I walked into the bedroom to see Seifer laying face down on his bed, sleeping, probably. I crouched down to the ground and picked up the black t-shirt that Seifer had discarded to the floor. I stood, looking at the rip that ran through the back of the black material, surrounded in discolorment I classified as Seifer's blood. Sighing, I walked into the kitchen to throw it out, since it was virtually useless now. Pity really... It looked good on him...
~*~*~"Doesn't he have *such* a nice ass?!" Shanai said loudly to me, causing several people, including Seifer, to turn. I turned red and looked at the floor, pretending not to notice that Shanai was still saying things. Everyone was standing at an assembly in the Quad, and we were recieving instructions for the upcoming Galbadian attack- I wasn't really paying attention... though I should have been, which is why I blame the following events on myself.
"Okay, okay, he turned around; look!"
"WHAT?"
"At his ass..."
"...?!" Thank you, I had thought to myself, I already know it- too well.
"Just comment on it, I wanna know what you think... please?"
"DEGRADING." I muttered, peering over Zell Dincht's shoulder at Seifer's... uh, rear end. ...
"No, no! I meant Zell- not Seifer... Why'd you think I was talking about Seifer...? I *am* going out with Zell..."
"NOT SURE." Embarrassed, I realized the assembly was over, and I had no clue what to do... I seen Seifer talking to some girl who works at the library, and felt jealous, and angry at him, as if he were mine... heh. I was told to go back to my dorm and await further announcments, since sleet had started to come down to the ground. Shanai and I returned to our dorm, and I regretted everything.
"Hey, you. I know your secret." !
"TALK ABOUT. WHAT?"
"... You like Seifer."
"?! NEGATIVE."
"Ooh, come on! You always stare at him..."
"...DO NOT."
"ATTENTION ALL ELDER CLASSMEN. PLEASE COME TO THE QUAD IMMEDIATELY. BRING YOUR WEAPONS. WE ARE UNDER ATTACK. LIBRARY STAFF- TAKE THE JUNIOR CLASSMEN OUT INTO THE FIRE CAVERN. I REPEAT..."
"Lets go! I'll talk to you when I get back!" She said, smiling. I got a bad feeling... Dammit... Shanai.~*~*~
I shut off the kitchen lights and crept toward the bedroom, trying desperatley not to wake anyone up. The door opened, and I jumped back, hiding in the shadows- and watched. Raijin left. What is he doing?... Sighing, I went into the bedroom, and layed on my bed. I got up in a rush, feeling sick and dizzy. I clutched my stomach. I guess I had thought too much...
"You okay...?" Seifer asked, sitting up when I came back from puking in the bathroom.
"...You don't care. Neither do I. Lets just sleep, alright?" I had to go to work tommorow, I didn't want to...
***
...After work the next day I came home, unforutnately, and realized it was Seifer's day off... And Raijin was still gone. When I entered, he was sitting on the sofa, reading a Weapons Monthly. I didn't say anything, and put my bag down on the chair.
"Hey..." Go away, bastard.
"Uh... GREETINGS." I didn't feel so well, and I didn't want to have to deal with Seifer, so I walked toward the bedroom.
~*~*~"Ms. Sanada, you go to the front gate, make sure no one gets in. You'll be working with Nida Tanaka." A SeeD said to me. I looked up and nodded, heading toward the front gate. Nida wasn't there, so I was left to fight off twenty opposing soliders with just my shuriken. I was drawn outside, where the sleet soaked me and made me cold, and numb all over. But I continued to fight- I didn't even know why. ...But then, a rather large man came up to me. He had a sword. I was scared, for this man was larger then Raijin... And I'm pretty sure he'd hit girls... We fought for awhile, and just when I thought I was winning... It happened. I heard screaming. I looked up toward the Quad to see a person who I later identified as Shanai being pushed off the edge by older soliders. She grasped the railing for dear life.
