Chapter Three: Love and Sorrow
"Stupid jeans!!!" The brunette yelled as she tried to button up her jeans but the bulge in her stomach made it seem impossible. "Please, please just one more button…. There!" She exclaimed happily. "That wasn't so bad." She whispered as she put on a large shirt to as if hiding her stomach from all views. She sighed and fell back on her bed. 'I have to tell him.' She spoke. 'Besides who will take care of her or him when I'm gone?' The brunette turned her gaze to the phone on her nightstand with anxiety running freely through her body. 'He said he would…' She stopped herself not wanting to go down that route again.
Duo had told her to stay away from Heero and for the last five months that's what she was doing. She didn't want any more embarrassment or to displease her brother. She knew he was protective sometimes he was too protective but she wouldn't have it any other way. 'I should tell him, but I want Heero to know first.' She sighed as she remembered what her lover had told her before.
Flash back
"Heero wait." Mako spoke as she panted. She looked up at him to see him gazing down at her questionably. "You don't have protection. We should stop."
Heero kissed her forehead before moving to the corner of her lips, kissing her there. And slowly but Seductfully moved to her ear making the woman beneath him shiver with anticipation. "I'll take care of you." He whispered.
End of flash back
'Did he really mean that?' Makoto asked her self as she frowned worriedly. She was afraid Heero would turn her down when she tells him. Telling her that it wasn't his. She was afraid of this because she saw it happen countless times to other girls. And it wasn't like he had told her he loved her or anything. During the four months he had been more distant and cold towards her. Though he had begun to open up to her but the event with her brother and her friends might have caused any chances with him out the window. She had refused to talk to her brother for a full month because of what he had done. She was pissed. It wasn't like he was her father. He had no right to do that. No right at all.
She had recalled earlier when a handsome man had asked her to go out with him. From the corner of her eyes she could see Heero and it looked like he didn't care and had just walked past her as if she wasn't there. Out of anger she had accepted the offer, although it didn't last long. The man was a sweetheart but she never did pay attention to him that much. Her heart was somewhere else and she could help feel guilty though she had no reason too.
Sighing she stood up and walked over to the phone while pushing her fears back. She had to tell him. She had no choice. Quickly dialing his number she waited for him to pick up.
"Hello." A hard voice spoke on the other line making Mako wanting to drop the phone but she held on strong. "Heero it's me." She said softly.
Immediately silence was the only thing that she heard on the other line. Afraid he would hang up she said, "Heero I need to meet you please."
There was another pause. "Why?" He asked her. "Duo…"
"I don't care what he thinks. Please just meet me by the bench where we were last time with Usagi and my brother. Meet me there in ten minutes please." She spoke almost pleading with him.
"Fine." There was a click on the other line and Mako took in a shaky breath as she slowly placed the receiver on the table. She shook her head as tears began to gather stubbornly she pushed them away. 'God damn you Heero.' She whispered with hurt in her voice before she reached for her keys to her dorm and her shoes.
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When Makoto arrived at her destination she was surprised to see Heero. She had thought that he wouldn't come but seeing him in front of her made her doubt go away. She wanted to run to him. For him to hold her but she knew that would never happen. But there wasn't any harm in still dreaming.
At the sounds of her footsteps Heero turned to face. He was happy to see her again though he wouldn't admit it out loud. When she had called him early he could detect fear in her voice a long with anxiety and excitement. He couldn't understand why she had wanted to meet him under a cold night like this one. He could tell it was going to rain any minute as the dark clouds hung over them.
"Why did you call me?" He asked her, as he looked her over.
Makoto frowned but shook it away not wanting to cause any arguments. As she opened her mouth to tell him what she called him for the rain started to fall from the clouds. 'Great.' She thought. 'I just needed that.'
"Well?" Heero asked her slightly impatiently. The rain was started to get to him and he didn't feel like getting a cold today or any day. The rain was quickly drenching the two of them and anything else in its path. "Why did you call me?"
