*** Now for something I haven't done since the second WWF fic I wrote...Matt angst (well, kinda). The song I use for this chapter is "Story of a Lonely Guy" by Blink 182. Every now and then my those guys can actually be sensitive! I hope you like this one. ***
// Push it out
fake a smile //
"Hey Matt," Christian said when he saw Matt in the halls of the arena.
"Oh hey," Matt said. "What are you up to?"
"I just heard my loser of a brother saying some serious shit about you," Christian said. "I just thought I would tell you."
"Thanks I guess," Matt said.
"What's that all about anyways?" Christian asked. "I mean, everybody seems mad at you."
"Lita and I broke up," Matt said.
"So?" Christian said. "Were you cheating on her or something?"
"Very tactful," Matt said dryly.
// avert disaster
just in time. //
Matt turned to walk away from Christian and almost smacked right into his brother. "Sorry Jeff."
"Yeah, whatever," Jeff said.
"What the hell is your problem?" Matt asked. "You act like I freaking did something to you!"
"You hurt my best friend Matt," Jeff said. "I guess you really don't care though, do you?"
"There's only so many ways I can apologize!" Matt said. "And why I would have to apologize to you I really don't know."
"Why can't you just admit you messed up?" Jeff asked.
"I have!" Matt exclaimed. "I think you just want an excuse to be mad at me. I'm the one who lost Lita! Me! She's still talking to you Jeff, so don't act all wounded!"
// I need a drink //
"I'll have what he's having," a familiar voice said next to Matt.
"You sure you want to sit this close?" Matt asked. "I seem to be a pariah."
"Hey, I don't think what you did was cool," Jericho said. "But I don't see any reason to pretend you don't exist either."
"Wow," Matt said. "You're more forgiving than my brother."
"Well," Jericho said. "He is her best friend."
"I know," Matt said. "Do you know where Lita ran away to anyways?"
"Yeah, she's staying with Steph for awhile," Jericho said. "I'm going there day after tomorrow."
"Do you think you could tell her I'm sorry again?" Matt asked. "Tell her that I never wanted to hurt her."
"Yeah," Jericho said.
// cause in a while
worthless answer
from friends of mine. //
"Matt!" Stacy Kiebler exclaimed. "I haven't seen you in forever!"
"There's a reason for that," Matt said. "I have a plane to catch. Later."
"Wait!" Stacy exclaimed. "I thought that maybe since you and Lita were broken up now we could, you know, go out on a date."
"No," Matt said.
"Come on Matt," Stacy said. "You know you want to."
"No I really don't," Matt said.
"Why not?" Stacy pouted.
"Because Stacy, I just lost the woman I love," Matt said. "I don't really just want to start going out with you."
// It's dumb to ask
cool to ignore //
"You look like shit," Jeff said when he dropped by Matt's house.
"Thanks," Matt said dryly.
"Yeah, no prob," Jeff said. "I just wanted to apologize for the way I've been acting the past couple of weeks."
"Yeah, sure," Matt said. "Don't worry about it."
"Okay," Jeff said uncertainly. "So you miss her?"
"Yeah," Matt said. "I never thought I would miss her this bad."
"I'm sorry bro," Jeff said.
// girls posess me
but they're never mine //
"She's coming back," Jeff finally said.
"Yeah?" Matt asked. "When?"
"For RAW," Jeff said. "She wants us all to be a team still."
"Yeah?" Matt asked.
"Of course," Jeff said. "She thinks it should still work. She just wants to start using another dressing room and renting her own car and stuff like that."
"Okay," Matt said.
"We don't have to if you don't want to," Jeff said.
"I want to!" Matt protested.
// I made my entrance
avoided hazards //
Lita couldn't help but look over at Matt when they came out for a match. It was the first time since they had broken up. He smiled softly when he heard the extra roar for her. He turned his head and looked at her. She gave him a small smile.
It felt good to be back, she thought. She knew the other wrestlers hadn't been treating Matt so well. She didn't like that. She thought maybe if she stayed on Team Xtreme, his friends would eventually come to their senses. He may have hurt her, but he didn't deserve to be alienated from everyone.
