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Love in Blue Eyes

Part One: Altered Destiny

Chapter One: The One She Loved Most

Hitomi lay peacefully in her warm bed, letting the rays of light shine on her. It's tranquil heat made her even more tired, but she knew it was already late morning. So yawning deeply, she swung her slender legs over the side and stood up. Even the room was still warm, mid-spring was always that way, Hitomi found. Awakening the true beauty of the flowers and new life before the scorching heat of summer. On the small bed table to her right was a beautifull picture frame. Inside was a handsome man, and herself. And in his arms was a little boy, only just past the age of one. His short brownie-blonde hair reflected that of his father and mother. But his eyes were neither green or brown, they were silver. They were all smiling, but none as much as Hitomi. Those had been the happiest days of her life. "Oh Sirus......" she whispered as a tear slid down her now pale cheek. Turning her back on the picture she slipped into a long summer dress and sandals, then walked out the back door into the garden behind her large victorian home. The newly bloomed garden was lush with flower and greenery. Hitomi's eyes fixed themselves on a small white gate on the far side of the yard, with an arc over it. Pink roses, in full bloom were scattered all over. Everything in her garden was beautifull "Sirus had loved to garden." she murmured "He would've loved to see this." But the thoughts of her former husband created a tight knot of grief in her chest, so she let go quickly, not wanting to bring on more tears. Walking through the short grass she made her way to the gate and opened it, which led out into a large sloping field stretching as far as the eye could see. There was a small, well worn pathway going down the hill to end up at a large cherry tree on the far side of the vast expanse. She began to run down the dirt path towards it, needing time to herself. "I need time to think things through." she whispered into the sky. A strong wind blew the grass, creating the illusion of a green ocean. It was all beautifull, not a cloud stained the blue sky, and the heat was just right. After a few minutes, Hitomi reached the tree and sat down under it, being plunged into it's refreshing shade. The wind had died down, but it was still enough to gently blow her now shoulder length sandy brown hair. For a moment she just relaxed, breathing in the crisp air of the new morning. Then dipping into her pocket she pulled out a silky white feather. Her lush green eyes gazed at it, remembering Van. Sighing, she knew that she wouldn't be able to talk to him. Two years after her departure from Gaea, the connection had been cut off. The last thing she remembered him telling her was "Hitomi, I'm sorry." Even now, ten years later, she didn't know what he had meant by that remark. It had buried itself deep inside her, creating a pit of despair that had never gone away. But then only a month after the cut off, she had met Sirus, and it seemed to had gone away. In that blissfull year, so many things had happened. And she remembered, with a painfull smile, the day he had proposed to her. It had been the night of their highschool graduation. She had smiled deeply and said 'Yes'. Then six months later, they were officialy married. Being so happy, she had forgotten about Van. It still was, something hard to do, to remember him after all these years. But again, her happiness had overflowed the day their son Gavin had been born, and Van, once again had been ignored. Then one day, precicely three days after the picture in her room had been taken, on his way home from work Sirus had been killed in a car crash. Gavin hadn't cried, not being old enough to understand. But Hitomi, now emotionaly scarred for life had wept bitterly, and for weeks on end. She had sent her son to live with her mother and father for a while, until she felt well enough to care for him. And even now, she still hadn't recovered. "Gavin!" she suddenly yelled, realizing that he might be awake looking for her in the house. Jamming the feather back into her dress she sprinted full out back towards the white gate.

"Mrs.Yomori, why isn't my mommy taking me to school?" Gavin asked in his sweet small voice. He was feeling very confused, why was Ida's mom taking him, not his? "I'm giving her a break. She needs help right now. Especialy so soon after the accident......" the middle-aged woman replied, but cut herself off, realizing that the young boy might be sensitive to the subject. Gavin's close friend Ida, looked at him gently. "It's ok." he whispered so his mother wouldn't hear "You don't have to reply." Silently Gavin nodded in response, playing with his fingers nervously. I hope mom knows he thought to himself, worrying about her. Gavin was incredibly intelligent for his mere age of six, and even though he should be in kindergarden he was in Grade one. His chin length brownie-blonde hair swung across his face as Mrs.Yomori opened up her window. Brushing it back irritably he sighed, hoping his mother was ok. Ever since his father had died, she'd been really distant to him, only keeping to herself. And constantly sitting under the cherry tree in the field by his home with a pretty white feather in her hand. Often she would sort of go into little trances and say to him in a soft voice that he looked alot like someone she used to know. She called him Van. But he never found out who this man was. And inwardly, he really didn't want to find out. I hope mom's ok he thought again, as he continued to gaze out the window.