'Just out with it Mako.' She told herself furiously. Sighing she said, "Heero remember what you said five months ago on the day Duo saw us?" She asked him not really expecting him to know what she was talking about. But to her surprise he nodded while he said, "I said I would take care of you if you're pregnant. What does that…?" He stopped when it dawned on him. She was pregnant! To confirm what he was thinking Mako pulled back her shirt so it would be skintight. He could see it perfectly now. She was having his child. He looked at her flabbergasted. He didn't know what to say or to do. Instead of stating the obvious he looked at her. "Who else knows?"
Mako shook her head. "I've been hiding this ever since it started to show Heero. No one else knows." She looked up at him with tears. "You're the only one I've told."
Heero immediately stared at her in slight shock. "You…didn't?"
Mako shook her head. "I wanted you to know first." She whispered as her gaze caught his. "Heero what am I going to do? I can't hide this forever."
Heero nodded agreeing with her. She was pregnant with his child. The thought made him happy. But her statement was true. They couldn't hide this kind of thing. Duo would truly have his neck now but he didn't care. Right now all he care about was Mako. She stood there looking lost as her head was bowed. Slowly he walked towards her and placed his arm around her waist. She looked at him surprised and he chuckled silently to himself. "Come on. We need to go somewhere dry." He whispered. "We'll have to tell the others later. But for now lets go to my place."
Mako nodded and rested her head on his shoulder as they walked in silence. She didn't want to know how Duo would take it. She didn't want to be there but she had too.
Once the reached his place Mako had wanted to clear her mind from everything so she put on the TV while Heero went in side his room to change from his wet clothes. He took a set of sweats for Mako to wear but when he reached her she was already sleeping on his couch. A small smile appeared on his lips when he saw her curl up in a ball. Slowly and steady he lifted her up from his couch and walked into his room. Where he changed her into his sweats and placed her on his bed. When done with his task he looked at her and reached to touch her stomach as if wanting to touch the human growing inside of her.
Suddenly he pulled away and walked out of the room and went to his laptop where he emailed all the other pilots telling them to come over with the girls at ten, an hour from now. He knew it would be impossible to hide it so might as well tell them.
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When everyone was there Heero excused himself by simply walking away and to his room where he saw Mako still sleeping. He would hate to wake her but he really wanted to get this over with. He shook her lightly and slowly her green eyes opened to stare at him with slight exhaustion. "Heero?"
"Come on Mako, let's go tell them." He spoke and helped her stand.
"They're here? Now!" She asked him slightly scared. "I thought we would wait, you know couple of days before telling them. I can't do this Heero. Duo will kill me…he'll kill you too!" She spoke pleadingly.
"Duo can't hurt me Mako." He whispered to her. "And he won't hurt you either he's too fond of you. Lets just get this over with so we don't have to worry about it later." He looked into her eyes.
Makoto nodded hesitantly and allowed Heero to hold her hand as he pulled her to where the others were. Once they stopped she stood behind Heero as if using him as a shield while she adverted her eyes from Duo's surprised one.
"What's going on?" Minako asked as she saw her two friends standing in front of them.
"Mako what is this?" Duo asked as he looked at her. "Didn't tell you to stay away from him?"
Heero narrowed his eyes. He knew Duo was only trying to protect the only family he had left and he could understand that but enough was enough. "Shut up Duo." He whispered harshly. "She is only here because I found her in the rain." He explained twisting his words a little.
"Then what's the big problem?" Quatre asked.
"Heero?" Mako whispered unsurely.
"She's pregnant." He whispered bluntly. "Any of you have a problem with that you can simply go to hell." His voice was calm, melodic, yet deadly all at once. Telling them he was dead serious and should not appose him.
The room was in silence as all eight people stared at the two in shock. They truly weren't expecting that. At first they didn't believe it until Mako had turned her face away from them.
Duo looked at Mako shocked. What was she thinking!? Kept repeating in his mind was he continued to stare. He couldn't understand how this could have happened. Ever since he saw her with Heero that was the last time. If she was pregnant then how come he didn't notice it before? How could she accept this baby when she knew she had to finish school and in only two years time will Crystal Tokyo be created. She didn't have time for one. Slowly he turned to look at Heero who returned his gaze. In his gaze he could see that he wouldn't back down and if he wanted to fight him then so be it. Duo had been friends with Heero for a long time and never did he see him standing in a protective away for someone. He began little by little understanding that his baby twin would be taken care of greatly. Duo stood up from the chair he was sitting in. "Mako come here." He whispered. When he saw her hesitate he smiled. "Don't be scared Ko-chan." He said with a smile.
