen. That's a fifteen-year difference. I'm almost old enough to be her father. I wonder if she's noticed that fact at all.
The thought of the two of us is actually only slightly more appealing than that of her and Zack. I've been married and divorced to an alcoholic, and she's only had one serious boyfriend. I'm not saying I'm more mature than her - growing up at Manticore does count for something, after all - only more experienced in relationships. She's been taught not to care about people of get emotionally attached. What kind of girlfriend is she going to make?
And how would we look making our way down the street? An old crippled guy in a wheelchair escorting about a gorgeous, curvy young brunette. They'll probably think I'm her pimp. Or that I'm just a paying customer who gets his kicks with girls half his age.
Which I am in a way - paying for her company, that is. Would she stick
around if I didn't buy her nice things or take her nice places or cook nice meals for her?
And who the hell do I think I'm kidding? I love her no matter what. And I know that she isn't attracted to my money. She may not be attracted to my body, either, but at least she's not using me. I can't believe that the thought even crossed my mind. As for our possible relationship - she threw the Manticore crap out the window long age. Like it or not, she's got friends her that she's attached to - Cindy, Kendra, Herbal... Phony sentimentality my ass. And who the ---- cares what anyone else thinks? Screw the world - if she was my girl, I'd sure as hell show her off.
I've known how I feel about her for a long time, now - I love her. Without a question; beyond a shadow of a doubt.
But how does she feel about me?
I guess it will always come down to that, won't it?
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angelus1317@hotmail.com. Peace, luv, and Pocky, peeps!
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Author: Angelus
E-mail: angelus1317@hotmail.com (Please put "See Me" on the subject line.)
Subject: Dark Angel
Category: MLR
Rating: G
Summary: Logan wonders how Max sees him.
Spoilers: None
Archive: Anywhere, just ask me first.
Disclaimer: Max, Logan, ect are the property of James Cameron, Charles Eglee, Cameron-Eglee Productions, and the Fox network. I don't own them. But I'd like to own Logan - does that count?! They are used here without permission (big surprise), so don't sue.
Author's notes: This is the beginning of a series of short little vignettes of characters wondering how other characters see them. I have absolutely no idea how long it's going to be except for the fact that there is a Max chapter and a Zack chapter in the works.
Dedication: To Mira. Thought you might need a little pick-me-up. I wish you luck with everything - just know that I'm here & I'm praying for you.
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"It's just a machine." "It's an extension of my soul if there is such a
thing." - Cindy and Max, "411 on the DL"
***********************************************************************
Sometimes I wonder how she really sees me. Am I a man to her, or a useless life form permanently attached to this goddammned piece of metal known as a wheelchair? I tend to assume that it's the latter. Maybe even a charming, good-looking guy that she's slightly attracted to at that, but I won't push my luck.
God and everybody else knows that I'm attracted to her. Hell, she probably knows it, too. She's smart enough. And if Zack can figure it out then I'm sure she can.
And how does she feel about Zack while we're on the subject? Is he the
jealous, overprotective, incestual brother I see or a loving, trusting
confidant who knows exactly where she's coming from, can understand every emotion she feels, and is good-looking to top it all off?
The thought of the two of them together disgusts me. A big part of that, of course, stems from jealousy. I like to think that I'm the only man in her life, romantically or otherwise. But that's asking too much. She is allowed to have a life, after all. She is only a teenager.
My god. I'm thirty four - that's practically middle-aged! Okay, that's a stretch, but still - she's only nineteen. That's a fifteen-year difference. I'm almost old enough to be her father. I wonder if she's noticed that fact at all.
The thought of the two of us is actually only slightly more appealing than that of her and Zack. I've been married and divorced to an alcoholic, and she's only had one serious boyfriend. I'm not saying I'm more mature than her - growing up at Manticore does count for something, after all - only more experienced in relationships. She's been taught not to care about people of get emotionally attached. What kind of girlfriend is she going to make?
And how would we look making our way down the street? An old crippled guy in a wheelchair escorting about a gorgeous, curvy young brunette. They'll probably think I'm her pimp. Or that I'm just a paying customer who gets his kicks with girls half his age.
Which I am in a way - paying for her company, that is. Would she stick
around if I didn't buy her nice things or take her nice places or cook nice meals for her?
And who the hell do I think I'm kidding? I love her no matter what. And I know that she isn't attracted to my money. She may not be attracted to my body, either, but at least she's not using me. I can't believe that the thought even crossed my mind. As for our possible relationship - she threw the Manticore crap out the window long age. Like it or not, she's got friends her that she's attached to - Cindy, Kendra, Herbal... Phony sentimentality my ass. And who the ---- cares what anyone else thinks? Screw the world - if she was my girl, I'd sure as hell show her off.
I've known how I feel about her for a long time, now - I love her. Without a question; beyond a shadow of a doubt.
But how does she feel about me?
I guess it will always come down to that, won't it?
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angelus1317@hotmail.com. Peace, luv, and Pocky, peeps!
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