1 Author: Spike 'n Cordy

Summary: When Angel's soul becomes permanent but he neglects to tell the group and they hear it from Spike. How will they react?

Rating: PG13

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Authors notes: Okay her are some ideas I have for the title. (They're not very good) Tell me which one you think is best or give me other options. I'M DESPERATE.

Abandoned

Lies Undone

Reasons

Inevitability

Changing Worlds

Saving Souls

Bestfriends With a Soulless Vampire

Forgive and Forget

Walking Wounded



Authors notes: Just a quick note. I started this last year so it does not relate to this season at all. Enjoy and please review.

Timeline: Set after Reunion and Crush.



Chapter Five - Regrets

Los Angeles

Wesley Wyndam-Pryce squeezed his eyes shut in an attempt to clear them. It seemed as if he read this page a thousand times already. He pushed his chair away from the table and turned towards the coffee machine. After taking a large swallow of the steaming liquid he went back to his table in the corner.

Looking around the office he saw Willow and Xander cuddling on the couch talking to Buffy. Angel was in his office with the doors closed. He and Buffy had had another fight. Wesley wondered what it was about this time, then shook his head. It didn't matter. Last time they fought they were making up for days, leaving Wesley alone to fight the Dirsler demon. Not that he minded, he very rarely fought any more. Not since Buffy said she didn't want anyone else's blood on her hands.

That's the reason Gunn stop coming by. He was the muscle. But with Buffy here he was a researcher. He did not like that at all and decided he'd stick with his crew.

So here Wesley is. Sitting alone at a table of books that need to be read. Wondering if he made a mistake coming back to Angel Investigations. No, knowing he made a mistake and wondering how to fix it. With Gunn's departure and Cordelia's disappearance, he truly felt alone.

He stopped worrying about Cordelia a week after she took off. Well that's not true he still worried, just not as much. She sent him a post card telling him that she was safe, happy and with Spike. She wrote that she wasn't coming back any time soon but she had a new mission in life. She told him that she loved him and Gunn, and would miss them.

Since then Wesley's received a letter or post card every week. He's never been able to write her back, to tell her about everything here, to beg her to come back and take him with her. She never writes from the same place twice.

Once he read a news paper article from New Mexico about two people, fitting Cordelia and Spike's descriptions, saving a bus load of children from hijackers that seemed to resemble vampires. That made him miss her more. She was fighting the good fight, while her was researching the good books.

Wesley didn't even realize he was crying, until tears hit the page he was reading. He quickly reached for his handkerchief and dabbed his eyes. He looked up when Angel opened the door to the office and stepped out. He nodded at Wesley before walking towards Buffy. They spoke in soft tones but he was sure Angel was apologizing. Angel always seemed to be the one to apologize. Maybe it is always his fault. Wesley doubted that very much. But who was he to say anything? Their relationship doesn't seem to be as eternal as they both thought. But that's just his opinion. A vicious demon has more say then him in this group. Speaking of demons.

"I found it," his outburst caused both couples to look at him strangely. "The way to kill the Killihara demon. It's simple really, you just grab the third-"

"Horn and rip it off. Yeah Wes we know," Xander laughed at him, "Willow and I figured it out about two hours ago."

Wesley's face went red with rage but he kept his voice level, "And you didn't bother to tell me."

"Sorry," Willow said snuggeling closer to Xander's side, "We got side tracked."

He was visibly shaking with his anger, but spoke with such calm even Angel was a little frightened, "Fine, okay," he grabbed his jacket and stormed out of the hotel, "call me if you ever actually need me."



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