Spike pulled away.
'Should I hurt the Slayer? Should I let her live? Should I kill her? Torture her? So many choices… Why am I doing this? Well, maybe I should let her go…no, that'll make me seem weak… I'll hold her hostage! I can't hurt her for some reason. She…has a power over me. She my knees wobble; she makes me have butterflies in my stomach; she makes me smile. She is so beautiful. Her shiny dark blond hair smells of strawberries, she always wears vanilla scented perfume, and she wears very stylish clothes. Where in bloody hell is this coming from??? I…think I'm falling for her. No. No, Spike, get a grip. You are not in love with the Slayer. I always tell her I am…but I don't mean it that way. Do I? Oh no…I do. I am in love with Buffy Summers. I cannot deny it anymore!'
'Why didn't he bite me? Why did he pull away? Is he going to kiss me? He is looking at me differently. With…love. Does Spike love me? Do I love Spike? I think so…I mean, when he looks at me like that, I start to tremble. When his soft, cold hands run up and down my arms, I get this tingly feeling. He always makes me smile…and laugh. That's why I always push him away. Because whenever he comes near me I get "the feeling". But I think I'm pushing him too far away. He never tries to get me happy anymore, and he barely ever touches my face or shoulder. Maybe I should tell him how I feel…'
"Spike…I…I…" Buffy stuttered. She wasn't sure she could say it.
"What, pet?" Maybe this will tell him. Buffy took Spikes face in her hands and pressed their lips together. He pulled away, staring in amazement at Buffy.
" You love me?" Spike said somewhere between hopefully and playfully.
" Do you love me?" She grinned.
" What kinda question is that? Of course, love!" They kissed again.
" But this…we could never be, you know that."
" What?"
" We don't love each other… we probably just lust each other."
Buffy snapped angrily, " Are you saying I don't know what I feel?"
"No-"
"Yes you did!" She yelled. "Now I'm mad!" Buffy picked up a vas and launched it at his head…