She celebrated with Matt and Jeff in the ring after they beat Test and Christian. She took Matt's hand and raised it to the air in victory. He looked over at her in shock. And then he grinned.
// checked my engine
I fell behind
I fell behind //
"Lita," Matt said when he ran into her in the elevator of the hotel. "I've missed you."
"I've missed you too," Lita said.
"I'm glad you decided to come back to the team," Matt said. "I'm sure you did it for Jeff, but I'm still really glad."
"Yeah," Lita said, not mentioning she had come back to the team to help him. "I'm glad to be back."
"Good," Matt said. "If there's anything you need us to do for you, let me know."
// She makes me feel like it's raining outside
and when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside //
"Red!" Edge called to Lita. Lita turned to wave at her friend.
"So, I'm definitely coming out for the Dudleys match right?" Lita asked Matt.
"Yeah," Matt said.
Edge came up behind Lita and hugged her. She turned around and returned the hug. Matt managed to cover his frown before she turned back around. "I'll see you right before the match."
"Yeah," Matt said, watching jealously as Lita walked away with Edge.
// i'm alway's nervous on days like this, like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy. //
"I want another chance," Matt said to himself in the mirror. "I think we belong together."
"Talking to yourself bro?" Jeff asked when he walked into the dressing room.
"No, I'm talking to the man in the mirror," Matt retorted.
"Funny," Jeff smirked.
"That's me," Matt said, wringing his hands.
// Remember when
i was in
the grocery story
now's my time //
"Lita," Matt said when she opened her hotel room door.
"What are you doing here Matt?" Lita asked.
"I wanted to talk to you," Matt said. "I want us to try again."
"What?" Lita asked in shock.
"I know I hurt you," Matt said. "But I can make it up to you."
"Matt," Lita sighed.
"What?" Matt asked.
// lost the words
lost my nerve
lost the girl
left a line //
"I'm just not ready to try again," Lita said. "What you did, it hurt my trust in you."
"We can rebuild trust," Matt said.
"Yeah we can," Lita said. "But that's not going to happen overnight. And I don't want to be in a relationship with you if I can't trust you."
"Oh," Matt said.
"Can we work on being friends?" Lita asked hopefully.
"Yeah," Matt said. "You want to go grab some pizza?"
"I don't know," Lita said uncertainly.
"It will give us a chance to catch up," Matt said.
// i would wish
upon a star
but that star
it doesn't shine //
"So Stephanie called Vince and she said," Lita said, talking between laughs. " 'I know you've never had your heart broken, but that's because you don't have a heart. Lita, however, does and you are going to give her some time off or she's going to quit and join some indie and take wrestlers with her. That company will kick your ass someday."
"Would you have quit?" Matt asked.
"No," Lita said. "But it was funny to hear Stephanie threaten Vince like that."
"I can imagine Stephanie telling Vince he's heartless," Matt mused.
"So," Lita said. "What did you do while I was away."
"I was training pretty hard," Matt said. "Just working in the gym and stuff a lot."
"You need to hang out Matt," Lita said. "You were always too serious."
// so read my book
with a boring ending
a short story
of a lonely guy
I fell behind //
Matt watched Lita leave the arena with Jeff, Trish, and Edge. They were going out to a club. Lita looked behind her and saw him. "You want to come?"
"Nah," Matt said. "You guys have fun."
"You sure?" Jeff asked. "You're more than welcome."
"He's hanging out with me tonight," Jericho said, coming up and slinging an arm around Matt's neck. "You guys go on."
"Thanks," Matt said. "I just don't like this friends thing Lita and I are doing."
"It's the only way you're going to get her back," Jericho said. "But I think you do need to give her some time. Give yourself some time too."
"Thanks man," Matt said.
// She makes me feel like it's raining outside
and when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside //
"You want to come off-roading with Matt and I next week?" Jeff asked Lita.
"Off-roading huh?" Lita asked. "Is this going to be over a man-made volcano?"
"Not this time," Jeff chuckled.
"Sounds like fun," Lita said. "Count me in. It'll be just like old times."
"Yeah," Jeff said. "Those were the days."
