"S-seifer... I'm gonna go lay down on my bed... I'm gonna let you rest..."
The tone in her voice haunted me as I tried over and again to sleep... She sounded untrusting... I mean, who would trust me? I just cut her open... The blood lust was more than the usual sexual lust I had, and that was pretty scary... heh. She glared at me before she had climbed into bed, clutching her arm... Dammit! I finally got up and went into the living room, just in time to see Raijin walk in.
"Raijin. Hey, where the fuck have you been?"
"...Uhh, just hanging, ya know?!"
"...Hanging? The hell? Hanging where and how?"
"...Well, errr, ya know... I, uh, found a girlfriend! Yeah! Ya know?"
"...Sure." I didn't believe him, but I wasn't really in the protesting mood, so he went into the bedroom, where he probably slept. I didn't understand where he had been, or how the hell he could have a girlfriend, but whatever. I plopped on the sofa, pinching my eyes shut and sighing, realizing I didn't understand alot of things, and was quickly and steadily shedding my cool, "big and bad" exterior for an emotional one, in which there were feelings that I had never felt before. Not quite understanding, I groaned, rolling over on my side, only to feel the cut on my back open, and blood come out... Fuck it. I waited there, for sleep to come, but the son of a bitch never showed up. Actually I think he peeked in for a minute, but ran back out... Fucking coward...
~*~*~
"MORNING. SLEEP WELL?" She greeted me.
"...Yeah. You?"
"I..."
"Didn't." I finished for her. She frowned, nodding, then glared back outside. Oops. I made her upset alot back then, angry and the like... Now I just make her depressed... She doesn't yell at me, or scold me... She just sighs... Fuck...
"...BLOCKED IN HOTEL. SNOW. THREE FEET." I had mixed emotions at this time, because getting locked up with Fujin can get scary. But then again, "bonding time..." AKA, sex, in my book, anyway.
"So, uh... what choo wanna do?"
"...NOTHING."
"Ah... Oh..."
"WHY? SOMETHING IN MIND?" She turned, smirking seductivly. So god damn alluring.
"...Well, maybe..."
"OH?"
"Yeah..."
"TOO BAD." ~*~*~
Bitch. God...fuck. I could feel sleep start to tease me, but I pushed it away. I had to leave for work soon anyway. Fujin came out of the bedroom, and probably thinking I was asleep, approached me. I decided to play along. I shut my eyes, and with my back facing her, she lifted the back of my shirt, glancing at the blood that had seeped out. She ran her fingers across my back, causing the hairs on the back of my neck to rise. She began to utter words that I could only hear bits and peices of.
"Seifer... I don't... understand... I don't know how to say this... And maybe you'll hear me through your sleep. I know its a stupid concept... but... I'm leaving... Yes... I..." She continued to wipe away stray blood with her fingers, then pulled the back of my shirt down, then turned me over, and I tried desperatly to keep my eyes shut as she brought her lips to mine. I couldn't help but pull her down on top of me, still not opening my eyes.
"Don't go away."
"I can't stay here."
"Then I'll come with you."
"...Seifer... its you that I'm fleeing from."
"...Why?" I sat her up, and sat up along with her, realizing maybe... it was time. Fuck... time for what...? I'm in denial... I'm stronger than this...!
"I... I..."
"Shh, just stay... alright? I won't pull any of that shit on you ever again..."
"Seifer... You... scared me..." She uttered, burying her face in my shoulder. Regaining her composure (which is very important to her) soon after, she sat up, and brushed away any stray tears that may have fallen.
"I... I'm fucking sorry okay? ...I mean, er, I'm sorry..." I fuck everything up, I swear to fucking god.
"You're... sorry? Do you mean that?" It was then that I realized that Fujin was a very emotional person she just never dared to show her emotions, which is why she talked the way she did, though that was even slowly coming undone... She saved my life on two occasions...
~*~*~He gazed down to the waves that crashed against the land that was keeping him alive... He wanted nothing more at that moment than to be one of those waves- crashing against the cliff. Catching the next person who decided to escape the treacherous world around him. Escape... to escape. The guilt and depression soaked into his skin more so than the rain which poured down from the heavens- only to help him... The guilt was washing throughout his body, on his face, underneath his skin, and within every living cell... What if he were to kill off every living cell within? He glared into the water one final time. So, this is how he would go... The merciless knight who stood by the most powerful forces.... The man who refused to hand over the key to saving the world... The man who had a posse under him... Yet he had quite the burden from all that above him. Which is why he took a deep breath, and then took a step forward. This is the end.
"SEIFER!" She had called me... Fujin? I had turned, surprised, placing my right foot back on solid ground.
"Wha...?" She ran toward me, grasping my trenchcoat sleeve.
"There you are... What are you doing?" It was after I had lost to Squall at Lunatic Pandora, they left, and I had decided to get rid of myself... For the fucking world.
"...Saving the fucking world."
"WHAT? EXPLAIN." She crossed her arms, looking up at me, straight in the eye.
"Look, the world will be better off without me... So, I'm doing this for the world..."
"Seifer..." She took a deep breath, and let it out slowly, casting her gaze at the ground, then back up at me. "You... You are my world..." What did she mean? Maybe I'm beginning to understand now... ~*~*~
"Of course... I'm fucking sorry... I'm sorry..."
"Seifer..."
"Yeah?"
"...Thank you."
"For what?" She was *thanking* me? The fuck? ...What did I do...?
"...For... apologizing... I... appreciate it."
"...?" What did she mean? What was she saying exactly...? Did she hate me? ...Damn... "What?"
"Yeah..." She got up and walked into the bedroom slowly. Was she still leaving? Probably not. I stood up and walked into the kitchen, where I sat, and thought, and thought... ... And... slept.
