If any of you have read my other story Things that change this is originally how I thought the first I love you's would go. But it changed. That story isn't finished yet but this is all I'm going to write for this one.



I had said I Love you. I can't remember saying that to anyone before. And he didn't say it back. He kissed me yes. I fell into that kiss with all the passion and love I felt for him but in the back of my mind I thought he didn't say it back. Did I expect him to? WE had only been dating for two months. One month in secret one with Ron and Hermione knowing. It was to hard keeping secrets from them. Hermione was supportive. Ron ignored me for a whole day, now he just turns away as I reach for my cloak at night.

I knew I loved Draco Malfoy from the minute my lips touched his. It took my only moments to realize, a bit longer to convince myself that it was all right. Today I said the words out loud. I had heard them so many times in my head. I wanted to say them the first time we made love but laying in his arms that night no words came to me. So tonight a week after that, I had said I love you. And he didn't say it back. We lay together in our secret room on the floor covered with blankets, his arm wrapped around my waist his head snuggled against my neck. I think he's asleep but I don't look. I close my own eyes.



He said I love you. Panic ran through my entire body. He loved me. He truly loved me. Harry Potter doesn't lie. But I couldn't say it back. I had been programmed for 16 years not to admit any emotion but hate. I had never said I love you to anyone. I wanted to say it, I know he wanted me to say it; instead I kissed him putting in that one kiss all that I am. I am his. I love him. So why can't I say it out loud. Nothing is stopping me. Nothing but my own fear of losing him or caring that much for a single person. But I do love him with all my soul, which he helps cleanse. I feel his heart beat I hear his breath slow as he falls asleep. My arm tightens around him. He is mine. "I love you Harry Potter." I whisper into the dark.

A small smile formed on the boy who lived lips as he drifted into sleep.