The knot of fear faded as Hitomi read the note. She was happy that Mrs.Yomori was taking Gavin, it would create more time for herself. Slumping into a deep armchair she turned on the television, hoping to wash away her sadness with the sounds and pictures. A small shrine, her and Gavin had made for Sirus caught her attention and the heart wrenching grief started up again, making her break into tears. She buried her face into the soft velvet, shuddering with sorrow. Would it ever go away? Would the sadness and emptiness ever leave her? "Oh Sirus......." she sobbed as another wave of tears erupted. Suddenly, everything around her began to blur and sway and Hitomi felt as though she would vomit. Persperation lashed out on her face as the room began to darken. Then it was all viciously replaced by roaring fire and she knew what was happening "A vision......" she said with horror. The flames grew in intensity and the fire was licking at her feet. Evil laughter began to reverberate around her and she screamed, hands flying to her ears to drone out the sound. When she opened her eyes she was standing on a high plateau above a burning wasteland. Screams of agony and pain sounded throughout the world at her feet. Again the laughter started and the earth beneath her began to crumble. And she fell, deep into the abyss. Her visions had never been this intense, and she knew that it would surely kill her mentaly if it ever ended. Her fragile mind was shattering with grief and unbearable pain. "Please stop!!" she moaned as the space seemed to swallow her whole. But then it did stop, and Hitomi awoke shivering on the floor, the sweat beads still covering her clammy white face. There was a sudden knock on the door, and she knew it was Gavin. She must've been unconscious for many hours for him to be home. Sitting up, still shivering uncontrolably, she slowly walked to the front of the cold house. Hitomi opened the door and there stood her son with a warm smile on his face. But the smile faded as he saw her. In her disheveled dress and tangled sweaty hair. "Mom." he whimpered "What happened?" She sank to her knees and embraced him, breaking into tears once more. "Oh Gavin." she sobbed "I don't know." It was then that he started to cry "Mommy, what's wrong with you?" he asked, tears streaming down his face. His silver eyes pleaded her to stop crying. She looked at him, suprised at his calling her 'Mommy'. He hadn't used that name in ages. He was so worried about her, she knew. Gavin just wanted her to be alright. All this time, she had been so self-absorbed with herself, not paying much attention to him. She had ignored the fact that he cared about her so much, and that he wanted her to be happy again. And she knew that he was upset too. That he was filled with grief at not having a father, and she had just pushed him away, only wanting to think about herself. "Oh Gavin I'm sorry......" she whimpered like he had done only moments before. "Sorry for what?" he asked, now having stopped crying. "For not being your mother." Hitomi replied, kissing him lightly on the fore-head. His beautifull silver eyes shimmered and he said " I love you mommy." Then he hugged her tightly, not wanting to let go. And she smiled, now realizing that everything was going to be alright.

Gavin felt so much better. His mother was going to be alright, and she was slowly pulling him back into her heart. It had seemed as though when Sirus had died, she had had only enough room for her desceased husband, and not for him. But now, she was begining to heal her broken heart, and Gavin was her son again. Even still, there was somehow a small sign of grief in her eyes. And it wasn't grief for his father, it was for someone else. Perhaps the man Van she had so often talked about before was the one, perhaps he had been a close friend or brother that she had never mentioned before. I should ask her the young boy finally concluded, having spent countless hours thinking about it. But it wasn't going to be that easy. Every time he would bring up the subject, she would just smile and tell him to 'go get some fresh air'. It was begining to get very frustrating for Gavin. After much hastle and stress he just blurted it out "Mom, tell me who this Van man is. And please don't change the subject." he said tersely, glaring at her. Taken aback, she blinked furiously and took his hand firmly in his. "Gavin, maybe it is time I told you the whole story." she answered calmly, her eyes softening. "What do you mean?" he asked, shying away from her grasp. She smiled a little and took his small hand again. "It's time I told you about my time in Gaea." she answered. Gavin gasped in shock. That was the place from her stories! He had always loved those stories, they had always seemed so magical and beautifull. But never, even in his wildest dreams had he thought that Gaea was a real place. His mother never told a lie, so he new it must be true. Without waiting for him to reply, Hitomi started her explanation "Well, it all started twelve years ago. I was a regular high-school student. I had good grades, many friends, and I was on the track team. I happened to be very fast, and won many of my races. Alot of those successes I thought were the result of the lucky pendent, that I got from your great-grandmother. It was very interesting, the way it swung back and forth, always keeping time, but I just dismissed it believing that it wasn't something to be rekoned with. Little did I know that it was more than just a lucky pendent. For during one of my races, as I was running, a crash of light shot down from the sky and a boy appeared in front of me. I yelled, realizing that I was going to crash right into him. It was then that he turned to face me, and I ran right though him. And then I was falling, deep into a bottomless pit. But only a moment later I shot awake in the sick room in the school. I thought it was just a horrible dream, but it was a vision. A good friend, Amanno Sempai was leaning over me. "I'm glad you're ok" he said, and I nodded in response. A few days later, everything was fine. I hadn't mentioned my sighting of the boy or the dream to my other good friend Yukari. I knew it would just bother her. But she was already bothered, I soon found out. It just so happened that Amanno was leaving to America in a few days and she was really upset for me. I had had a crush on him for the longest time, and she told me that I should tell him before he left. I decided I would. The next day, after school I got changed into my track clothes and ran out after him. I asked him to time my one hundred race, and if I could run it, he would honour me with my first kiss. He agreed. So I started the race, and suprisingly, the boy appeared again. This time he was real. I crashed right into him and we both toppled over. Getting up in rage he yelled at me to watch where I was going, and that if I wanted my life I should get out of there as quickly as possible. I asked him why, and I found out. Some portal opened up infront of us, and a huge dragon appeared. The boy pushed me aside and drew his sword, charging the beast. The dragon spat out a huge inferno of flame, but the boy covered himself with his sheild. I heard Yukari scream as the dragon turned on me, Amanno and herself. She had been watching from the stands, and was now on the ground with us. The giant creature leaped and started running towards us. The boy told us to run while he tried to distract it. And we did. But Yukari slipped and hurt her ankle. Amanno picked her up and continued running. By this time, the boy had caught up and was battling it once more. With a mighty cry, he sliced though the dragon. Watching in horror and disgust, I saw him stick his hand in and pull a strange orb out from where it's heart should be. I ran up to him and slapped him, asking him what he thought he was doing. The orb started glowing and a coloum of light shot down on both of us. We started to rise and Amanno screamed out my name. He ran towards me, reaching out his hand for me to grasp it. I couldn't reach it, but the pendent did. I took it and that was the last thing I remembered before being transported to Gaea."

