Lalala, Chapter Four. Much gayness in this chapter. Heehee, I love slash!! ^^ Um, characters belong to Marvel and KidsWB! and all those other nice people. Please review. Working long and hard on a story that you know people read but that gets no reviews is very frustrating. Makes me think about quitting... ;_;

Dear Notebook,

Why am I gay? Why couldn't I just be straight like other guys? Everything would be so much simpler. I mean, finding out if a girl likes you isn't too hard. But you can't just walk up to another guy and say, "Hey, wanna go out?" It's unbelievable how personally guys take comments like that. Like implying that they might like guys is such an insult. Which it is, I suppose. Because it's not right. Being gay is wrong. So I'm wrong.

And I'm the one who's always right. I'm Pietro Maximoff, for Christ's sake. I always win. Well, except that time with stupid Evan who had to bring in his stupid friends because he can't fight for his own stupid self. I hate him. And I don't even know why. I can't believe I had a crush on him last year. Ugh.

Why does Lance like Kitty so much? She's just some stupid dippy little freshman who acts like he doesn't exist. He could do so much better than her. Which probably means he could do better than me. Which I don't like the sound of. Why can't I just be straight???

.....

Lance must have no idea that I'm gay, or else he's trying to drive me insane, because he just wandered into my room in nothing but his boxers, asking if I had a towel he could use. His black boxers with the little white stars on them. He's is so fucking unbelievably hot. I want a poster of him for my wall. He's gonna be posing for Playdude someday, I swear to God.

Yours,

Pietro

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Tuesday, November 20
9:55 PM

Okay, the wierdest thing happened to me today during PE. It was a free day, and I was on the bleachers, watching the rest of the Institute kids playing basketball. Ha. "Institute kids." Sounds like a mental institution. Which it pretty much is. Or maybe some kind of secret spy organization. Which it pretty much is, too.

Anyway. I was watching the other kids playing ball, and I saw Pietro talking to Lance. Or at least... TRYING to talk to Lance. He spent the whole time looking over Pietro's shoulder at Kitty. Well, I assume that's what he was looking at. What else would he be looking at? Kurt? So then Pietro appeared to get frustrated, and he saw me on the bleacher and came up to me and just started... talking. Like a normal conversation. Friendly. Pietro Maximoff and Scott Summers having a non-drug-induced friendly conversation. Ha. And it was kinda wierd at first but... he's actually okay. A little on the fruity side, but still okay. Then he asked me the wierdest question...

"Are you gay, Summers?" I just blinked for a second and said, "Nooo...." He made a face and said, "Are you sure?" and I said, "Yes." And he said, "Are you absolutely, positively, one-hundred--" "YES! Why is it so hard for you to believe that I'm straight?" Then he kinda looked like he was thinking and said

"I dunno. You just kinda give off... gay vibes."

"Gay vibes"? What the hell are "gay vibes"?! God, I reeeeeally need to mellow out right now, but my stash is empty, I'm broke, and even if I had some money, I can't go see Dan this time of night. What would the others think? Can't let them know that Mr. Perfect Straight-A Summers smokes pot once a week.

--SS