Chapter 4
Suicidal Temptations
Asuka ran, quickly, to NERV. By the time she was there, the weather had turned to rain,
making the conditions not good for Asuka. She made it, but to her, she wouldn't have
cared if she died anyway. That was what she was a NERV for.
To Commit suicide.
She only had access to one tall building in all if Tokyo-3, and that was the
NERV building. She built up everything she had inside of her, and stepped into the
elevator. She aggressively hit the button '3', and the elevator started rising. Asuka
was breathing heavily, when suddenly, the lights went out.
"The hell? Why aren't the backup generators kicking in?" she said, kicking the
wall of the elevator. "Damn, just my luck..." she said, slumping to the ground. She sat
there, and thought of the day's events. First Finding the baby...then admitting her love...
having that weird dream...fighting with her love...and now suicide? This just was one
unusual day.
Unable to fight off the darkness, Asuka closed her eyes, to think. But instead,
she fell right to sleep. Then, yet another weird dream came...

^V^
Asuka was in a black room. She was surrounded in nothing, floating in nothing. She
looked around, looking for anything instead of herself. All she found was darkness to
greet her. Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, she heard a voice.
"Asuka, do you really love me?" Shinji said, Asuka turning to greet him, to find him
there, scowling at her. "Do you really love me? Or are you using me? You are using
me!" he said, yelling.
Out of fear, she turned, to be met by another Shinji, this one closer than
the last. "Yes, I love, you, but your scaring me now!" she said, closing her eyes.
"If you loved me, you would have eased my pain! Why didn't you!" he said,
pushing her.
Yet again, she turned, to be greeted by another Shinji. Turned again, to meet
yet another. Another. Another. And yet another.
"No!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" She said, and slapped the first one. She closed her eyes again,
and sat down, brought her knees to her face, and rocked back and forth. Then,
suddenly, Evangelion Unit 02 was in front of her. It had a demonic look on its face...
it pulled out the special Eva knife, and held it feet from Asuka.
^V^
"Get Away you-" she screamed, just as the Eva thrust his knife into her, to
wake up from the dream, in the now working elevator.
She got up, to be greeted on the intercom by Ritsuko, "Sorry about that
folks, the generators were being repaired upon and we ran out of power. Back to whatever
ou were doing." She said, relieving Asuka.
As the Elevator continued to climb, she found herself thinking of Shinji. Of
logic. Of her life.
Should I commit suicide? If I do, all it'll do is end my sorrow...Isn't that what
I want? No, I want revenge...or his love back...one of the two. But...what if he doesn't want
me back? That would...I wouldn't have anything to do...I couldn't go to heaven from
committing suicide...I'm gonna face him. I don't care what happens I am gonna face him!
As the elevator doors opened, she pressed the '1' button, and the elevator doors
closed, and the small room glided downward.