"Yeah," Matt agreed.
// i'm alway's nervous on days like this, like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a worthless stupid boy. //
// Push it out
fake a smile //
"Hey Matt," Christian said when he saw Matt in the halls of the arena.
"Oh hey," Matt said. "What are you up to?"
"I just heard my loser of a brother saying some serious shit about you," Christian said. "I just thought I would tell you."
"Thanks I guess," Matt said.
"What's that all about anyways?" Christian asked. "I mean, everybody seems mad at you."
"Lita and I broke up," Matt said.
"So?" Christian said. "Were you cheating on her or something?"
"Very tactful," Matt said dryly.
// avert disaster
just in time. //
Matt turned to walk away from Christian and almost smacked right into his brother. "Sorry Jeff."
"Yeah, whatever," Jeff said.
"What the hell is your problem?" Matt asked. "You act like I freaking did something to you!"
"You hurt my best friend Matt," Jeff said. "I guess you really don't care though, do you?"
"There's only so many ways I can apologize!" Matt said. "And why I would have to apologize to you I really don't know."
"Why can't you just admit you messed up?" Jeff asked.
"I have!" Matt exclaimed. "I think you just want an excuse to be mad at me. I'm the one who lost Lita! Me! She's still talking to you Jeff, so don't act all wounded!"
// I need a drink //
"I'll have what he's having," a familiar voice said next to Matt.
"You sure you want to sit this close?" Matt asked. "I seem to be a pariah."
"Hey, I don't think what you did was cool," Jericho said. "But I don't see any reason to pretend you don't exist either."
"Wow," Matt said. "You're more forgiving than my brother."
"Well," Jericho said. "He is her best friend."
"I know," Matt said. "Do you know where Lita ran away to anyways?"
"Yeah, she's staying with Steph for awhile," Jericho said. "I'm going there day after tomorrow."
"Do you think you could tell her I'm sorry again?" Matt asked. "Tell her that I never wanted to hurt her."
"Yeah," Jericho said.
// cause in a while
worthless answer
from friends of mine. //
"Matt!" Stacy Kiebler exclaimed. "I haven't seen you in forever!"
"There's a reason for that," Matt said. "I have a plane to catch. Later."
"Wait!" Stacy exclaimed. "I thought that maybe since you and Lita were broken up now we could, you know, go out on a date."
"No," Matt said.
"Come on Matt," Stacy said. "You know you want to."
"No I really don't," Matt said.
"Why not?" Stacy pouted.
"Because Stacy, I just lost the woman I love," Matt said. "I don't really just want to start going out with you."
// It's dumb to ask
cool to ignore //
"You look like shit," Jeff said when he dropped by Matt's house.
"Thanks," Matt said dryly.
"Yeah, no prob," Jeff said. "I just wanted to apologize for the way I've been acting the past couple of weeks."
"Yeah, sure," Matt said. "Don't worry about it."
"Okay," Jeff said uncertainly. "So you miss her?"
"Yeah," Matt said. "I never thought I would miss her this bad."
"I'm sorry bro," Jeff said.
// girls posess me
but they're never mine //
"She's coming back," Jeff finally said.
"Yeah?" Matt asked. "When?"
"For RAW," Jeff said. "She wants us all to be a team still."
"Yeah?" Matt asked.
"Of course," Jeff said. "She thinks it should still work. She just wants to start using another dressing room and renting her own car and stuff like that."
"Okay," Matt said.
"We don't have to if you don't want to," Jeff said.
"I want to!" Matt protested.
// I made my entrance
avoided hazards //
Lita couldn't help but look over at Matt when they came out for a match. It was the first time since they had broken up. He smiled softly when he heard the extra roar for her. He turned his head and looked at her. She gave him a small smile.
It felt good to be back, she thought. She knew the other wrestlers hadn't been treating Matt so well. She didn't like that. She thought maybe if she stayed on Team Xtreme, his friends would eventually come to their senses. He may have hurt her, but he didn't deserve to be alienated from everyone.
She celebrated with Matt and Jeff in the ring after they beat Test and Christian. She took Matt's hand and raised it to the air in victory. He looked over at her in shock. And then he grinned.
