Feelings

So I have found you
At last
I have begun to worry
When you didn't come home
In this terrible thunderstorm
Tonight

In a church I have found you
Predictable, in a way
I guess
If I'd been raised
By a priest and a nun
I too would seek shelter
In a place like this

It's the music's fault
That I came here
Into the church
It's you
Playing a sad song
On that giant organ
Next to the altar

A requiem
That's what it's called
I remember you once told me
When you thought I didn't listen
to one word you said

Are you mourning?
Someone?
Or something?

Those who raised you?
Friends you lost?
The parents
You never knew?

Or is it the innocence
You lost
Years ago?
You never told me
About it
But somehow
I know

You had to lie down
And take it
Lose your innocence
To keep your friends
And yourself alive

You are still
Playing that requiem
And still I watch you
You are still
Dripping wet
From the rain
Outside the church
And inside your jaded soul
You'll catch a cold for sure

I watch
The stained-glass windows
They are dark
Like the mood
You seem to be caught in

I can't make out the pictures
Of the saints and angels
Which, I'm sure, are displayed
Someday, maybe
I'll come back here
By daylight
And see for myself

Still the tunes
Of the requiem
Ring through the night
No one seems to notice
No one seems to care
For the wounded soul
Playing that sad song
All alone

My eyes are stinging
A new sensation
Tears are streaming
Down my face

I'm crying
Without any reason
It seems
But the reason
The reason is you
Your sadness
Makes me cry

The candles on the altar
So close to you
They are the only source
Of light in here
Their faint flickering
Casts dancing shadows
On the walls

I lose myself
In watching your shadow
There's something odd
About it
Something
I just cannot seem to put my finger on

Something within me
Is breaking
The wall
I had so carefully erected
Around my fragile heart
Comes crashing down
And I open myself
To FEELINGS

And the song you are playing
This nameless song
I've never heard before
Becomes the requiem
For the perfect soldier
That had no heart

And I finally realise
What was so strange
About your shadow
Still dancing on the wall:

It clearly displays your Angel Wings