My Sacrifice
By PNS*
Summary: Takes place after Wrecked. Buffy and Angel try to sort out their lingering love.
Hello my friend, we meet again
It's been awhile, where should we begin…feels like forever
Within my heart are memories
Of perfect love that you gave to me
I Remember
A tear slid down Buffy's cheek. In every dream or nightmare nothing like this had ever come up. It was so strange. Angel looked at her with concern, rocking the baby in his arms. He looked so sure, and so fatherly.
"Angel, he's beautiful." Buffy said to ease the tension. "I'm happy for you."
"I know you never pictured it like this." Angel slipped a hand out from under the baby and took her hand. "But it means a lot to me that you're here." What more could he say? How sorry he was that this wasn't her baby? That she might never have this chance? That some higher power kept robbing her of her love?
"Always." She bent over and kissed the baby softly on the forehead and he let go of her hand. They looked at each other fondly and then she headed to the stairs, to make her way back out of the hotel. The minute she stepped out the door the baby began to wail.

When you are with me
I'm free…I'm careless…I believe
Above all the other's we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice
Buffy stood on the porch, looking at the full moon, the silver light filtered through the bare trees. She recalled everything. And the life she should have known. God, with Darla? How could he. And then his words came back. "Because I want you so badly. I want to take comfort in you and know it'll cost me my soul and part of me doesn't care." How long ago was that? It seemed so long. And the times in between. The horrible incident with Faith and then at her mother's death and those few moments at that rest stop on the highway after she came back. Those moments she told nobody about.
"Buffy."
"Angel."
"You have no idea how upset I was."
"You missed me?"
"Oh God Buffy. I had to leave the country." She remembered the way he came up to her and put his cold hands on her face and looked into her eyes. She would always be his girl. "But I know you have to do this alone."
"I do?"
"Yes."

We've seen our share of ups and downs
Oh how quickly life can turn around in an instant
It feels so good to reunite
Within yourself and within your mind
Let's find peace there
Angel rocked the baby carrier with his foot and looked out over the LA skyline. Seeing Buffy again he felt all the old emotions rushing back to him. God how he still loved her. Not the way he used too, but she was his little Buffy. And she was grown now. And she was in pain. Pain he couldn't heal. The sky was bright tonight. Where was Buffy now?

When you are with me
I'm free…I'm careless…I believe
Above all others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice
"Buffy."
"Go away. Right now Spike."
"I know you went to see Angel. What did he do to you?"
"Nothing."
"You know you can't lie to me."
"How did you feel when Drusilla broke up with you? What would you feel if she had a kid now? Or she died and came back? Huh? Tell me!...You don't know. So leave me alone."
"I want to know." soemhow she found herself back in his arms, desperate to fill the void that resulted from part of her soul staying in heaven.

I just want to say hello again