"And that was when, my journey started. An evil country named Zaibach was attaking and it was mine, Van, Allen and everyone else we met's task to stop them. After a long struggle, we finally defeated it and destroyed the fate-alteration engine. It was then that I had to leave Gaea, and all the friends I held dear, including my love, Van. I promised him that we would keep in touch and he held my hand for the last time before that familiar coloum of light appeared again and took me back to Earth. We did communicate for a while, but after two years, the link was severed. The last thing he said was "Hitomi, I'm sorry." Then, I met your father, and I forgot about Van. I guess I stopped loving him, because I loved your father so much. There was nothing about him and Van that were the same. They were incredibly different in every way. But Sirus was so kind and gentle, and smart and funny, and I know he loved me back more than any other woman. Again, Van was forgotten. Until now, I thought I would never talk about him again. But I guess your curiosity has gotten the best of me. I still don't know where I stand with him. I know I'll never forget your father, Gavin. But at the same time, I want to be with Van again." she sighed again than finished her story "That's pretty much all I can tell you. I've told you all I know."

Gavin reached out to hug her and say thankyou, but before he could, a single tear rolled down her cheek, which was soon followed by many others. "I guess now that I think about it." she said, with grief staining her beautifull voice. "I miss Van so much. I wish I could see him again and tell him I am ok." The young boy gaped at his mother. He had never really thought that she still loved the charming boy from Gaea. Gavin thought that she only loved his father, not him. "Mom...." he started to say, but was rudely interupted as she jumped from her chair and ran out the back door and into the garden. Momuntarily stunned, he ran after her and found that she had exited the garden and was sprinting though the field. The white door, left ajar, was swinging in the breeze. But the young boy persisted racing through it too. "Van!!!" he heard her yell, and a white coloum of light shot down from the sky. "Mom!!!" he screamed, reaching out his hand for hers. "Gavin, take my hand!" she shrieked in return. But he was too late, she was already out of grasp. "Gavin no!!" Tears streamed down her face, illuminated by the swirling energy around her. And then Gavin started to cry, his father had left him, and now his mother too was leaving. What was he going to do? Without her, he couldn't imagine living. It was too much for him to bear. I have to reach her!! his insides screamed. There was only one chance left. Streching out his arm as far as it would go, he jumped full force into the air. Time seemed to slow as he ascended towards his mother. He could see unimaginable fear and grief in her eyes, it reflected what he was feeling. And then, they connected. Her face lit up with joy, as she grasped her son's hand. But the hold wasn't strong enough, he couldn't hold on. They released each other and Gavin fell to the ground. "Mommy!!!" he cried,tears streaming down his face. "Gavin!!" she yelled. That was the last thing she said as the light carried her away into the evening sky. And the young boy was left on Earth, continuing to sob into the cold grass.

Mommy.........

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