"No, no, no!" I said. Then the man I was fighting rushed toward me, bringing the blade of his sword across the left side of my face. I swung my shuriken at him... and he was hurt badly. He fell toward the ground. I looked up to see someone trying to help Shanai up. Then I realized only my right eye was working... I was so shocked, but when I seen the person fall, grasping the edge, the pain numbed over, and I ran into the Garden, running quickly toward the Quad, which was empty, save for four hands, slipping fast on the wet ground. I ran toward them, sleet and blood causing my hair to cling to my face. Then I looked, and seen who the second person was. Seifer. I didn't have time to plan out who to save. Shanai would be easier to pull up... No! Then Seifer would die... It wasn't my place to decide who lives or dies. I seen Shanai slipping, and Seifer was losing grip also...
"Fuck. I'm sorry." I said. Reaching for Seifer's wrist. I pulled on him, and he was so god damned heavy for my 90 pounds. Sometime during my saving him, Shanai fell to her death. I finally pulled him up, and was so tired. Glad my hair was covering my injured eye, my right eye started to cry, and I was thankful for the wetness coming from the sky. I crawled over to the edge of the Balcony and looked over, seeing Shanai's body mangled on the ground below... Why did I save Seifer, dammit?! I pounded my fist on the ground, and I felt Seifer pull me back away from the edge. He held me... and let me cry.~*~*~
I sat up in bed, glancing around, my eyes resting on the clock, which read 8:23 pm. Sighing, I walked out of the bedroom. Seifer was still reading the magazine, and I sighed.
"Hey, Fujin?"
"Hmm...?" I said, sitting on the arm of the sofa.
"...You feel okay?" Just tired, Seifer.
"AFFIRMATIVE. WHY ASK?"
"I dunno, I mean, you looked sick when you woke up this morning, and look tired now... You okay?" You don't care! Why are you asking me?!
"...FINE..."
"Alright, alright." I stood up and walked into the kitchen... I was really tired... So... tired... I dragged my feet back into the living room, trying desperately to make it to the bedroom with out Seifer noticing. I staggered.
"You drunk...?!"
"...Fuck you." I muttered, not wanted anymore of his puns. I waltzed into the bedroom. Dazed, I fell onto Seifer's bed unintentionally, and slept.
~*~*~I woke up in the infirmary, with an eyepatch on my left eye. I stood up, ashamed of letting Seifer see me cry, and looked around. It was morning and the Garden was no longer in chaos. I checked out of the infirmary, trying hard to adjust to only having one eye. People looked at me oddly as I walked by, and when I seen Seifer and Raijin, instead of stalking them, I ran the other way to my dorm. But, upon entering, I seen Shanai's things, and left, not being able to take it... It was as if I *killed* her... Classes were discontinued for the next five days, and I took the oppurtunity to go to Balamb. I exited Garden, paying no heed to the warning of a blizzard from the front gatesman. I went over to that path by the ocean, neverminding the freezing temperatures... And I just thought... about everything. About three hours later (Yes, I am able to think without interuption for so long), the tide came in, soaking my pants, since I was kneeling. I jumped backwards, right into someone.
"Aah, APOLOGIES."
"...Don't apologize." It was Seifer naturally- how did he find me...? ~*~*~
"Fujin..."
"Yes?" I muttered, not bothering to open my eyes to whoever was standing over me. I covered my head with the pillow. It smelled oddly... Leather and blood...? Seifer. Ooh... I'm in Seifer's bed... Dammit... I didn't mean to... Thats probably him, going to yell at me...
"Get the fuck out of my bed, unless you want sex." ...Yep... getting out of bed right now.
"APOLOGIES."
"Yeah, s'right. Now, go on." I tossed the pillow to the foot of the bed and looked at the time. Midnight. Oops. I glanced up at Seifer, who was standing over me- shirtless, and on my way to my bed, I glanced at his back. It looked a little better...
The next morning, I felt sick again, and decided it was best for me to go get some medicine at the drug store. So, I climbed out of bed, and headed toward the closet to get some clothes. Raijin *still* wasn't home...
"Where do you think *you're* going?"
"...Just out..."
"I see..."
***
I entered the drugstore, and looked around for the counter where the pharmicists were.