Makoto looked at him surprised when she heard him call her by his nickname he had giving her. The last time he had used it was when he had came here. Removing herself from Heero she ran to duo and hugged him tightly. "Thank you." She whispered in his ear.
Heero silently sighed in relief as he watched them, closing his eyes he hoped the others wouldn't make it too difficult, but the main concern he had was Duo. He suddenly felt a hand on his shoulder and looked up to see happy blue eyes stare at him. "Usagi."
"I'm happy for you Heero." She whispered as she hugged him. "But…" Pulling away from him she looked at him crossly. "If you make her cry you won't only be dealing with Duo."
Unconsciously he nodded. Soon everyone gathered around the two of them and wished them luck.
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Time had past quickly for everyone. Heero had moved some of Mako's things with the help of Duo, Wufei, Quatre, and Trowa, while the girls had staid with Mako. Helping her arrange her things. As the days went by Heero had notice Mako's strange cravings of food. She would mix to kinds of food together and eat it all. Mostly juice was kept in the fridge. Heero was on his toes constantly for few exceptions.
Sighing Heero collapsed on his bed and closed his eyes for a moment but found him in a deep sleep.
"Heero?" Makoto called to him and stopped when he saw him on his bed. She slowly walked to him and covered him up with his covers. She smiled down at him as she brushed his hair away from his face and kissed his cheek. 'Love you.' She thought as she stood straight and walked away. She still longed for him to say those words to her. She smiled. He had kept his word to her and taken care of her. But all she cared about was he saying those words to her.
She slowly, with slight difficult sat down on a chair and closed her eyes. Her mind suddenly went to one of her doctor's appointment she had to go without Heero…
Flash back
"Kino-san." The doctor spoke as he came in to his office after going to see her scans. He sat in front of her in his chair and sighed. "We detect a slight problem."
Mako frowned she didn't like the sound of that. "What is it?"
"I will cut to the chase Kino and tell you that you might have severe complications during labor. When a mother to be or expecting is told about this is giving two options." He paused to look up from the papers in his hands. "One you can remove the baby now…"
"But, I can't do that." Mako whispered as she looked at the doctor with a mother's fear. "You expect me to kill my child!"
"Either that Kino-san or killed in labor." The doctor whispered.
"What?"
"If you don't give up this child you will die Kino." He said. "And your child might die as well."
Mako looked at him shocked as hell. Give up your child or die. Those were her choices. She didn't like them. No one would. But she had made up her mind when she had told Heero. She was keeping this child. "I love this baby Kioshi-san and I know Heero wants it. I won't kill my child." She looked up at him. "Please don't tell him any of this."
The doctor frowned but nodded as well. "If you wish."
End of Flash back
Tears had silently made their way down to her chin. She placed an arm on her round belly and smiled. "I won't kill you." She whispered.
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Early morning, Makoto was rushed into the hospital. While, Heero called the others and told them what was going on. They had arrived in thirty minutes to find Heero pacing the floor. For as long as they have known him he was not one to be pacing the floor nor showing worry. He had always had that indifference look on his face and now the perfect soldier was a nervous reck.
Few hours later doctor Kioshi stepped out of a room and faced them. He smiled slightly. "You must be for Kino-san?" He asked them. They all nodded. "It's a girl."
"Yes!!!" Mina yelled before she headed to Wufei. "You owe me ten dollars buddy." She spoke and everyone laughed but the doctor and Heero. They were facing each other and with a nod from the older man Heero followed him to his office. "Yuy-san, Kino-san is in a very critical situation. She doesn't have much time. We've tried our best…"
"Wait." Heero spoke stopping the doctor. "Just what are you saying?"
Kioshi sighed. "She had severe internal bleeding, we couldn't do anything."
