When All Is Said and Done. Chapter 2 Rage and Regret



I feel myself becoming Numb and Confused

I stayed for her.

I opened up to her, showed her who I really was underneath the Brick Wall I tired so hard to protect.

And know she leaves me.

I poured out my Heart and My Soul too her..

But it doesn't seem to Matter now

She left me....How could she leave me? After all that we've been through together?

I feel myself fall to the ground beneath me, as the Bench Explodes into a Million Pieces

I stand up and brush Myself off,

'Get a Grip, Guerin, Its not like like she's the only girl out there' I say trying to convince myself that its true

But I know its not.

Maria was the only girl I could ever love...

But It doesn't matter now

I stand up and Brush Myself Off

Never Again I say to myself.

I opened up, and look what happened

I walk along the empty streets Angered by all that's Happening

And then it hits me......

Its all my Fault

If I hadn't been such a Jerk to her, If I would have accepted my Feelings for her all along

Maybe we would still be together..

I feel so upset and Dead inside as I Pass A very Familiar Street

'How did I end up coming down this Sidewalk?' I ask myself

As I continue to walk it begins to pour rain

I stop as I stand in front of Maria's House

She's standing by the window

She sees me

I look at her

Its just like the night when I came to her after Hank..after I left Hanks Trailer

She Starts to open the window

But I continue walking

I've hurt her too much, to risk doing it again.

I go back to the Apt and Change out of my Wet clothes

I glance outside and see that the rain has Stopped

I'm too Upset to sleep, I need to think

I leave quietly try not to Wake Max

I get outside and climb on my Cycle

Where are the keys?

Last time I had them was when I was at Maria's earlier today...

I must have left them there

I make my way over to her house

I sneak in through her window

I see the keys sitting on the Nightstnad beside her

I also see something

I see the face of an angel, asleep on her bed

I see Alex's Guitar still Cradled in her hands

I gently remove it and lay it up against the wall

I pull the Blanket up over her, tucking her in

I kiss her gently on the forehead

I let myself out, the way I had gotten in

I tried to walk but the emotion welling up inside of me was too much too take

I walked around to the back of the house, and sat against it

A Tear rolled down my Cheek, Followed by another, and then another,

'Things are never going to be the same' He thought as he cried

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Maria awoke to the sound of her window closing, She knew instantly who it was. She hurried to the window not seeing Michael anywhere. She couldn't see him at all. Maria cried as she lied back down in the bed..alone....



THE END?

(Well Folks that was chapeter two let me know what you think...if you all like it I might write another chapter)