"Hi, how can I help you today?"
"DIZZY. TIRED. SICK. REGURGITATE. MEDICINE; WHERE?"
"...Hmm... Well, lets see... Hmm..." She typed something up on the computer.
"YES?"
"Well, I suggest you try what I'm about to give you, and if it doesn't come out to be the cause, take some of this medicine. I'll give you both in a sec, lemme just go get them and package them." She walked off, and I sighed, wondering what she'd give me. She handed me a paper bag.
"Thats fifty gil." I put it on the table and left, heading home. Seifer was obviously still in bed, so I went into the bathroom, and leaned against the sink, pulling out the bottle of medicine. It was some odd purple stuff. I pulled out the second thing. A box. I read the label. "Odine Pregnacy Test." Hah, yeah, okay. I took it, and waited the two minutes I was supposed to, already knowing the results were negative.
"Fujin, you in there?"
"AFFIRMATIVE. LEAVE ALONE."
"...Fine." I heard him walk away just as I seen letters fade in. Positive. No. I read it wrong. I felt dizzy. No, no,no... Wait. I read the label again. "100% reliable." ...N-no... There must be a mistake... I could feel tears.
"N-no." I sobbed, feeling tears flowing. Can't be... Five minutes later, I wiped away my tears, took a shower, and walked out of the bathroom. Seifer was laying face down on the sofa. I could see some blood seeping through on his grey t-shirt. Should I help him...? No, the bastard impregnated me... But its really not his fault... Yes it is...
"Um, Seifer?"
"...Go 'way."
"...But, Seifer."
"I told you, I'm not going to Garden." ...Sighing, I lifted his t-shirt, only to see the center of the cut bleeding. I wiped away the blood with the tip of my finger and looked at it. His blood... Shaking my head at how stupid I was acting, I walked into the bathroom and grabbed the iodine. I brought it back in, and looked down at his back, cut still bleeding. I wiped away more blood with my fingers, glad the bleeding wasn't that bad. I put the iodine on the cut, and Seifer woke up immediately.
"Friggin' hell?!" He jumped off the sofa, instinctively reaching for his gunblade. I dropped the iodine, looking at him shaking my head. I walked into the kitchen with one word on my mind. Abortion.
~*~*~"Doesn't he have *such* a nice ass?!" Shanai said loudly to me, causing several people, including Seifer, to turn. I turned red and looked at the floor, pretending not to notice that Shanai was still saying things. Everyone was standing at an assembly in the Quad, and we were recieving instructions for the upcoming Galbadian attack- I wasn't really paying attention... though I should have been, which is why I blame the following events on myself.
"Okay, okay, he turned around; look!"
"WHAT?"
"At his ass..."
"...?!" Thank you, I had thought to myself, I already know it- too well.
"Just comment on it, I wanna know what you think... please?"
"DEGRADING." I muttered, peering over Zell Dincht's shoulder at Seifer's... uh, rear end. ...
"No, no! I meant Zell- not Seifer... Why'd you think I was talking about Seifer...? I *am* going out with Zell..."
"NOT SURE." Embarrassed, I realized the assembly was over, and I had no clue what to do... I seen Seifer talking to some girl who works at the library, and felt jealous, and angry at him, as if he were mine... heh. I was told to go back to my dorm and await further announcments, since sleet had started to come down to the ground. Shanai and I returned to our dorm, and I regretted everything.
"Hey, you. I know your secret." !
"TALK ABOUT. WHAT?"
"... You like Seifer."
"?! NEGATIVE."
"Ooh, come on! You always stare at him..."
"...DO NOT."
"ATTENTION ALL ELDER CLASSMEN. PLEASE COME TO THE QUAD IMMEDIATELY. BRING YOUR WEAPONS. WE ARE UNDER ATTACK. LIBRARY STAFF- TAKE THE JUNIOR CLASSMEN OUT INTO THE FIRE CAVERN. I REPEAT..."