// checked my engine
I fell behind
I fell behind //
"Lita," Matt said when he ran into her in the elevator of the hotel. "I've missed you."
"I've missed you too," Lita said.
"I'm glad you decided to come back to the team," Matt said. "I'm sure you did it for Jeff, but I'm still really glad."
"Yeah," Lita said, not mentioning she had come back to the team to help him. "I'm glad to be back."
"Good," Matt said. "If there's anything you need us to do for you, let me know."
// She makes me feel like it's raining outside
and when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside //
"Red!" Edge called to Lita. Lita turned to wave at her friend.
"So, I'm definitely coming out for the Dudleys match right?" Lita asked Matt.
"Yeah," Matt said.
Edge came up behind Lita and hugged her. She turned around and returned the hug. Matt managed to cover his frown before she turned back around. "I'll see you right before the match."
"Yeah," Matt said, watching jealously as Lita walked away with Edge.
// i'm alway's nervous on days like this, like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy. //
"I want another chance," Matt said to himself in the mirror. "I think we belong together."
"Talking to yourself bro?" Jeff asked when he walked into the dressing room.
"No, I'm talking to the man in the mirror," Matt retorted.
"Funny," Jeff smirked.
"That's me," Matt said, wringing his hands.
// Remember when
i was in
the grocery story
now's my time //
"Lita," Matt said when she opened her hotel room door.
"What are you doing here Matt?" Lita asked.
"I wanted to talk to you," Matt said. "I want us to try again."
"What?" Lita asked in shock.
"I know I hurt you," Matt said. "But I can make it up to you."
"Matt," Lita sighed.
"What?" Matt asked.
// lost the words
lost my nerve
lost the girl
left a line //
"I'm just not ready to try again," Lita said. "What you did, it hurt my trust in you."
"We can rebuild trust," Matt said.
"Yeah we can," Lita said. "But that's not going to happen overnight. And I don't want to be in a relationship with you if I can't trust you."
"Oh," Matt said.
"Can we work on being friends?" Lita asked hopefully.
"Yeah," Matt said. "You want to go grab some pizza?"
"I don't know," Lita said uncertainly.
"It will give us a chance to catch up," Matt said.
// i would wish
upon a star
but that star
it doesn't shine //
"So Stephanie called Vince and she said," Lita said, talking between laughs. " 'I know you've never had your heart broken, but that's because you don't have a heart. Lita, however, does and you are going to give her some time off or she's going to quit and join some indie and take wrestlers with her. That company will kick your ass someday."
"Would you have quit?" Matt asked.
"No," Lita said. "But it was funny to hear Stephanie threaten Vince like that."
"I can imagine Stephanie telling Vince he's heartless," Matt mused.
"So," Lita said. "What did you do while I was away."
"I was training pretty hard," Matt said. "Just working in the gym and stuff a lot."
"You need to hang out Matt," Lita said. "You were always too serious."
// so read my book
with a boring ending
a short story
of a lonely guy
I fell behind //
Matt watched Lita leave the arena with Jeff, Trish, and Edge. They were going out to a club. Lita looked behind her and saw him. "You want to come?"
"Nah," Matt said. "You guys have fun."
"You sure?" Jeff asked. "You're more than welcome."
"He's hanging out with me tonight," Jericho said, coming up and slinging an arm around Matt's neck. "You guys go on."
"Thanks," Matt said. "I just don't like this friends thing Lita and I are doing."
"It's the only way you're going to get her back," Jericho said. "But I think you do need to give her some time. Give yourself some time too."
"Thanks man," Matt said.
// She makes me feel like it's raining outside
and when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside //
"You want to come off-roading with Matt and I next week?" Jeff asked Lita.
"Off-roading huh?" Lita asked. "Is this going to be over a man-made volcano?"
"Not this time," Jeff chuckled.
"Sounds like fun," Lita said. "Count me in. It'll be just like old times."
"Yeah," Jeff said. "Those were the days."
"Yeah," Matt agreed.
// i'm alway's nervous on days like this, like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a worthless stupid boy. //