Heero looked up at him shocked and pained.
"She knew there would be complications in her delivery, but she also knew how much you wanted this child. I could tell that she loved this baby more than her life…"
As the doctor continued to speak Heero was in total shock. His body was numb. 'She knew…' He thought as tears gathered little by little in his eyes. 'She's dying.'
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Makoto lay in bed with her daughter in her arms smiling adoringly at her. She looked up to see Duo seated on her right side of her bed. He too had a smile on his face as he stared down at his niece. "I want her to know me Duo." She spoke gaining his attention. "Who her mother was. What she was like. I want her to be able to answer all these questions on her own."
Duo frowned. He didn't like the way she was talking. "Mako of course she'll know you. You…"
Mako looked up at him with tears in her eyes. "I'm dying Duo." She whispered.
Duo's eyes widen in shock as he stared at her unable to speak.
Mako looked down at her daughter. "Here," She placed thick envelop in his hand. "This letter is for her. Give it to her on her sixteenth birthday, Duo. Its everything I want her to know." She whispered. Unnoticed to them Heero slipped into the room. "That letter is going to be her memories of me." She spoke silently but was heard by both men. She leaned down and kissed her baby's forehead, cheeks and chin before placing a quick kiss on her lips.
The door opened again and a nurse came in. "Kino-san, I need to take her back."
Makoto nodded and handed her, her baby and watched as she left. Her eyes caught Heero by the door and frowned sadly as she noticed his wet eyes. Duo also noticed him and kissed his sister's forehead before leaving the room. He didn't want to let her see him cry. But once he was with his friends the tears started rolling.
As he stepped into the waiting room, Usagi stood up alert. "Duo what's wrong?" She asked when he had buried his face in the crook of her neck. By now everyone was worried.
"She's dying." He whispered in her ear. Those two words sent Usagi into tears as sobs escaped her lips. "She's dying!" Duo yelled in pain as he wrapped his arms around her waist, holding her tightly. Soon, her heard the cries of his sister's friends but he didn't care. His sister was dying. Leaving him all alone. Damn it! Why would she leave him! Fate was so cruel. So cruel.
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"You hid it from me." Heero whispered. He was sitting on her right side his back turned to her. "Why?"
Mako looked up from her hands to look at him. "Heero." She called to him wanting him to face her. But he didn't. "Heero." She grasped his sleeve.
He shook his head as he tried to contain his tears.
"Heero, I love you. Promise me you'll let it go." She spoke. "Let your emotions out once in a while it won't kill you. Promise me tha…"
"No." Heero quickly spoke as he turned to face her.
"Promise me you'll name our daughter Miyo." She whispered gaining his attention quickly. Promise me, you'll welcome her into your arms Heero. Show her compassion like a showed you. Please promise me."
A tear fell from his eyes as he kissed her. "Mako."
"I'm sorry Heero." She cried. "I'm really sorry."
Heero brushed her hair away so he could see her face properly. His tears were now falling freely as he looked at the angel he was about to lose. He lifted her head so she would look at him. "Don't go." His eyes weld up with more tears as he spoke. "Please." He buried his face in her neck as he moved his body so he would be lying next to her. Mako held on to him tightly as she tried not to cry.
"I love you Mako." He whispered
A sob left her lifts as she finally heard the words she always wanted to hear. Slowly her grip lost its strength. She looked up at the ceiling as she slowly closed her eyes, while the hand of death took a hold of her. A sigh escaped her lips as her body went limp telling Heero she was gone, yet when he looked at her he saw a small smile on her face.
"I love you."
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Author's Note: I'm done! Thank you all for the review. I know it's sad, it made me cry literally. Please tell me what you think. I know Heero was a bit out of character but goddamn it I needed him to show his emotions for once. I wanted their daughter's name Miyo (me-yo) because I like the meaning and I thought it would suit her. A beautiful blessed generation. That's the meaning!!! Blessed, she didn't die, beautiful, hello she had gorgeous parents and generation, their offspring.
The Other Lover chapter 11 will be updated next week or after finals. I got to study -_- so don't expect updates so soon!