"Lets go! I'll talk to you when I get back!" She said, smiling. I got a bad feeling... Dammit... Shanai.~*~*~
I shut off the kitchen lights and crept toward the bedroom, trying desperatley not to wake anyone up. The door opened, and I jumped back, hiding in the shadows- and watched. Raijin left. What is he doing?... Sighing, I went into the bedroom, and layed on my bed. I got up in a rush, feeling sick and dizzy. I clutched my stomach. I guess I had thought too much...
"You okay...?" Seifer asked, sitting up when I came back from puking in the bathroom.
"...You don't care. Neither do I. Lets just sleep, alright?" I had to go to work tommorow, I didn't want to...
***
...After work the next day I came home, unforutnately, and realized it was Seifer's day off... And Raijin was still gone. When I entered, he was sitting on the sofa, reading a Weapons Monthly. I didn't say anything, and put my bag down on the chair.
"Hey..." Go away, bastard.
"Uh... GREETINGS." I didn't feel so well, and I didn't want to have to deal with Seifer, so I walked toward the bedroom.
~*~*~"Ms. Sanada, you go to the front gate, make sure no one gets in. You'll be working with Nida Tanaka." A SeeD said to me. I looked up and nodded, heading toward the front gate. Nida wasn't there, so I was left to fight off twenty opposing soliders with just my shuriken. I was drawn outside, where the sleet soaked me and made me cold, and numb all over. But I continued to fight- I didn't even know why. ...But then, a rather large man came up to me. He had a sword. I was scared, for this man was larger then Raijin... And I'm pretty sure he'd hit girls... We fought for awhile, and just when I thought I was winning... It happened. I heard screaming. I looked up toward the Quad to see a person who I later identified as Shanai being pushed off the edge by older soliders. She grasped the railing for dear life.
"No, no, no!" I said. Then the man I was fighting rushed toward me, bringing the blade of his sword across the left side of my face. I swung my shuriken at him... and he was hurt badly. He fell toward the ground. I looked up to see someone trying to help Shanai up. Then I realized only my right eye was working... I was so shocked, but when I seen the person fall, grasping the edge, the pain numbed over, and I ran into the Garden, running quickly toward the Quad, which was empty, save for four hands, slipping fast on the wet ground. I ran toward them, sleet and blood causing my hair to cling to my face. Then I looked, and seen who the second person was. Seifer. I didn't have time to plan out who to save. Shanai would be easier to pull up... No! Then Seifer would die... It wasn't my place to decide who lives or dies. I seen Shanai slipping, and Seifer was losing grip also...
"Fuck. I'm sorry." I said. Reaching for Seifer's wrist. I pulled on him, and he was so god damned heavy for my 90 pounds. Sometime during my saving him, Shanai fell to her death. I finally pulled him up, and was so tired. Glad my hair was covering my injured eye, my right eye started to cry, and I was thankful for the wetness coming from the sky. I crawled over to the edge of the Balcony and looked over, seeing Shanai's body mangled on the ground below... Why did I save Seifer, dammit?! I pounded my fist on the ground, and I felt Seifer pull me back away from the edge. He held me... and let me cry.~*~*~
I sat up in bed, glancing around, my eyes resting on the clock, which read 8:23 pm. Sighing, I walked out of the bedroom. Seifer was still reading the magazine, and I sighed.
"Hey, Fujin?"
"Hmm...?" I said, sitting on the arm of the sofa.
"...You feel okay?" Just tired, Seifer.
"AFFIRMATIVE. WHY ASK?"
"I dunno, I mean, you looked sick when you woke up this morning, and look tired now... You okay?" You don't care! Why are you asking me?!
"...FINE..."
"Alright, alright." I stood up and walked into the kitchen... I was really tired... So... tired... I dragged my feet back into the living room, trying desperately to make it to the bedroom with out Seifer noticing. I staggered.
"You drunk...?!"
"...Fuck you." I muttered, not wanted anymore of his puns. I waltzed into the bedroom. Dazed, I fell onto Seifer's bed unintentionally, and slept.