The tone in her voice haunted me as I tried over and again to sleep... She sounded untrusting... I mean, who would trust me? I just cut her open... The blood lust was more than the usual sexual lust I had, and that was pretty scary... heh. She glared at me before she had climbed into bed, clutching her arm... Dammit! I finally got up and went into the living room, just in time to see Raijin walk in.
"Raijin. Hey, where the fuck have you been?"
"...Uhh, just hanging, ya know?!"
"...Hanging? The hell? Hanging where and how?"
"...Well, errr, ya know... I, uh, found a girlfriend! Yeah! Ya know?"
"...Sure." I didn't believe him, but I wasn't really in the protesting mood, so he went into the bedroom, where he probably slept. I didn't understand where he had been, or how the hell he could have a girlfriend, but whatever. I plopped on the sofa, pinching my eyes shut and sighing, realizing I didn't understand alot of things, and was quickly and steadily shedding my cool, "big and bad" exterior for an emotional one, in which there were feelings that I had never felt before. Not quite understanding, I groaned, rolling over on my side, only to feel the cut on my back open, and blood come out... Fuck it. I waited there, for sleep to come, but the son of a bitch never showed up. Actually I think he peeked in for a minute, but ran back out... Fucking coward...
~*~*~
"MORNING. SLEEP WELL?" She greeted me.
"...Yeah. You?"
"I..."
"Didn't." I finished for her. She frowned, nodding, then glared back outside. Oops. I made her upset alot back then, angry and the like... Now I just make her depressed... She doesn't yell at me, or scold me... She just sighs... Fuck...
"...BLOCKED IN HOTEL. SNOW. THREE FEET." I had mixed emotions at this time, because getting locked up with Fujin can get scary. But then again, "bonding time..." AKA, sex, in my book, anyway.
"So, uh... what choo wanna do?"
"...NOTHING."
"Ah... Oh..."
"WHY? SOMETHING IN MIND?" She turned, smirking seductivly. So god damn alluring.
"...Well, maybe..."
"OH?"
"Yeah..."
"TOO BAD." ~*~*~
Bitch. God...fuck. I could feel sleep start to tease me, but I pushed it away. I had to leave for work soon anyway. Fujin came out of the bedroom, and probably thinking I was asleep, approached me. I decided to play along. I shut my eyes, and with my back facing her, she lifted the back of my shirt, glancing at the blood that had seeped out. She ran her fingers across my back, causing the hairs on the back of my neck to rise. She began to utter words that I could only hear bits and peices of.
"Seifer... I don't... understand... I don't know how to say this... And maybe you'll hear me through your sleep. I know its a stupid concept... but... I'm leaving... Yes... I..." She continued to wipe away stray blood with her fingers, then pulled the back of my shirt down, then turned me over, and I tried desperatly to keep my eyes shut as she brought her lips to mine. I couldn't help but pull her down on top of me, still not opening my eyes.
"Don't go away."
"I can't stay here."
"Then I'll come with you."
"...Seifer... its you that I'm fleeing from."
"...Why?" I sat her up, and sat up along with her, realizing maybe... it was time. Fuck... time for what...? I'm in denial... I'm stronger than this...!
"I... I..."
"Shh, just stay... alright? I won't pull any of that shit on you ever again..."
"Seifer... You... scared me..." She uttered, burying her face in my shoulder. Regaining her composure (which is very important to her) soon after, she sat up, and brushed away any stray tears that may have fallen.
"I... I'm fucking sorry okay? ...I mean, er, I'm sorry..." I fuck everything up, I swear to fucking god.
"You're... sorry? Do you mean that?" It was then that I realized that Fujin was a very emotional person she just never dared to show her emotions, which is why she talked the way she did, though that was even slowly coming undone... She saved my life on two occasions...
~*~*~He gazed down to the waves that crashed against the land that was keeping him alive... He wanted nothing more at that moment than to be one of those waves- crashing against the cliff. Catching the next person who decided to escape the treacherous world around him. Escape... to escape. The guilt and depression soaked into his skin more so than the rain which poured down from the heavens- only to help him... The guilt was washing throughout his body, on his face, underneath his skin, and within every living cell... What if he were to kill off every living cell within? He glared into the water one final time. So, this is how he would go... The merciless knight who stood by the most powerful forces.... The man who refused to hand over the key to saving the world... The man who had a posse under him... Yet he had quite the burden from all that above him. Which is why he took a deep breath, and then took a step forward. This is the end.
"SEIFER!" She had called me... Fujin? I had turned, surprised, placing my right foot back on solid ground.
"Wha...?" She ran toward me, grasping my trenchcoat sleeve.
"There you are... What are you doing?" It was after I had lost to Squall at Lunatic Pandora, they left, and I had decided to get rid of myself... For the fucking world.
"...Saving the fucking world."
"WHAT? EXPLAIN." She crossed her arms, looking up at me, straight in the eye.
"Look, the world will be better off without me... So, I'm doing this for the world..."
"Seifer..." She took a deep breath, and let it out slowly, casting her gaze at the ground, then back up at me. "You... You are my world..." What did she mean? Maybe I'm beginning to understand now... ~*~*~
"Of course... I'm fucking sorry... I'm sorry..."
"Seifer..."
"Yeah?"
"...Thank you."
"For what?" She was *thanking* me? The fuck? ...What did I do...?
"...For... apologizing... I... appreciate it."
"...?" What did she mean? What was she saying exactly...? Did she hate me? ...Damn... "What?"
"Yeah..." She got up and walked into the bedroom slowly. Was she still leaving? Probably not. I stood up and walked into the kitchen, where I sat, and thought, and thought... ... And... slept.
