Someday
I feel numb
I can't feel anything
Neither hate nor loss
Not happiness or fulfillment...
Nothing...
He is gone now
He who should have made my wish come true
He who shaped me to who I am now
He, the soul I have loved
I... I should be the one who died
Who should be the one lying on the cold ground
Lifeless, unmoving
Instead, a sudden twist of fate turned it
So I am still here.
*I* killed him
Was the one who took his life
Was the one who...
I want to die
Here and now
I don't care anymore
I don't care about the fate of the world
I don't care what both of 'them' would think
I don't care if I become 'him'
I don't care what happens to me
I just want to die
And be with him
Without him, I am no one
Without him, I don't exist
I want to be with him
I want to exist where he exists
I don't want to say goodbye
I don't want to leave his side
Even if it means I'll become him
Tiny spectacles of water fill my eyes
These tears.they're useless
These tears are meaningless
Why... how... could I cry
Why do I wish for something that can never ever come true?
How could I wish for something I would not, could not, have
I don't know anything anymore
My thoughts are driving me crazy
I don't know what to believe
I don't even know what 'reality or what 'fantasy' is
If you were just here
If you were here beside me
If you were the person you were before any of these happened...
Then...
We could have been happy
We could have done so many things together
...
I don't want this to...
I *never* wanted this to happen
What I wanted was far more different from this
I wanted to set you free
Free from yourself
Free from being a heartless murderer
Free from feeling nothing at all
Free from the dark shadows inside you
I wanted to do this
Because I had loved you
And I still do,
Seishirou-san...
I still love you...
And someday I'll set you free.
I'll learn to let go
But not today, someday.
**********
To the readers:
I need reviews. Explosives aren't accepted, so are arson threats... keep the gasoline and matches far from me, too. If you want me to murder you, send you flames to reia_aoi@yahoo.com
Thanks to kittyne who gave the title and did a little editing. Thanks a bunch!
I feel numb
I can't feel anything
Neither hate nor loss
Not happiness or fulfillment...
Nothing...
He is gone now
He who should have made my wish come true
He who shaped me to who I am now
He, the soul I have loved
I... I should be the one who died
Who should be the one lying on the cold ground
Lifeless, unmoving
Instead, a sudden twist of fate turned it
So I am still here.
*I* killed him
Was the one who took his life
Was the one who...
I want to die
Here and now
I don't care anymore
I don't care about the fate of the world
I don't care what both of 'them' would think
I don't care if I become 'him'
I don't care what happens to me
I just want to die
And be with him
Without him, I am no one
Without him, I don't exist
I want to be with him
I want to exist where he exists
I don't want to say goodbye
I don't want to leave his side
Even if it means I'll become him
Tiny spectacles of water fill my eyes
These tears.they're useless
These tears are meaningless
Why... how... could I cry
Why do I wish for something that can never ever come true?
How could I wish for something I would not, could not, have
I don't know anything anymore
My thoughts are driving me crazy
I don't know what to believe
I don't even know what 'reality or what 'fantasy' is
If you were just here
If you were here beside me
If you were the person you were before any of these happened...
Then...
We could have been happy
We could have done so many things together
...
I don't want this to...
I *never* wanted this to happen
What I wanted was far more different from this
I wanted to set you free
Free from yourself
Free from being a heartless murderer
Free from feeling nothing at all
Free from the dark shadows inside you
I wanted to do this
Because I had loved you
And I still do,
Seishirou-san...
I still love you...
And someday I'll set you free.
I'll learn to let go
But not today, someday.
**********
To the readers:
I need reviews. Explosives aren't accepted, so are arson threats... keep the gasoline and matches far from me, too. If you want me to murder you, send you flames to reia_aoi@yahoo.com
Thanks to kittyne who gave the title and did a little editing. Thanks a bunch!