~*~*~I woke up in the infirmary, with an eyepatch on my left eye. I stood up, ashamed of letting Seifer see me cry, and looked around. It was morning and the Garden was no longer in chaos. I checked out of the infirmary, trying hard to adjust to only having one eye. People looked at me oddly as I walked by, and when I seen Seifer and Raijin, instead of stalking them, I ran the other way to my dorm. But, upon entering, I seen Shanai's things, and left, not being able to take it... It was as if I *killed* her... Classes were discontinued for the next five days, and I took the oppurtunity to go to Balamb. I exited Garden, paying no heed to the warning of a blizzard from the front gatesman. I went over to that path by the ocean, neverminding the freezing temperatures... And I just thought... about everything. About three hours later (Yes, I am able to think without interuption for so long), the tide came in, soaking my pants, since I was kneeling. I jumped backwards, right into someone.
"Aah, APOLOGIES."
"...Don't apologize." It was Seifer naturally- how did he find me...? ~*~*~
"Fujin..."
"Yes?" I muttered, not bothering to open my eyes to whoever was standing over me. I covered my head with the pillow. It smelled oddly... Leather and blood...? Seifer. Ooh... I'm in Seifer's bed... Dammit... I didn't mean to... Thats probably him, going to yell at me...
"Get the fuck out of my bed, unless you want sex." ...Yep... getting out of bed right now.
"APOLOGIES."
"Yeah, s'right. Now, go on." I tossed the pillow to the foot of the bed and looked at the time. Midnight. Oops. I glanced up at Seifer, who was standing over me- shirtless, and on my way to my bed, I glanced at his back. It looked a little better...
The next morning, I felt sick again, and decided it was best for me to go get some medicine at the drug store. So, I climbed out of bed, and headed toward the closet to get some clothes. Raijin *still* wasn't home...
"Where do you think *you're* going?"
"...Just out..."
"I see..."
***
I entered the drugstore, and looked around for the counter where the pharmicists were.
"Hi, how can I help you today?"
"DIZZY. TIRED. SICK. REGURGITATE. MEDICINE; WHERE?"
"...Hmm... Well, lets see... Hmm..." She typed something up on the computer.
"YES?"
"Well, I suggest you try what I'm about to give you, and if it doesn't come out to be the cause, take some of this medicine. I'll give you both in a sec, lemme just go get them and package them." She walked off, and I sighed, wondering what she'd give me. She handed me a paper bag.
"Thats fifty gil." I put it on the table and left, heading home. Seifer was obviously still in bed, so I went into the bathroom, and leaned against the sink, pulling out the bottle of medicine. It was some odd purple stuff. I pulled out the second thing. A box. I read the label. "Odine Pregnacy Test." Hah, yeah, okay. I took it, and waited the two minutes I was supposed to, already knowing the results were negative.
"Fujin, you in there?"
"AFFIRMATIVE. LEAVE ALONE."
"...Fine." I heard him walk away just as I seen letters fade in. Positive. No. I read it wrong. I felt dizzy. No, no,no... Wait. I read the label again. "100% reliable." ...N-no... There must be a mistake... I could feel tears.
"N-no." I sobbed, feeling tears flowing. Can't be... Five minutes later, I wiped away my tears, took a shower, and walked out of the bathroom. Seifer was laying face down on the sofa. I could see some blood seeping through on his grey t-shirt. Should I help him...? No, the bastard impregnated me... But its really not his fault... Yes it is...
"Um, Seifer?"
"...Go 'way."
"...But, Seifer."
"I told you, I'm not going to Garden." ...Sighing, I lifted his t-shirt, only to see the center of the cut bleeding. I wiped away the blood with the tip of my finger and looked at it. His blood... Shaking my head at how stupid I was acting, I walked into the bathroom and grabbed the iodine. I brought it back in, and looked down at his back, cut still bleeding. I wiped away more blood with my fingers, glad the bleeding wasn't that bad. I put the iodine on the cut, and Seifer woke up immediately.
"Friggin' hell?!" He jumped off the sofa, instinctively reaching for his gunblade. I dropped the iodine, looking at him shaking my head. I walked into the kitchen with one word on my mind. Abortion.
