Chapter 20: Self-Doubt
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~~~~~Margaret's P.O.V. ~~~~~
It's like three in the morning and I turn to look at Zack whose sound asleep. I figure if I'm quiet enough he won't notice the fact that I'm leaving. So I get up as quietly as possible, put on my clothes, grab my keys and walk out the door.
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I don't even no why I ended up HERE, of all places a church? When I walked in, there were barely any people there //I mean come on what'd you think it's three in the morning!// So I walked over to the cross that had all the almost burned out candles in front of it and I lit a candle and just started to say everything that had been buggin' me. "Oh dear god help me please help me. I finally have the one thing I've always wanted and that's the man I love but I fear if I pursue our relationship I'll lose my brother forever and I don't want that to happen. I mean I already lost my mother and both my fathers and I don't wanna lose my brother but I don't wanna give up my one true love. Oh god what am I gonna do?" Margaret hadn't noticed one of the fathers had sat a few rows behind her and when he saw that she was done he said...
Father: Maybe you should try talking to your brother.
Margaret (a bit startled): Excuse me?
Father: I'm sorry to have been eavesdropping but maybe you should try talking to your brother.
Margaret: I know you're just trying to help father but how can I even talk to my brother when he refuses to see me?
Father: Well then you're gonna have to be the one to go see him and don't leave until he has listened to everything you have to say.
Margaret (a little smile): Thank you father.
Father (smile): Your welcome my child.
After my little chat with the father I headed back to Zack's place.
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When I got there I noticed Zack stirring around in bed and his hand was reaching over to my side of the bed but I wasn't there. So I took off my boots and jacket and I climbed back into bed without taking my clothes off. As I lied down I gave him a kiss and his arm rested on my stomach then I turned on my side facing him and put my arm around his waist. All the while I was thinking that either tomorrow is gonna be the best day or the worst day of my life and if it's the worst then tonight is the last night I get to sleep in Zack's arms.
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TBC
A/N: Does anyone want me to bring Lydecker into the mix? You know like as the villain or something cuz I was thinking I would make Amber and Shawn the villains and then if I make a sequel to this one then I would bring 'Deck in as the villain so what do you guys think? Opinions are much appreciated and reviews are too!
