Title: It's Been Awhile

Author: David William Cooper

E-Mail: Doctor_Hannibal_Lector@Hotmail.com

Rating: R

Category: Angst, MSR, Major Character Death

Keywords: None

Spoliers: Entire Romance Arch!

Disclaimer: Chris...Frank...John...Vince...we all love you...used to...still do...these are yours...I'm just playing with em...excuse me now...you and 1013 can keep em when I am done!

Detication: To The Sweet, Sweet, Sweet Jackie!

Summary: It's Been Awhile Since Mulder Told Scully How He Really Feels...



It's Been Awhile

By

David William Cooper



FBI Headquarters

Washington, D.C.

11:21 PM

Pain. Something that we as humans have many feelings that apply to it as a word. The fear of not knowing what someone thinks of you, being shot down, or losing someone close to you. We fear these things because we fear the Pain it will bring. As I lie here...in the basement bolier room of the FBI Headquarters in Washington, D.C...staring at the wall, with its redish glow and dolar tint with the sound of gas whistling in the air...I think of my lost Love and the Pain it brings me to have never told her how I truely feel. To be shown up by a fuck off who dosn't know a damn thing about the paranormal, John Doggett...her new friend...and more, as I seem to see in her eyes. More Pain to add to my death bed. I lie here. Alone. No one to tell me it'll be okay. It is his fault I am here. He threw me here after shooting me. Thinking that this will make her feelings for me go away. Son of a bitch killed his own Love...Monica Reyes...and her secret lover, Brad Follmer not too long ago. Says alot about him, dosn't it?

Forever and a day we all sit and wonder who we are and when or if our answers can ever really be answered. They say that in death all are. This is not what I wish to know. I force myself to tell Scully how I feel, but how? I slowly write in my own blood...the last dying words of a madman...'I luv u DaNa' and slowly the darkness closes in.

~The End~